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AI rn isnt the best at c++ and although you cant hope that it stays bad forever but i was wondering if the job market was gonna be ok in the future for c++

i wanna keep learning graphics programming and hope it might get me a job one day

sorry if this post sounds dumb, idk what to do with my life

scorpions apparently have sex by the male scorpian dropping a sack of cum on the ground, and the female scorpion walks over it, and sucks the sack up with her vagina.

Theres alot of uncertainty around how AI is gonna affect CS in the future and no one can really predict it.

its either cooked, gonna be left worse off, or maybe even better and cause more jobs

theres alot of people that I see on reddit that say dont code or go into CS because AI is gonna take it over, but they usually dont know how to code or dont know it very well

and then the people who say its gonna be ok are usually the experienced programmers, who say something along the lines of "if you know, you know".

Im gonna learn how to program regardless of how the job market is gonna be in the future, because im just doing it as a hobby, and who knows maybe il build alot of cool things one day to either get me hired or start a company. (im not gonna major in CS)

But I was curious, if I learn how to actually program. Will I be less worried about AI? Will I be the same as I am now, and just have to form my own opinion?

im 17, and im depressed in high school already but maybe things will be different in college. Last year of high school and then im done.. Personally my depression came from my undx adhd and the problems it caused.

It fucked up my grades, social life, and mental health in general. Something like this would genuinely ruin my chance at even becoming a doctor if it happened in college.

I was just curious about depression and was wondering what other people experience;s in college look/looked like.

Im not looking for ways your game made you a millionaire or wtv

using the skills you got to land a job, 3d modeling something for someone, impressing someone. things like that

Becoming Limerent

Theres many reasons of why someone becomes limerent in the first place, but they mainly stem from the behavior of you and your LO.

1. You could have been in a bad time in your life where you were hopeless, lost, depressed, and had a shit self worth/esteem.

2. You could have had a stable and successful life with a wife and kids.

But in both and in many other scenarios, your LO is what enters as your next purpose. Basically what im trying to say is a lack of purpose is a major cause of limerence:

https://www.reddit.com/r/limerence/comments/1we5egh/the_cure_to_limerence_not_bs/

(check out this post for more info on that stuff)

Limerent dreams:

When people are limerent there's a good chance for many situations that they dont know much or anything about their LO. Even when they do, and know their LO is toxic, they still like them for some reason.

People fill the information gaps of their LO with information that only praises them further. Or even conjure up, or bend information about their LO, and make them look perfect.

What im saying is, your idea of your LO is bullshit but you probably know that by now.

You:

Something you might not have noticed is yourself in these dreams. Im gonna use myself as an example:

Im shy and I struggle with low self esteem in real life. But when im visualizing these dreams though, im never the person I am in real life.

Sometimes I imagine myself dancing, acting weird, or being extroverted around my LO. Those are three things that I completely lack in real life, but that is the personality that I wish I had.

I don't like being so shy and introverted, I mean I wish I could go to a party and just start dancing and not care about what others think of me. But thats not me at all.

Variables:

In your dreams, your LO can actually be replaced with any other woman and your dreams wont change. You don't know anything about your LO, or you're changing your perception of them to fit what you like.

You could do this for any fucking woman, but why is it your LO? You're attracted to them, and you share some type of experience with them.

But what cannot be replaced is you. Your false LO can be changed however you want because you don't know everything about them.

but you know everything about yourself so, why are you so different in your dreams?

Purpose and self-image:

Going back to why people get limerent in the first place, its due to a lack of purpose. They then pick up this LO because deep down they believe that they can make their life better.

Normally when people have dreams or whatever, they visualize about it and think about who they wanna be in the future.

"I wanna be a awesome doctor" - you could be visualizing yourself being a neurosurgeon, and you're so happy and everyone is praising you for being so smart and wealthy, blah blah

But now your purpose is your LO, and you're visualizing YOUR OWN DREAM to be with this person.

Your purpose is your LO -> everything you want to become relies on this person.

So no shit its extremely easy to get depressed or anxious when your purpose/dream depends on someone's fucking signs that show if they are attracted to you or not.

What can you do about this?

If you can understand that your limerence is due to a lack of purpose. (well your purpose is your LO, so i guess its not reaaallyyy-)

You CAN get out of limerence but you got to satisfy 3 things.

I explained it all in this post: https://www.reddit.com/r/limerence/comments/1we5egh/the_cure_to_limerence_not_bs/

If you disagree with anything ive said in this post, please call it out. I wanna learn more about limerence too and I'm no expert by any means.

Other posts of mine if you're interested:

"cure to limerence" https://www.reddit.com/r/limerence/comments/1we5egh/the_cure_to_limerence_not_bs/

"the entire limerence timeline" https://www.reddit.com/r/limerence/comments/1wd6gxp/the_entire_limerence_timeline/

personal statement:

im still limerent by the way, you can be self-aware all you want, it wont fix shit which is sad.

Im still losing hours and hours of my life to this person, and its all being spent in my own head.

but i wish everyone struggling with limerence good luck

if DOF passes my PD this october, and I file for i-485. when can I expect EAD to come for my child?

6 months ago i got my ass into limerence and im still living it now but I really learnt alot about my self like that i had adhd. i was severely depressed and anxious and blah blah everyone in this subreddits has been thru it

im still limerent, but im at the mark where you just accept that your probably fucked and just live your life.

I very barley talk to girls at all. also to mention im in high school, school recently started back up. and there are instances where im near girls or talked to some for ice breaker reasons or wtv. my mind was never so fucked up before.

Before this limerence shit happened, I was self conscious and nervous to talk to girls, but it is what it is.

Now its like im watching for signs, if they look at me, and if i make eye contact with a girl, i have to scold myself and tell myself that person does not like me and i start showing like body language of like disinterest. idk if that makes sense

Its not like im attracted to anyone except my LO tho, so it really doesnt matter. im gonna ask my LO after high school ends and then this curse will end. im literally only clinging onto the hope that she genuinely does like me (she did 100%, but i was in a bad place).

im a rising high school senior right now, 17 years old. (turning 21 in july 2030) and my dads pd is feb 2015 under eb2 india. im pretty sure its like a 50% chance that im gonna age out or something.

im hoping my ead drops by next summer so i can just stay in the US for college and study biochem without stressing AND monetize on youtube, but if it doesn't look like it's coming through by then i need a real backup plan. im trying to build a youtube career on the side and want the freedom to actually monetize and make income without getting screwed by US dependent work restrictions.

was thinking about applying to schools in canada or australia for biochemistry so i have an independent study permit, can work on my yt channel legally, and actually have a clear path to PR instead of gambling everything on the visa bulletin.

I also looked into getting these study permits and they seem pretty attainable. (im h4 by the way)

i appreciate all advice.

Im 17 and high school just started.

Im going through alot of shit right now, and ive never really been the type of person to get addicting to gaming (other than prime fortnite).

All of my problems stem from my ADHD, such as academic failure, loneliness, depression, anxiety, limerence, some others.

and it doesnt help that I wasnt raised right, or that my parents dont want me to get meds for adhd, anxiety or anything

to escape this, i decided to channel my woe into something useful (money :D ). i decided to do youtube and for about 6 months, I worked vigorously often getting 4-6 hours of sleep a day and sacrificing my time with friends/family/academics.

a week ago, one of my videos blew up. (100k views) and when I tried to get monetized, my dad told me due to my immigration status im not even allowed to earn money. (wer not illegal or anything). I decided to stop youtube because i hated seeing the numbers rise and mentally converting them to dollar amounts.

Every aspect of my life is dogshit, grades, friends, family, mental, sleep...

I cant even build MYSELF a life, I cant make any money. Its not even that I failed, I fucking succeeded, that channel finally took off and this is what I get? (couldve made like 500$ so far)

Theres a chance I wont be able to earn money for at least 8 months to YEARS. (depending on USA immigration shit)

I dont know what to do, and throughout this entire period of depression I was going through I found Dr. K... **-> "**Woahhh 20 hours of diablo II a day??" I can do that too with minecraft or LoL

Im gonna go to high school, come back, play video games, do my work and sleep. im essentially just gonna fucking fast forward my life. Maybe one day il have the opportunity to build myself a life, until that day comes who cares if I make unpaid youtube videos, or rot on League of Legends

I dont see the problem in this and what am I possibly gonna lose out on? Everything you are thinking I can lose out on is already gone.

Sure, im aware I wont be fulfilled and the depression wont fade, but what else do you want me to do? there is nothing as fulfilling as seeing a youtube channel/business/passion blow up and succeed, i hope someone understands this.

(yes i know i love money, idk how im gonna recover from the trauma of seeing a possible dream life vanish because im an immigrant)

if u wanna know more about my immigrantion case - EB2, India, PD: 2/20/2015 BD: 7/24/2009 (ik i might get deported out of the country at 21 also!)

im 17, and i was wondering if someone can give me a % estimate if il be ok from aging out.

(i know you cant make a percent estimate but if you could try i would appreciate it)

birthday: july 24 2009

historically the dates always moved forward in october and people are saying there will be a spillover although I dont understand what that means.

It wont be unavailable again right, since oct 1 is the reset?

my PD is feb 2015, I just need it to move 30 days. is that unrealistic?

Also whats the chance I can get an ead within a year?

information: im 17, USA, my dads priority date is mid feb 2015, im from india. its sad that I have to worry about this.

i was born end of july 2009

situation: recently after working hard on a youtube channel, I was finally ready to monetize it but i then found out I wasnt even allowed to make any form of income. I did some research and I cant help but not worry about my future.

My goal was to make a living through myself whether it was through youtube or a potential business. Or go to medical school. if i age out, neither of those can even happen.

(f1 -> med is expensive and residency would have to sponsor me + i wont even be able to work)

I really really hope i get a EAD soon. we just need to wait the thing to move one month and we can file for EAD, and i can start making money on youtube or ANYWHERE else.

I had all these big dreams for my future like developing games, youtube, starting a software business, and becoming a surgeon. its crazy how I cant even pick what I want to become in the land of freedom, I couldnt even control any of this, i feel trapped and i dont want to age out and suffer.

questions:

can I expect to get my EAD in the next year at least? If the answer to this is "no" il stop learning game development and just play video games, I dont want to work for a false dream.

am I going to age out? I dont know what i will do if the answer to this is yes.

what a waste of my life. I could have made 150$ this week from youtube. il never forget about this, and il always think of what I could have been.

this is sad