u/Maleficent-Ask8450

I have a therapist. I cannot take anxiety meds due to the meds I’m on already for other issues. Anxiety my old friend, you’ve come to play with me again. All I ever do, I hate you. Today there’s no sunshine, my heart is broken into bits. Men lie, I haven’t dared one who doesn’t. I deserve to be loved and spoken to very least in the phone. I deserve to be included. I don’t deserve to be shit on. Relationship suck I hate having flashbacks the way my deceased spouse used to treat me. I need a Xanax bad.

I love you. You cannot give me the damn consideration just fricken tell me already. Stop stringing me along. But you won’t! You’re a coward!… makes me so emotional!

I am not some play toy- I am not your f7,k buddy! I am someone who has a heart. Who loves, who has feelings. Apparently he doesn’t! Give me a damn break just fucking tell me the truth I’m the last thing on you Mr damn mind, the last person you really want, maybe last conversation of the evening just fucking tell me SOB! Is that so damn hard! 🤬fuuuucckk! Fuck you frustrate the hell out of me. Don’t LIE to me I know you are- I’m waiting for you to tell me the GD truth!

I F66 been dating a M63 for over one year. During which time he stated at the onset, committed relationship and we only have sex with each other. He has some minor ED. Which doesn’t bother me at all. I love him and he allegedly loves me. My issue is once his phone carrier disconnected his line for two days got that rectified but he called me from a neighbors cell. Over the weekend he Allegidly broke his cell did not call or text me all weekend (having no regard for my feelings) this morning he texted, said he was sorry for the worry, explained he broke his phone. He did not answer me why he didn’t make an effort to call me. This leaves me very hurt. He’s a busy person I totally get that. But am I insane for continuing our relationship he only drs me twice a month due to distance 😕 (my radar says he’s seeing someone else or went on a date with someone else).

I have no more medical debt after 4 years! I was $45k in debt was sent to collections. My medical insurance screwed me over majorly! What pissed me off more I paid $1,808.00 a month got nothing!

It’s been a long road. I feel the weight of the world almost totally lifted off me. Things I’ve accomplished: cleaned my home, took care of my elder brothers needs before I left for a trip, took care of my dogs needs before I left, did laundry, got my budget done, didn’t forget anything going there. Saw my friend who’s not well. Drive her around it felt good. I am so thankful I can walk, see, hear (what’s left) and have the cognitive ability to live and maintain myself. I am truly blessed.