These dreams are unreal... Had a scary dream last night I was being stalked, and it felt like it lasted forever. I woke up heart racing and took me and hour to relax. I realized I didn't take my Lexapro on time. Anyone else get scary dreams after missing a dose?
Everything is above 400, but is 420 competitive enough? I have a gpa of 3.8
My hamster has a mark on her nose and I'm not sure what it is. I think her nose was a little wet too. Maybe she cut it on something? Anyone have any ideas if this is concerning and if I should get her checked out?
I have struggled with anxiety and death anxiety since I was 12.
Recently, it's been so bad. Ever since I came home from college for Summer break I haven't been able to fall asleep until I reach physical exhaustion.
My mind is so active at night dwelling on my death anxiety and "what if" scenarios. I feel like I can't live my life anymore. From the second I open my eyes to the second i fall asleep I'm worrying about the end or just worrying in general. I'm at my breaking point.
I got in an argument with my girlfriend over text and had the worst panic attack ever. It wasn't even a big fight, but i was shaking uncontrollably and out of breath like I had run up a flight of stairs. I know this isn't normal, and I wish that every minor inconvenience didn't make me feel like the worst person in the world.
It's so exhausting I'm always thinking. I'm always in my head. A plane going too loudly over my house? It's going to crash into the building and kill me. My girlfriend doesn't respond after going out? She's been kidnapped and killed. Worst case after worst case, and I can't control it. It's how I'm wired I guess.
I feel like a baby. There's little kids that are much braver than me and I'm an adult. I know there's something wrong with me, but I don't know how to fix it. I tried online therapy, but when I was with the therapist I felt so safe, and so the exposure therapy she was trying to do, didn't help too much.
My doctor prescribed me atenolol which has been my saving grace for the past few months. I don't overuse it I promise. On the contrary I actually am too anxious about taking more than I should accidentally.
Has anyone experienced that? You know you only took one pill, but as soon as you close your mouth you second guess and think you took more? Why is that??
Also I feel so exhausted and worried about myself that I overlook other people's emotions and insecurities because I'm so physically tired of the weight I carry, that I just want to brush it off, so i don't have to focus on theirs. I'm not a selfish person, but this anxiety is making me so cold.
I feel so misunderstood. My family is not anxious at all. They couldn't be more carefree. I have nothing to worry about but I worry all the time. My partner has no anxiety about these sort of things. She's not scared of death at all. She only worries about things that have happened or how she has to prepare, etc. Normal things to worry about. But no one I know has this irrational fear of everything in life.
Sometimes I play the guitar, and it really helps. I'm not religious, but I play the old folk songs that talk about God or dying. Its soothing.
Ive been really emotional recently too. I cry almost every day, even when there's nothing to cry about. I hold it in until im alone and just sniffle and feel sorry for myself. Im so exhausted. I just want to be able to enjoy life again.
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my Syrian hamster Weedle with her ball
So for context it was my gf's bday today and we had a party planned for her at the beach. Just a few people, chill vibes nothing crazy. Me and her paid for everything: food, pizza, desert, drinks, we just told people to pull up and have fun, there were really no expectations. However, our two roommates didn't show up at all. One of them was busy with "sorority stuff" and the other said she "had a sore throat". They knew about this for weeks ahead of time and still didn't make time. By the way these two girls went out Friday and Saturday to random frat parties and sorority events but couldn't make one day for one of their close friends. They didn't even get her a gift or say happy birthday. What kinds of friends are those?
Obviously at the party I start talking crap abt them and all these people agree that what they did was messed up. After the beach we came back to our apartment with four other people and played just dance in front of the TV. It wasn't late or anything it was maybe 6pm and still bright outside. The roommates come out of their rooms just to yell at our guests and tell them to leave. For reference they have people over all the time getting ready for parties late and being extremely loud. We never said anything about it but now I wish we had bc it seems like such a double standard. Also, they didn't even acknowledge or apologize to my gf for missing her party. So my gf starts to confront them and they end up yelling and making a huge scene in front of our guests. I get involved too bc its a two vs one and I start yelling at them. Then they have the nerve to call my gf a bad friend. Like how? These girls are so utterly selfish and rude. I don't know maybe it's not as big a deal as I'm making it out but until recently me and her have considered them friends. Now we unfollowed them on every social and plan not to talk to them for the rest of the school year until we move out in three weeks.
There's no way Im going to try to mend the relationship bc I've seen their true colors and they're ugly. Dont know if I should make a big deal out of this and confront them again today or just let it go.