u/Mediocre_Teach2216

It’s been 6 days since I got diagnosed. It was really hard to accept the truth at first but I realised that it’s not gonna change a thing even if I think a lot or not . I accepted the fact that everything happens for a reason. I’m very grateful that I got a poz friend who help me get through this difficult times . Whenever I get anxiety I call him and he calm me down . Also with modern medication we can live a normal life so I don’t even bother telling anyone except my partner (if I get one although my poz friend seems interested in me hehe ) . Life will go on , doesn’t matter if you have it or not , and I stop thinking what will my friends and family think about me if they know hence they will never know and I will take it to my grave . Maybe one day there will be a cure and they will never know that I had it . I know it’s gonna be a long journey but I promise myself that I’m not gonna let this virus control me . I will live my life to the fullest since everyday is a gift and we all should be grateful .

Feeling very depressed . I don’t think I’m handling my diagnosis well as I should be . I’ll never be the same person again and my life has turn upside down . Woke up at 5 am and couldn’t sleep again . I kept on thinking what if I did this that and my thoughts are eating me alive . Will I be like this forever or with time everything will heal . I don’t think I will ever be happy again .

Can I hide my hiv status for the rest of my life except ofc with my partner. I’m afraid someone might expose me but also I haven’t told anyone so how would they know. The only thing I’m scared about is them finding me in ART centre .(how many of you have decided not to tell anyone and if so how many years has it been ?)

I’m from northeast India and I’m severely depressed since I’m dealing all of this alone and I have decided not to tell anyone since it will be best for my mental health. I hope to find someone positive from my place to share my thoughts and feelings but i couldn’t find any. The thought of having to deal it all alone is eating me alive .

I was wondering if there are any people from the Northeast India who are poz and active in this group. If so, it would be great to connect with each other. Please feel free to DM me.

I’m from northeast India and I recently got diagnosed with HIV and I feel like it my life is over . I don’t think I’ll be able to live a long Painful life for the rest of my life cause everyday will be reminder that I have the disease . Even-though with ART you can live a long life , I don’t think my mental health will ever be normal again . I’m so lonely, in pain and I’ve decided to not tell anyone so the fact that I will have to carry this burden for the rest of my life is eating me alive . I have no friends to talk to , just in my bed overthinking what to do next .

I’m from northeast India and I recently got diagnosed with HIV and I feel like it my life is over . I don’t think I’ll be able to live a long Painful life for the rest of my life cause everyday will be reminder that I have the disease . Even-though with ART you can live a long life , I don’t think my mental health will ever be normal again . I’m so lonely, in pain and I’ve decided to not tell anyone so the fact that I will have to carry this burden for the rest of my life is eating me alive . I have no friends to talk to , just in my bed overthinking what to do next .

I was wondering how does acute hiv lymph nodes feel like like when touched , is it mostly generalized and how painful is it ??

What does acute hiv lymph nodes feel like when touched and how painful is it ?

So 3 weeks after my exposure I begin to notice a single swell under my jaw and boom one day later it has grown into something bigger then walnut and it was extremely painful to the point I can’t even move my neck . It felt fixed to the tissues and not mobile when touched and was so painful if I touched it . One day later I had a fever accompanied by chills . The fever lasted a day or two and I was okay within a week and my inflamed neck also went away within3 weeks . It’s been almost 2 years now. Deep inside I feel like I feel like that was my seroconversion . I haven’t had any symptoms since then . So scared .

I’m a 30 gay man based in north east India looking for a lavender relationship with lesbian /asexual women — someone I can build a lifelong partnership with, where we can be best friends, support each other with respect, and maintain each other’s privacy and individuality.

I’m a gay man 30 yo based in north east India looking for a lavender relationship — someone I can build a lifelong partnership with, where we can be best friends, support each other with respect, and maintain each other’s privacy and individuality.