u/MasterBlaster1895

I use sleeping pills once per week becuase I don’t want to develop dependence, Sunday nights. I realise there maybe a small probability of still developing dependence, but I need to sleep at least once a week.

My question is:

Would it be possible to use Zopiclone on Friday night and then use Diazepam on Sunday nights without increasing the risk of dependence?

As the title says, specifically for power snatch and power clean and jerk, but for a beginner learning the lifts without a coach.

Would you suggest 3x2, 3x3, 3x5, 5x5?

No option for a coach locally except a CrossFit gym which is prohibitively expensive.

Yesterday I had a panic attack for the very first time and it has absolutely shaken me to my core. Today I feel so down and alone, I don’t know what to. I am a 39 year old man who is normally calm and in control. I don’t know what to do.
It happened at work. A whole heap of pressure was piled on me, pressure that I feel should never have been put on me. I left work early because I didn’t know what to do. I have never felt so out of control in my whole life.
When I returned to work today I was pulled in to the office to talk about what happened. At no point did I feel like anyone had any compassion for what happened. It seemed that they were trying to pin all blame on me and that I should not have left work, everything was my fault.
I just feel like crying, I don’t have anyone to talk to. I have never felt like this before.
Help.