u/LongjumpingAssist719

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I'm 15 and a slut lol, I've been talking to these people since I was 11, I never learn. something horrible happened to me once I was blackmailed into doing awful things and didn't want to go online for months bc ig I kinda get trauma, but later I spoke to one of them anyway. I’m literally such an idiot lol.

He’s been ignoring me all day today. I thought he liked me but I don’t even know his name or what he looks like. This is what I get for being so naive and such a whore. He has my photos too, lol. Who knows, maybe he’s posting them somewhere.

It’s embarrassing, but I like it. It’s the only thing that makes me feel better and calms me down. I even do it over little things that bother me. Can anyone else relate?

I’m just so awkward and not normal

I love him, he is 25 and I am 15. It’s really fucked up I know, but I matter to him. I ask about his interests, like, “What kind of music do you like?” and then he asks, “What about you?” I feel cherished and loved. I love the way he talks, and I want to live with him, get married, and all that. Do you think what I’m feeling is just temporary?

Okay, for context: when I was 12, I met a man, honestly I don't remember how maybe on TikTok or Telegram. Anyway, we talked and I sent him photos, but at one point I refused to do what he was asking because the requests were a bit strange. He then started blackmailing me, threatening to post them on social media unless I sexually abused my dog.
Well, I'm female, so there was no penetration of any kind, but I did do certain disgusting things, I probably shouldn't go into detail. Anyway, that's it, I only did it twice before blocking him, even though I was scared. I'm okay now but for years I felt weird and uncomfortable around dogs.

I hate my life, I hate my body so much it makes me cry, I don’t want to transition I'll never look like a man, it shouldn't affect me so much but it does, I try to suppress it but that feeling always comes back

I’ll never be a man, no matter how much I want to be one. It makes me angry it’s so pathetic. sometimes I read mlm fanfics and cry. I’m possibly just a weird fetishist, I guess, but it still makes me angry knowing this is my only life. I fantasize about reincarnation a lot, I just want to die and wake up in the body I want.

i would be happy if I were white, I would be beautiful.

I'll never be beautiful, I hate my shit colored skin so much. I hate summer, I hate my 3c hair. I hate my lips, my nose, I hate when people refer to me as what I am, I hate, hate, hate hate when people ask me what I am and I have to say what third world country my parents are from, I hope my children come out with beautiful European features.

Sometimes she would have sex or masturbate right next to me, I thought it was normal even though it bothered but since we shared a bed, there was nothing I could do.

When I hit puberty she forced me to bathe with her, sometimes she would touch me down below claiming she was cleaning me, If I tried to say no she would get angry, and I knew things would only get worse so I just let it happen, i know it was just touching, but it really affected me, i used to cry very often before going to sleep, when my breasts started to grow she was constantly touching them when we were lying in bed and would squashed them while bathing me, I feel like it’s not a big deal and that I’m simply overreacting bc we are women and there was no rape, but i still hate touching or looking at my body, It feels disgusting and I don't think I'll ever get over this feeling

I don’t know if this is the right sub, but I sometimes see people saying they feel bad about their thoughts and I don’t, I have a lot of fantasies involving animals certain ones turn me on and the corpses, but I don’t feel bad about them, even though I don’t think I’d ever actually act on those fantasies, does anyone else feel like this?

I hate my life, I think about being a man 24/7, I rarely think of myself as a woman because I don’t like it, but remembering that I am one makes me sad, I don’t know. I hate my body so much, I’ve cried at night because I don’t have a flat chest or just bc I’m not a man, I try not to think about it but it hurts so much I don’t know why. I don’t like romantic relationships because I wouldn’t want to date someone as a woman, I struggle with changing clothes or taking showers, sometimes I imagine myself as male celebrities 😭, I feel really weird I feel so much shame i don’t feel normal