u/Loose-Farm-8669

I've been doing at least an hour everyday. For several months And my meditations were starting to get vivid and intense. Now I feel like I'm starting to daydream again and the hour doesn't even feel like enough the hour feels too easy.

I started trying to focus on the breath but I hate it. I think I'm going to go back to zazen or possibly try tai chi or focus on the flame of a candle. My only worry is if I get into too many disciplines I'm worried I'll become a jack of all meditative trades and master of none.

The habit is so in me now that I'm confident that I will continue through the difficulties but I'm trying to figure out which discipline is right for me. I think it's "just sitting" but I'm unsure

They were eaten for..... sustenance.

I wonder if that's was on purpose

DDDDDDDDD?

I have bipolar disorder possibly adhd too. Same with my wife and we both constantly lose our keys, wallets, planners etc.

But since I've started getting really serious with my practice I'm not only able to retrace my stuff but actively make note of her items and where I see them.

I'm not consciously doing this per se, but it seems to be an interesting and welcome byproduct of my meditation practice.

Today I had a memory I didn't even know existed. I was at a public gathering in mid summer people were gathered in a grass field with picnic blankets and I had my velcro sonic the hedgehog shoes on. I must have been 2 or 3 years old 1992 or 93