u/Meditat0rz

Hey some more real talk for today...here's some real sick and sadistic evil dirty shit they try to scare the ship out of me with mental illusions. I share this with you know...it's sick but I don't fear it anymore, do you? Ephesians 5:11, this is not my thoughts, something must inject them!

Lately the mind torment I see every day turned into another level of hardship, I want to share this with you all know. TAKE CARE it's explicit things explicit hardship they show me in the mind which I describe, like snuff torture and soul mutilation damaging thoughts. This is NSFW because it's REAL BAD trips...

I recently moved from a place where I for sure would have been target and set up in real life and was exposed. At another place, okay shit of course continues, I'm constantly messed with in the mind. But now comes the deal, with moving also the program changed... Whoops now they put me a level up, I resisted long enough to get the bad dreams from them now which they don't give to kids.

It gives me the creeps, but this crap is weird. It is like constant minds and wills entering my mind, showing me aggressive faces, grappling me in many ways, messing with me, even harassing me during sex, it's disgusting. Then constantly something tries to subdue me, to suppress my will with threat or force. I keep resisting, since more than 25 years, no matter what comes. I call on angles, they defend me and teach me with all kinds of methods. The graplers, I try to let remove or curse their own powers. The threats I just try to bear and sit through, they eventually subside when you can cope with what they show you and stay cool about it. Just keep resisting, they will threaten ship but never make it real.

Okay I will now list some of the horror shock stories they shown me to demoralize me. I know this is all fake it's probably all lies. It's all shown in like mental images and voice fragments, constantly forced into my half/sub-conscious subtle mind together with the threat and control illusions. It is mostly as if people were talking about a crime case, or I was eavesdropping people, or as if I was shown slides of images and people commenting it from the background, all in the mind. Then the harassment...

At first the oppressors kept showing me torture-executions scenes over my main back story. They kept showing me graphic imaginations of such executions and torture settings of persons who in the past had abused me and took part in drugging me, which started all my problems. But they had also shown me all kinds of false back stories about my life, and how other friends would also have taken part in it, showing me very sadistic executions for each of them, also threatening me such deaths to myself.

This is sadistic, and they keep showing me such shock images. I know it's not my own mind producing them, I don't know where they come from. They are completely involuntary, like foreign objects entering my mind, and very hard to bear. As if a computer controlled a slides machine to show me sadistic snippets of visual imagination and voice snippets, constantly, forcing my attention to it, it's way hard and next to impossible to ignore.

Okay they told me, that me and my friends would die, for me talking about all of this, because they had opted me in without talking to me the following ways: salt crystals or solutions or acids injected to soft parts then left tied up and drugged for extra suffering. Tied up then given a firecracker or a melting through dildo which was tuned to overload and burn, into the back orifice. Tied up then drugged and given needles with electronic current, into soft parts or otherwhere, then questioned with a person able to push a button to close circuit, or a computer controlling the electronic shocks according to live EEG data and most sadistic programs. A person was shown to me, even in graphic pictures in a space nebula, as being sold to mafia for snuff porn productions as a revenge, and a "dentist" was to drill the soft parts and the nerve into the bone to cause fatal cramps, failed and had to finally release the victim to die even a similar death. Another scene I was shown over and over involved slowly burning a hole into the testicles of a bound person to cause death by cramps of pain, which would be delayed by medication.

So this is just what I was constantly being threatened to be done to in my mind since like years, I mean hey it's a little painful but until now they did not get me. Now comes the shit they had shown me on top of it, like stories to see when my own death would not disgust me enough any more:

One story involved a friend of mind being an imposter, and in a friend circle with people who rejected a political murder attempt with them. The friend was shown to me to set up their friends telling them they knew a secret drug recipe, how to create LSD from household chemicals. Then in front of them mixed some acetone seeped with all kinds of wood protection detergents from past used, with some household meds, salt, sugar, vinegar, whatever else is hard to digest, and secretly adding some NBOM-e research chemical hallucinogen from the internet in the right overdose. Then gave each a dripper of 1ml in a glass of water, and the women of the group only a half, and a little more for the ones who insisted to want a strong trip right away. All were poisoned severely, tripping balls and going paranoid, puking blood, all were dead 2 years later from all kinds of worst neurological mental or physical damages, all kidneys liver cancer fucked no longer eat and drink only through infusion. I was shown that the friend just went away before they noticed their poisoning and never returned. Then they had shown me further slides and scenes, like that some kid was a witness, didn't use it but remembered the ingredients, and they mixed it on their own, lacked the pesticied but all gone blind liver kidney fucked dead soon, just for believing my friend.

This sounds like a story that neo nazis tell their children so they don't do drugs, right? I don't want that crap in my head. Here read the one they give me against my love for growing legal cannabis plants:

They have shown me a research facility of the military, an experiment done to a traitor in the military. He was drugged and hypnotized to believe he was only a head in a garden and the child of the doctor who executed him. He was set up on a table, and then a prepared seed of a birch tree was planted into his belly button. He could only see the tree, and was told it was growing in a plot. The seed was further prepared with a genetically modified mycorrhiza fungus, which dissolves living flesh instead of compost. The doctor kept talking to the subject, and telling him it was his tree, telling him sadistic things in making him believe it was something good for him even, allowing him to watch it grow. They sprayed his head every day with anti fungal agents, but the body was slowly eaten away and pierced with roots. The tree grew only some centimeters, then the leaf turned red for unsuitable nutritional values of the flesh compared to compost. The experiment "failed" so to say. I was shown how the doctor lifted the hypnosis, removed the blinding and pulled out the tree from the flesh, telling the subject what happend, to leave him behind speechless to die some hours later.

This story is already so sadistic, let's go to the next. They shown me the most evil anal porn story ever alive, and this like caused a revolution and war among the voices in my head, they declared war over each other on this because it is so perverted and disgusting. I was shown a story of a man named "Jakob" (I don't know him). He was shown as a victim of a bad torture execution with black magic. He was shown to have a wife, and did it with her anally. Then abused her more and more, and broke her anus so it could not hold. She wore a Tampon to hold it back, one day she was put to shame in a supermarket when it fell out her wearing a skirt. Her family heard of it and decided to kill poor Jakob over it and engage an mafia killer. He lured Jakob to an old barn near a cattle meadow, then drugged and tied him. Showing me again and again there were drugs to let you suffer even more. The method, was a big dildo with a drilling adapter that he had abused with his wife. He was then tortured with this with a very strong drilling machine, with a direct adapter. Then the killer added a piece of wire to the dildo, and kept drilling until the victim died out of pain. I was also shown, that the killer spiritually harmed the victim further. Abducting 3 homeless persons with broken brains from drinking solvents. Put them to a room for a week locked up, those still completely nuts he took and killed with Jakob. Bound their minds in an endless chain so each one would respond to the next one thinking it was the other in a circle, binding them to Jakob to be bound to them in a pit forever. Then I saw all kinds of fragments of his wife "Jaqueline" and her family planning it and talking about the aftermath etc. This is so disgusting, the drilling parts and images, it really took me guts and some cycles until I could bear this story. I could only think, this is the crap that Nazi people would invent and tell their kids to make them stay away from anal porn, but I'd rather not be harassed with such crap all day!

Okay now some about the weird interactive stories they show you, where you never may interact other than to guide them in a beneficial outcome, or to ignore them: Then when I went around another city, and the grapplers managed to make me put a trigger for the story to a "bystander" instead of my abusers, who wanted to check me, I kept seeing stories that now different circles were in combat over stories like this shown to innocent to oppress them. Anyway, now this shit continued and I was shown the punishment for the idiot who abused his mind to program sadistic stories like that and spread them. I was shown the mages behind the guy I accidentally cursed with that story (he was nice, I tried to help him to get through later when I saw him, as well...). Then the punishment for the programmer of the Jakob/Jaquline story: he was given a soul distortion to twist his consciousness from tip to toes 180° after a trip twisting him through upside down. Then leaving this locked. Pictures of him, he was without orientation, bumped into things, had to lie down, kept puking, tried to relax, it crippled him: his spine got twisted by his muscles trying to twist his spine instead of mankind it straight, letting him die in cramps.

Then when this wasn't enough, voices kept prophesizing to me how in the year 2038 Putin would cause 3rd world war over after an hour. He invented a weird weapon which could twist reality somehow, thought to evaporate a whole city. It was prepared with images of me being shown Berlin was nuked with nuclear weapons, but that didn't impress me enough it seems. Then a reality twisting weapon was shown, and that was after the mind-twister of the porn programmer. Putin tried to rotate reality of whole city Berlin around 185° around the center of earth by causing some ominous reality twisting device with a rocket exploding there, and a counterpart in the Indian ocean. Later I was shown how this method would not only destroy matter, but also the souls of persons, and that Putin already made experiments with a gravity field reality warping technique which was able to warp, mutilate or destroy the souls of living beings when the entered the destructive field. I was shown, and this was in the beginning of it, how Putin was thought to start this thing. I was shown how he had 7 sons, all 100% genetic clones of himself, all mothers dead. He planned to one day let them all fight against each other, and give his dominion to the sole survivor. Then Ukraine found the locations of each, and all but one died in assassination. Then Putin got crazy, and launched his device to destroy Berlin prematurely. It failed of some mistakes, but still made a big bang and a hole full of water with a small black hole creating a fountain in the middle, size of part of Berlin. 1 hour later whole Russia was nuked, Putin was dead with his last son, even the Chinese immediately launched their rockets into Russia to help destroying it for what had been done. 15 Minutes after Putin's death, even his last message appeared which was surrealistic, because he threatened the whole world, he wanted to blackmail the whole world with his new weapon demonstrating the destruction of Berlin. I was then shown the consequences of the fail. Not only was the center of the field off-axis and only part of Berlin was affected, and some outskirts... But also the destruction was different than planned. The matter did not evaporate, but reappear totally twisted by a 3d field. Some things stretched indefinitely, some squashed or twisted. All living beings dead, some seemingly of greatest pains. Some plants totally twisted or distorted, but kept growing even. An artificial island appeared on the other side of earth, and then sank.

Hey okay, this is the sick sadistic crap they show me in my mind to demoralize me, this and even much more. I can't even remember all of it, it is so much and everything mixed all over the place. Thank you for reading and sharing my pains, I hope it is not too much for you. I can only bear this all with medications. Sorry if this was too much for you, but I believe people must hear what people like I am going through. I believe it's not our own mind, something programs us these dehumanizing threats and patterns into our minds in attempt to derail our lives, to sabotage us and whole society. Please if you know more such material and background info, share it all over the place, the world deserves to know. I read no horror books and watch no movies, still this crap tortures me every day, I believe it's artificial. Help spreading the info, blessed be you for it, thanks!

So I'm not really sure what the source of my sufferings is, but I'm trying to exclude every possibility.

If this is telepathic influence, then it must be going since a long time... Possibly already since my childhood, but in a very mild form. After starting to meditate, I realized there is an unconscious layer of the mind that only holds preliminary stages of thought - my experience is as if there were single experiences (in my childhood) or later a constant stream (following ritual abuse in my teens) of emotionally massively abusive and overwhelming thought images and communication.

So if this is not just a madness or something automatic or traumatic or hypnosis patterns, then it's really as if a group of different individuals were able to break into my mind, specifically into the unconscious realm - which hold thoughts...that are there while present, but you are not fully aware of them, only if you look real deep in meditation you will become aware of it...once the thought is gone, it is gone, you cannot remember unless you somehow verbalized it or have written it down...at the same time the mind is able to re-raise these element and has even better (almost photographic) memory of this layer, but it's unconscious, too, it only works when assoicated information is present in the mind. Very weird.

What I experience is as if this unknown number of individuals break into the back of my mind and cause havoc, effectively tormenting me with most abusive psychological techinques, 24/7 without a pause. This is now going in full throttle pressure since 2017 or so, and goes as a permanent state in phases of different intensities since the year 2000, after I was ritually abused as a school kid. I believe before that point the visions had already started, but during the abuse I was touched with a red liquid (possibly blood), they even lured me to a graveyard for it, with a girl whom I trusted and loved who first made out with me out of the blue, then just tricked me to be exposed...I only know of her to be involved, and the next day she brought me to another friend of her whom I had only seen that day, he gave me a substance to smoke claiming it was passiflora, but it surely was not and left me debilitated and full of the abusive visions.

Since I started suffering the abuse, as if in shifts, as if people could access my mind to produce controlled illusions, torturing me with it 24/7 as if they would organize in shifts, trying to break my will and control me and subdue me with psychological methods that seem like military interrogation manual-grade to me. It's a constant nightmare, and I've already become very weak from it. At other times they don't even seem to try to subdue and control me, but to just practice abusive mind manipulation techniques against me. In the beginning, they could cause me big visions and everything, now they can only affect my mind but it's bad enough, they can cause me full unconscious daydreaming voices urging emotional manipulation, and go like through military mental destruction routines with me every day. I was in the beginning diagnosed Schizophrenia, but the medications didn't work at all, I take them because they lessen the intensity of the visions slightly, but they are no help otherwise. I still do meditate and practice self control and also direction the aggressive energy back to the intruders, and it's a fierce battle every day. It's really aggressive at times, they seemed to have used me for kind of mental combat trainings for a while, mocking and abusing me all the time as I had no idea of what they did and how it worked...they tried to make me fault (i.e. damage with intention) my own mind over and over again, and after a while of meditation and watching them, I realized a technique how i could redirect their attacks in a way to make them fault their own spirit and dismantle their abilities and weapons. Not sure, sometimes it really seems to work, but only for a time.

So I'm asking you all now, what do you think, is this plausible to assume it's possible for people to break into a common victim's mind to choke them down like that and exploit them for practicing destructive techniques... I mean it's the worst you could do to a person, it's like I'm sincerely fucked, I prayed for Christ to become my strength and he carries me, but my natural strength is already choked to death, I've become very weak, I mean like really weak and slow apart from the Spirit which holds me. Aside from the ritual abuse that was involuntary involvement, I was never involved in anything spiritual, I always openly rejected magic and spiritual practices apart from pure insight and meditation, also in the night when I was abused I told that girl, and she still tricked me, well she didn't mean good from the beginning on and I only realized this more than 15 years later.

Would love hearing your takes on this whether this could possibly really be the works of people abusing me like that or programming my mind to sabotage me, and also on how to properly protect and defend against such attacks, how to expose them the right way and how to break the connections that make it possible. I feel it's like different teams and the access seems to be traded on, currently it seems to me like neo nazi people trying to reeducate me with force, for reference I'm a leftist green party advocate pacifist, so the worst kind of enemy role model for them, and they just outright torment and abuse me with psychologically destructive methods and by trying to enforce destructive nationalist and fascist views onto me in everyday life incessantly. I tell you, it's worse than hell, Hitler's a nightmare for real and still drives people into mayhem like Jesus brought salvation to others. So it really seems to me as if there could be intruders who want to impede and prevent my life by constantly choking me in psychic harassment and thus rendering me mentally disabled with it - what do you think, is this possible, if yes, how to defend? I don't really know who it could be, hints I have are only the methods (like military style), so it could be right wing terrorism against me as a civilian, or it might also be connected with the ritual abuse which I suffered, i.e. that it not only allowed the abuse to happen but that probably some of these people messed and thought I would be in when I was not, now trying to cover up and disguise it as a mental illness. I remember at times being massively provoked to attack the people behind the ritual abuse, but when I resisted staying peaceful and just fighting the mental constructs, the nazi-like people eventually took over and started trying to discipline me...help...

Edit/TLDR: Whoops this got locked. Yes, for sure schizophrenics also at times experience being bullied by countless invisible people, but well, these usually believe they know exactly what happens and who it is. Mod should go to a psychiatry and talk to some people, and dig some real telepathy in contrast. If anyone got pointers or help for me, please send me a Message or Chat, I want to know what's going on!

Woke up with this interesting view again, like a mirror of what I realized in my youth.

Waking up to the truth of this world, doesn't necessarily mean waking up to an illusion.

I don't get how so many from you follow Gurus who teach anything is not real, just an illusion.

You must overcome your ego, yes. But it's no illusion. It's something real which tries to drive you into egoistic desires incessantly, it's all in your head.

Then you must overcome that, and overcoming it doesn't just mean declaring it void by make-believing it to be an illusion. You must overcome your egoism, first.

And that's what overcoming ego means, overcoming the egoism. Then the illusion cannot stick any longer. And the world is also an illusion, all just Karma, what you wish is what will become? No, you will reap the fruits of what you have sown, and the reaper is justice and judges us for our righteousness in the end...!

So waking up to the truth of humanity means to me, NOT believing this world to be an illusion. Also the mind, is not an illusion. It is a mighty tool, a weapon, but can also save lives!

Now what would we wake up to? Humanity... we're all monkeys... Dig this, when you wake up, you realize you're a monkey, one among countless, and the situation gets worse every day. Egoism makes this planet uninhabitable, humans threaten and kill each other just to keep it going, for a short promise, for not realizing what responsibility, what the fruits of Karma mean.

So what would be do? We must do our part, we must help this planet sincerely. Waking up, means you wake up to knowing the problem. The answer? You must help, at least a little. You're one little human, do your part. You'll see, countless will do it just like you, no matter if they know you or not. That's what enlightenment means, what the illusion of the world is worth. The suffering is real - let's abolish it with love!

Did you know, that Jesus wanted all to respect human rights as the utmost ideal? Some old Christians still know! Love the neighbor like yourself, do unto others, only as you want to receive to yourself (Mat.7:12) - this is the WHOLE of the Law and the Prophets Jesus claimed? It means just an ancient way to say, human rights are above all others. Gal.3:28, there's no male no female no slave no free, no Jew no gentile, no gender, no status, no nationality in Christ. There's only love for the neighbor, and that means unconditional respect of human rights and one's responsibility for our lives and the world.

So let's fix it, becoming enlightened means you become aware of the how. Ditch those Gurus who tell you to ditch the world, they want to leave the whole world behind and will die alone. Earth is truth, humans are truth, we are like monkeys but with a spirit of Wisdom. Each has a shard of the greater Spirit, each must play their role for this planet to be fixed.

Then there will be no illusions...there will be enlightenment, the truth, glorious and free, forever, for those who are taking part in it! Let's pray for enough people to be brave to overcome the egoism, and start doing their part in their families, neighborhoods, in the internet, as a voter and whatever, we must now choose the light, and save the plant.

Who will save us then - if we don't even want to try for ourselves? God will do, but only if we sincerely pray! I do that many will try and many will follow, love is the key, love is the nature of the light which makes you wakeful and free. It's God, illuminating our souls - the light we earn, by our merits, so don't slack it help your brother and sister, and we all can be free one day, peace!

So just wanted to drop this simple advice of training, for those affected with what you cal "V2K/AI", or even deeper hypnotic programs, internal vision, and internally being exposed to mental influence i.e. as if people could monitor or enter your mind to abuse you.

TL;DR I describe how you can practice to tone down you mind and make yourself less susceptible to visions of mental terror or torment, voices in the head mind control etc.

It's a rough technique and of course needs much practice and additional psychological expertise, but just knowing that you can tone down the mind to avoid the destructive patterns is something not everyone knows, and I want to share it now again in a simple form:

I thought a lot about the mind and the nature of these experiences. I also have this, and believe it must be some wicked thing gone wrong about trauma processing...like a possibly artificial control over a deep trauma I have, driving it in circles...something literally constantly tries to exploit this trauma to manipulate my mind and to break me down emotionally.

So but some stuff we go through, definitely seems like interrogation routines, deliberate conditioning of mind into subjection or states of terror, mental coercion or all kinds of schemes to bind our attention or even obedience to.

Okay, now I think I found out something important about the nature of the experience. It changes/ceases, once you are able to calm down, tranquilize, pacify, relax, open, chill down, release, basically...just stop and let go your mind and with it also the body.

Now I've learned this in meditation exercise... With the automatic mental routines I encounter, it is impossible to win with action/reaction schemes. The thing just hijacks my own action and can still drive me in circles. But resisting, truly detaching from it, can come by complete tranquility of mind, and also physical relaxation.

I liken this to the amplitudes of a wave. When we are agitated, our mind/body system is in like a jeopardy of attention, it is jumping forth and back all the time like a monkey on a tree. It does not stand still, and jumps between mental affirmations and physical actions and observations in rapid speed. The whole system is like a machine heavily grinding, it is not stable, but everything is moving and in action within it.

Now I believe, this AI stuff tormenting some of us, it only works on a coarse realm of mind. When the mind is agitated, like in stress and fear, or overburdened by action or even just fully busy with anything, it has little awareness for itself, it is fully with the action and reaction patterns. For the hypnoterror going on in our minds, this means it can on this coarse realm control our reactions and the experience easily, it can easily inject subtle elements, and we miss them and follow coarse rails instead, in cycles designed to wear us out in constant overstimulation.

Now imagine, like the waves of a sea, you'd make the activity of the mind very subtle, like calming down totally...relaxing all body, until the breathing becomes apparent all the time, goes like first with a heavy resistance, and the more you learn to let go the more it can make you become permanently one with your body. Try not to force your agitation down, just control yourself not to follow anything that stirs you up even more, then again and again let go of the tension bit by bit. Let things revolve and discharge the energy somehow, but always return to yourself, the situation, the breathing. You must not just tone down all agitation and restlessness, but also avoid getting sleepy or confused or foggy in the mind. So you should keep yourself busy by observing something or with simple mental practices, i.e. Buddhists use the breath to also then control the subconscious, others use mantras or other mental techniques, some just count their breaths or up to 100. Patience is the key, set aside some minutes, like in the beginning 5, then 10, then 20, then maybe 30 or 40 when you can manage each step, but don't overdo it, if you get the creeps cancel the sit and distract yourself until you can control yourself when it happens again. Just let go. They might bomb you with attempts to involve your mind with things that agitate you. Think of a lotus, where dirt will just drip off once a rain falls on it. This practice can also help you with getting to a mind state where you can plan and execute important tasks in life...i.e. to keep yourself wakeful, prepare a task to plan for your life to work out, then while sitting plan everything in your head that you can by deliberately thinking through it at some point, then later while you're still calm and full of energy, you can use that time to fix these important tasks in your life much better than the rest of the time. Sitting there like with lightnings striking all the time, also discharges the energy...I usually have some time where I am more clear in the mind after this, it also regenerates you.

So after a while you may see, that when you manage to break through this intense barrier of agitation, fear, stress, which feels like one big tension, one hard hand squeezing you down...there is a much broader consciousness, and it is so idle and peaceful at the same time. You can then see and hear your own mind very loudly, and may be tempted to no longer speak to yourself but just bee and see. This is the point, where you hook out of the coarse programs...you may see what influenced you mind before that point, becomes like so rough that it cannot attach to you any more, your mind will no longer absorb but more and more reject the coarse things. Maybe also thing you thought were your own, when you realize they are rough and bad for you, but all the hypno shit also is coarse and can be quenched like this.

I mean it is a hard way and tough to do...it's not easy to deliberately calm down like that and stop the thinking and everything to just be in the moment. Then confronting one's ego, one's past, you need to make your peace then somehow. But then, when you manage to release the last tension, poof the hypnotic visions in your head will be gone or change for another kind. Mind you, when you no longer talk to yourself in your mind, and it can come from finding this point of peace and silence, then you just know - they also can no longer inject voices to your mind, or subdue your own. You just are...I find this funny, I meditate like Buddhist, good way to practice this, and often there are characters in my mind abusing me or monitoring me, they don't get by, I don't talk to myself like others but only just know/see, and can also deal with their influence on my mind on that level.

Sometimes I see intruders who monitor me, who seem to be able to see the subtle mind, but they are usually friendly to neutral somehow. The bullies, can only rule the coarse realm. All their evil, has made them disturbed and restless like their victims. Overcome that restlessness, and become one with yourself instead of them. It's hard but possible with steady training and the right techniques and...patience. Then you can just bear these bastards after a while, cannot touch you any more, they can't just move or block the subtle mind like they can do with the coarse. To get there, so many things can help, that is regular training of that skill, then healthy diet much veggies, little meat or processed stuff (learn cook from fresh vegs, and you can save money and your health can start to thrive...fast food drains you I tell you), get your mind fresh with like green tea and not dope or something like that, avoid any illegal substances for you know not what others can put in it.. Do some physical workout, every day give yourself time with something that builds you up just for yourself, and another time where you try to do good on some friend you know or to make one <3...

Hope you all be well, feeling a target in the head is not easy, but I dig this we can just sit it out just we must stop allowing this trip to get us involved. It's like a wave level computer, the mind is like strong waves, the programs are coarse, they are ONLY strong waves. But unlike the visinos of terror the mind can level down and become subtle, then the fog clears suddenly you can see much further...and the coarse things tormenting you, they like solitary waves must just collapse or at least become apparent as the freaks they are. The mind can on the long run decondition, each time you sit and manage to become real clear aware but tranquil it can remove some of the attachment to the mindstalking terror. Hope this can help some of you like it helps me!

Hello, just wanted to raise an important question. I'm being heavily spiritually oppressed and challenged every day. However, I feel I've nothing substantial to repent, feel my faith is sane, I've never willfully accepted evil, magic, whatsoever, repented from all menial things I've seen unfit after realizing the truth.

Still I'm oppressed every day, with what seems like the demons trying to challenge me over lies or insinuatinos over me. Really like this, they claim I am bound, have to obey, have committed xyz, but it's all lies and made up stuff, I cannot repent what I never took part in! Always challenging me in the name of a person claiming I transgressed her and accepted anything from her, but it was the other way round she abused me and never told me a single thing, so I even outright rejected magic in front of her - the demons claim otherwise

How to gain salvation in such a regard, what do I need to do now? I see the satanic court going in circles in my head, always the truth is shown from my spirit I was the victim, still I am incessantly challenged and oppressed over the false claims, as if they were true or as if high places were trying to cover it up. Please all pray the truth be uncovered for me! How to do now?

Also if I want to help others...it's simple for me to resist, because I never accepted anything. But others have. I don't know how to help them resist - what should I recommend them? Just deny anything they once admitted? I know I can resist, but only because I'm innocent, if I had accepted anything in the past, I feel I'd already be dead or in the hands of Satan!

Thanks for your answers!

So I just want to make a small post, I just thoroughly realized this and feel thrilled about it: as a pacifist, in the ultimate degree you cannot condone the necessity of punishments, at all!

A punishment, is nothing but the attempt to enforce the will of another human externally, without own insight. So even when it changes the will of a person temporarily, it will not be the own will, but the one of the punisher. No good can come from it - a person would only truly change for the better, when they realized the necessity for themselves.

So I take this from my Biblical view, and think this "judge not, lest ye be judged yourself" (Mat.7:1) is really the whole of the story. Jesus displayed what to do about things in John 8.

Okay now you may say, okay if people are not punished, then they will just keep exploiting others and things will go worse. Yup, you're right, that's why I also understood at the same time, that safety of people is not the same as punishments. If you've a person, a delinquent, unwilling to change, ready to commit the same act again, or have real serious concern, it is not a punishment to them to prevent it for their safety and that of others.

So even when you don't want to punish people, of course a terrorist or rapist does not belong to freedom. But I know it's no use trying to change them with punishments. This is so silly and messed up thinking, like thinking "oh I hurt this person until they are so belittled from it that they accept my will as the truth". So this won't work out, you'll seem like a perpetrator yourself for it. Yes, that's what I believe, people who want others punished are really also perpetrators! You will only be able to change the mind of a person with the truth, and that's what we should try instead with offenders, to make them ready to live in freedom again. Or at least treat them in dignity where they cannot keep hurting others, I mean it's fair they lost the whole world, don't even take the rest of them, as well.

So this is the change of mind I made, I'd never be happy about anyone suffering in jail ever again. This is what Jesus meant with turning the other Cheek (Mat.5:39): revenge is futile and will just harm your own soul!

I rejoice now, having taken the vow that my eternal soul may perish forever if I ever again want anyone be punished for them to suffer, and that I may after my world either die forever or go to a world where there will be no more punishments, never again, none at all, from where I can work free all others from this evil for all times. Lol, wishful thinking I know. I'll start already in this world, let's all work for the eternal end of all black pedagogy, for emancipation, freedom and human dignity for all people without any differences!

So today I found some more peace in meditation after a long set-back. I found I had to briefly revisit almost all stages of the process of concentrating the mind up to the point I got to, also some of the initial, and found it was nice to see the stages of that path before me once again. So I wanted to share...

What is this meditation about? It's effortless concentration. It means the ability to stop your mind and/or detach from it, and to focus your attention fully to one point, getting ultimatively relaxed and calm at the same time, to enter another states of mind called Samadhi or Concentration. Buddhists use it to gain wisdom necessary for liberating the mind fully from all painful influences and to attain Nirvana, their ultimate goal. Even others do this, to attain all kinds of insights or mental abilities that lie in the realm before such full purification. Effortless means, it is the big gate...the small gate forces, so it is bound to the gate of the ego...the big gate lets all go yet holds on a thing, so it can encompass all the body because by letting go you have a much wider, and much more powerful focus. Just it needs more time to be built up.

It is not just blindly forcing the mind to a spot as it may initially seem like, that would be taking it too simple. Remember, you've to get relaxed and calm at the same time - the goal of effortless concentration is to focus the mind fully on one thing, but not with force, but only by mental efforts which can result in the body being ultimatively freed of all tensions and negativity and stress. This happens because you are not only to focus to one thing, but also to release all tension and restlessness, until full tranquility takes place. Yet at the same time the technique requires the practitioner to always try to stay wide awake and fully aware of anything, not seeking deeper levels of the mind even, at all, aside from the conquest to relax the body and keep the mind lucidly directed at the object. All this requires is self-control, but not the kind you would seek effortfully. Instead this meditation trains a passive skill of neutralizing harmful states of mind by passive reactions...this can lead to a great wisdom by the brain training upon it's own material, also it will train an intuitive self-control together with patience to the utmost.

This all is required, to keep the attention tender and stressless enough to rest upon the object in an undistractable way. It works because of two factors uniting: the body getting free of tension, thus harder to excite, so stressfull impulses cannot excite us quickly any more, and also because of the nature of concentration. This nature is: the more the attention would rest on a single thing, the breath, a thought or image, an object around us, the more energy it will have in the mind and also there will be a traction and stability that will make it more and more easy to stick to it. In the end, the traction is so hard, that it may be impossible to get distracted unless you deliberately shift the attention away from the object. Even if you flicker away, it will still stick in your awareness, and if you return quickly enough, it will still stick. But for this it needs the energy built up, concentration, and this is built up simply by collecting time of unbroken attention on the object with as few breaks as possible.

Now the other peculiar secret about this practice is: it needs an ethical preparation. The Buddhists say: sila, samadhi, prana, that means: ethics, meditation, wisdom. This includes ethics! Why is this important? We will in meditation have to face ourselves, our present, past future, and all our doubts and regrets and concerns and past trauma and anything else which may stick to our soul. We will have to confront and overcome it all the way, to be able to keep the attention ready to focus. It is the prerequisite to have all these challenges cleared up, to have gained peace with oneself and one's conscience, to be able to fully concentrate without effort.

How can we clear up these challenges? The meditation itself brings the answer: in progress of meditation, these challenges will be in the way...they will rise in our minds (and sometimes also in our lives!), and become real for us to be challenged and overcome. Whether we win or lose the challenge, we must take the consequence of it. Buddhists resolve them, by discerning what brings merits, so blessings from what brings demerit, which brings suffering...just to in the end dissolve it all by it's qualities of impersonality, dissatisfactoriness and impermanence. I say it is okay to resolve each wisdom in it, to know the right path from each situation which would lead to peace. Then whatever one does, it will lead to peace for oneself and others, it is good, it leads to life and persistence. This is how each challenge is ethical, as well. If you are one who gets the insight triggered in the process, you will also see these things cleared up in much greater detail - this meditation truly not only has the power to resolve trauma (or to deepen it if done wrong!), but also to trigger self-insight of the mind into it's nature and that of reality. Some may be haywire and distract us, but some is for real and would repeat until we understand it's true. Follies...also can repeat until we understand they are not the truth. And that's it, well, almost. Still got to sit breathin', right?

Okay here are the stages I found in the process, and some marks of them. Each stage is a distinct state of mind and awareness we have of the object...beginners will want to practice with the breath, i.e. at nose or belly, focusing to watch this spot incessantly without subduing all other mental activity. Holding the attention to the object is in this meditation like holding the reins of a horse, you must not let it go, but always subtly pull only a little so the horse feels you're there commanding...once you pull too much, you will unsettle the horse and must calm it again. You can really do this from any posture, sitting, lying, walking...but it's good when you have a posture where you can release as much tension from the body as necessary. The concentration is thought to rise by unbroken attention on object, and this will push away the distractions, not trying to shut them out. Sometimes we would have to shut them out with a little more force, but the meditation really allows letting go fully while still staying fully awake and focused, so it's not possible that anything can take you away from your body which you've just concentrated, and it's also the goal. Each session, you need to go through all the stages from the start, though later realization of mental abilities means you can skip the first and concentrate like much faster, even in seconds and at will at any time in the end. The stages go like:

1. Acquire stage, here the object/breath must be "acquired", so brought to attention over and over again until it stays lingering in awareness strong enough not to be forgotten. Is mastered, when you no longer forget your breath and not have it in mind somehow, even if it's just as knowing in background. Usually practices like counting the breath strokes, steps in walking meditation, are good for this stage, something that reminds you of having to watch breath or another object over and over again.

2. Steadify stage, once you see your breath all the time, you must make it object of the conscious awareness most of the time. In this stage, all kinds of conscious trauma and illusions may be triggered...insights usually not too deep, but there can be spiritual experiences already, as well as little random and sometimes misleading trips or hallucinative challenges. Trauma, will also start surfacing. Techniques must be what steadifies the full attention to the breath to the point where it is fully in attention all the time. The most simple technique I know is, trying to at all times discern whether your breath is in or out breath, or to at all times track the feeling of the foot which is currently touching the ground while aware of breathing in walking meditation.

3. Spread stage, once you have steady full attention on your breath process, the full conscious awareness will also start spreading...for example for a breath meditation this will mean, that you will be aware of your whole chest breathing all the time, later of the whole body, watching yourself how you breathe. This doesn't have to be a completely passive observation, you can still identify yourself with the act of breathing. But for this to work out, you must let go of all efforts to deliberately control the breath...you can still at times do, but now we're already scratching the boundaries of the subconscious. In this stage, all kinds of real deep trauma can surface, we now let go of active control - this means the subconscious, subtle realms now open and usually release much material, sometimes even dangerous stuff. From here, you must technically take care not to doze/slack away because the meditation must get more passive, so you must not only relax, but also fend off all kinds of weariness, dullness and mind clouding effects, always taking back up the tension on the reins until these things are under intuitive control and you no longer zone away. Techniques to stay focused, must be more subtle and intuitive, like comparing features of the breath stroke, the length between in/out, the different sensation between the strokes, something that allows you to take a step back and just watch the breath uninvolved.

4. Concentrate stage, you must actually uphold the awareness until you no longer doze away and have you breath/body system fully relaxed and can stay with breath all the time in a conscious way. This requires a concentration like, you cannot be fully diverted from the breathing any more, any distraction that involves mind decision will be fended off immediately. After a time, you will feel more sensations at the breath like flicker up, I liken it to a 2x size image of the sensations at the nose or belly, like more real more strong. This is the starting point for the real concentration. And this is the point, where you must let go of trauma resolution and everything, once you find there's nothing left and only fruitless circles...you must pin down your mind onto these deeper images of the breath or whatever the object is. At this point it's really a little more effortful to do, but in a subtle way, you must stay relaxed and calm at the same time. While you acquired the deeper image, one of the techniques to fully concentrate it, is to at each stroke (in or out) monitor the intensity of the sensations during the full stroke. Once you realize, there is intensity lacking, this is a subconscious distraction. Remember earlier in all stages, sometimes you dreamed away from the breath without being able to prevent, just after a time the breath stuck nonetheless? Now you have to prevent, and the key is to sense when the awareness of the breath is not fully there. Once you realize that, you will probably also become aware of the unconscious distraction driving you away and able to control. So you need to overcome these distractions fully, and let me tell you, that force is not the right way, but actually what unconsciously derails you over and over again, or even just causes some tension, you need to first psychologically overcome it before being able to fully concentrate in this stage. You cannot just push through, you must first become noble enough to stand beyond the challenges. The challenges themselves, may make you noble in time, but when you derail in them, it can be a danger for your health and sanity, so stay sane and healthy.

Even some more relations to other systems: for Anapanasati, the 1st is before and 2nd the start of the first tetrad, the third step is the second tetrad, the 4th step is the third and fourth tetrad, with the fourth tetrad meaning exercises that come before the possibility of full liberation (enlightenment), which can happen by concentration in meditation. For example relating this to the stages of the modern "TMI" system, "The Mind Illuminated" by Culadasa, which I also got inspired from, it means the first stage is TMI 1-3, 2nd stage is TMI 4, 3rnd stage is TMI 5 and 6th stage is TMI 6+.

And that's it...you must train this, some do it in weeks, others need years or decades, until fully concentrated liberated, mind has full trained self control abilities then full awareness, no more irrational thought or world- or self-image due to much self-reflection. Some say it's just the start of an adventure, the ability to concentrate the mind, comes with much other abilities, some curious, some dangerous, some irrelevant. Also the knowledge one gains, may be curious at times, or unique to a person, like anything that happens in this meditation. In the end, it is the same patterns that happen to all, just with unique elements from their own souls.

So if you do this and feel you got caught up, don't forget you can and should talk about your problems and try to clear them up. If the meditation brings you severe stress, it's good to have it treated properly...i.e. by a psychiatrist, or therapist...I'd also say, it's good to have a person who knows what meditation is and means, so they don't misdiagnose you or try a wrong treatment. There are also specific help centers like "cheetah house" which you can contact for safety material and contact to people who can help. Don't hesitate to call help! Also therapist, can sometimes be helpful even for the meditation, when you fail to resolve some past trauma the right way, maybe your therapist can help you with it! It's not a shame. Also you can and should try to learn more about this meditation in various books, some traditional, some modern.

Okay this is what I wanted to share about what my style of effortless concentration meditation is and some things I think about it. You see, it is completely stripped of traditional methods or cultural integration, and I really just sit down every day my 1-3 hours doing this attention exercize and learning from what it brings up.

I'm now ready to let me be roasted about this and curious about any opinions or additional hints of remarks on this. Have a nice evening!

Still stalking me in my head majorly, not daring to show any signs in real life, other than all sabotages of fate and official business that can even go unnoticed or as error or personal decision of others. So I just wanted to speak my joy and praise over the new stalkers I've in my head. Finally some real men, finally some real entertainment, the old losers became boring for me after a while. Seems like the last crew failed at causing me "Zersetzung" with rather childish methods, I simply kept outwitting them. Now some who go real aggressive go over my mind, also with different methods!

My simple method is to let them come and not be tricked into using their powers in another way than I've learned. And that's purely reactive, letting them make the first step and cleansing all dirt from my mind and resisting. I don't really know who they are, but for sure different people. Claim to be "Apophes" disciples, well old Egyptian snake God might click for some maybe...probably they want me for sacrifice to one of their fake deity idols of that God on summer solstice which is like the highest day for most neo-nazi people who live close here...

It's good that I've had such wieners at first, who only fiddled with my mind to keep me busy without really knowing what they did. So these people have failed and now sent some specialists. Like Apophes, sounds like "an'n po fesst" (touch at the butt), like a bavarian dude saying somebody touched some other person's butt...also sounds like "ham profis" (have professionals) or "am po fist" (fisting the butt). That name's for sure program, they still fresh and can do some business, I tell you!

These outright try to demoralize and threaten me heavily, threatening me with mind-crippling magic! They even dared an eye to eye by sneaking into the back of my mind, then showing me internal face full of hatred and wish to subdue, enlsave or cripple me...trying to threaten and subdue me with ego influence. They only have the worst of all egos going to my mind, either fully overbearing, or fully fainthearted, it's rather easy to withstand, but the pressure they use is pretty Sthigh, I needed to restart some herbal medication to keep calm and be able to deal with this now...

Then when I resisted, they tried to turn it around, and make me believe they could cripple my soul if I didn't pay 2k€ per months. Then showing me a lot of mind-crippling tricks trainings where the recepient is disciplined by making them cripple their own mind with willful actions, then feeling damaged etc. Started after I made them bang themselves for oppressing me from nowhere... So they must even be short on income, I hope this won't last long if that's true. I of course have no money myself, I'm on subsidy and have no people who could pay for me...I'm like a Forrest Gump living on good works never lacking anything, so they stopped asking me for that money so far, couldn't even sell enough possessions for the first fee...some second hand hardware I need to surf the net, a hash pipe, some speakers to hear musik and their voices in the music over and over again, more I don't have... It's fun, like I keep hearing bavarian voices now, I need to learn more about their dialect.

Oh, I of course don't listen into that stuff on my own with intent to hear them yet, else they could hear a lot about me...like watching them, will also allow them to watch you, so that's a difficult limbo. I just let them come, meditate and transcend all crap they put on me, really, you must just concentrate your mind fully and cleanse yourself from all imperfection but also from all pride and from being overzealous, then you can take it all away if you learn to resist. Also I have fun now making them wipe their own devices, as well, like I was used from the previous "specialists", but these are now "professionals" it seems, it's a bit harder, they also know that game. They immediately installed on my mind some training sequences where you're tricked in an impossible way by demons, I really thought I was defending myself just to be shown how I would cripple my mind again and again. I can now recognize that training, but they nearly got me. Then when they come for themselves, they seem to know nothing...it's easy to make them cut their backlink it seems. Made one fault his own ego today, was told it's his first ego death, whoo I want to assist him getting holy or staying mad now...

They tried to set me up with my old libel story way hard before they personally attacked me, trying to make me believe I'd be fucked for a girl claiming rape and voluntary magical vows over me when I never had raped her, she had seduced me for making out instead, and then had ritually abused me and tricked me real hard, poisoning me the next day. Was a fight to make them admit they couldn't convince me of that lie, and then they tried the direct aggression method. They keep telling me they are my neighbors and rule the scene here and need money, now they seem to be up to revenge, because I transcend all their oppression mind elements they put on me and render them useless with that. Seems like they put or invest something, power or whatever, and are fucked if they can't get it back...like peddlers buying access with a made up story from somewhere (rape libel, "hey het aber de hex' ah'n po fesst..."), on provision, then going nuts when they can't subdue me.

Started some days after I started talking with another TI, dude seems unhappy about his situation and wasn't reacting for a while, please keep him in prayers. The current stalkers also tell me they're the neighbors, or the local neo-nazi people, or even from that TI, sometimes suggesting me they are liars who wanted to get me down and that TI was fake, sometimes suggesting me they are the people who gangstalk my friend and I've to bear with them now because I messed up their plans to destroy him! So this is the kind of mindwars to expect, when you keep resisting and speaking it all out, mind you I still live my life healthy and fine, but it's real hard with such terror going on. Got them on my butt, they don't seem to want to let go, yet ("am po, fest..."). Greetings from Germany.

I've just seen another post, in which this simple question was asked: why give your attention to God. I now want to give my own perspective to it, and think this deserves it's own post and discussion - this is a fundamental issue, so it deserves the attention of anyone who is willing to look at our good Lord to find out what he is about!

Well, my answer is, just try and see. I'd advice you to listen to the words of Jesus Christ, and see what happens. He gave simple advice, and from his teaching came the Apostles, also Paul, who have written letters of advice on how to fulfill the meaning of life.

So why I God worthy of your attention? Because he can tell you the meaning of life, which will cause great dignity and happiness and fulfillment, if you complete it the right way.

So is it about worshiping this God, where to find him, where to revere him for you to tell? You don't have to worship him, even at all, as humans would want praise and worship! Mat.7:21 is clear on this, not those who revere him, but those who actually do his will, get that noble rewards which are promised!

So what to do, where to find this God even, so you could listen to the commandments? Talking to the sky, it won't immediately answer (usually...).

I tell you, it's more simple than you think. There is this one man Jesus Christ, who has become the messenger of God to tell us all that counts! He did this in a terrible mission, which cost him a painful death, just so we can know about him. He was glorified by miracles in front of his followers and others, just to show them that he really was in the truth. So you can find his whole story and all there is to know in the book his followers later prepared, the Holy Bible!

Read the Bible, it's like knocking and you will be answered (Mat.7:7). It is like opening the door, but you also have to enter it!

How to enter it, it seems very confusing? My advice is, read this book, make your thoughts, listen to others, be guided by your heart. I just read it on my own, and was more than rewarded. Assuming that God is good (Mat 19:17, Luke 18:19), I read assuming that his commandments are love (Gal.5:14, Rom.13:10).

And this is the key, any commandments you read, you must discern from this simple assumption, that God is good and loves us, and most notably, wants us to practice unconditional love in any regards.

But this may sound a little too easy, and too hard at the same time. How to change our often self-centered values, for this unconditional love? It is possible, for some the way is short, for others it may be long and arduous.

All I want to give to you now is, start with the simple advice he gives, which is not hard to understand: do unto others only as you wish to receive to yourself (Mat.7:12, Luke 6:31)! This may sound ridiculously simple and foolish, but try to sincerely do that for a while, and you will see the difference.

From this point on, and that's where I also started obeying the Word of God, which we find in the Bible, we may start being transformed. While I kept practicing hard every day to fulfill that simple commandment, I found more and more joy and understanding in the other commandments of the New Testament!

This is how I believe we must listen and be attentive to God, while reading his Word in the Bible, and while walking our everyday path in life, remembering what we are taught by this noble God of love.

Why the attention? Believe me, it will change your life! Suddenly we no longer live for ourselves, but can know what living in mercy and compassion is truly like! It changed my life, even as I was not a grave sinner, I did no greater evils but was victimized and suffered much instead. I had always honored integrity even as I was a nonconformist in nature.

Now I had found the commandments which I could conform to, in the words of the Bible, commanding me the love I always sought. This was the attention I could give to God, this is how and where I could find him, and he doesn't stop giving me more and more every day, at first from the Bible, then more and more from the world I was cast into.

Realizing that we must pay and make good for anything we mess up in our lives, his Word is redemption and will give us the opportunity to pay back. We can do so, to prove our reliability to this God who created the world and gave it to us in freedom. For forgiveness, because Christ will pay whatever is still due, once our hearts have fully changed for his ways of mercy.

That's the mercy we must expect, that we may gain the same as we are ready to give to others. I know it can be hard, but try! As you sow your seeds of mercy instead of wrath, so will be the fruits you can gain from the field which your whole life is - for anything you sow, may grow and later reap, or needs to be weeded with ardor or even threatens all other fruit.

So...I just wanted to share this little access to the Gospel once again, in case anyone from you was still in doubt or confusion about where to start to find...our Lord Christ Jesus, who gave his life and let his blood be spilled, even knowing it fully beforehand, just to let us know how this God loves us and how he desires our mercy so he can return it. More God doesn't want, and that's why I really love paying attention to him. For most others form the world, don't want our mercy, or wouldn't want to return it, but God and those in him, always will. And it's a great redemption from all the things we do which can hurt each other so badly. I know now God doesn't want that, but our mercy...and it's his mercy, that we're free to choose.

So this little sermon is now left to you, I wish you a happy day, and in case you didn't do it yet, please start reading the Bible...not just a few verses, but read the whole story. It's in there 4 times, with one continuation, and then you can see how those of the first hours taught each other to pay attention to this God of mercy, to enact and gain mercy evermore. They are all still remembered until today, and it's almost 2000 years. This is the New Testament, accompanied with the back story of the Old Testament, so we can learn more about the world which Jesus entered to lift up this simple teaching.

May you all find the same grace and mercy I found in fulfilling this simple meaning. Really, there isn't more to it, and I hope you could pay attention well now and are blessed by it! Love and mercy is really worth it, don't judge, instead act forgiveness - this is the Gospel. May the God of mercy lead you to this understanding and away from all who try to convince you of the opposite! Amen.

Luke 11:33

>33 “No one, when he has lit a lamp, puts it in a cellar or under a basket, but on a stand, that those who come in may see the light.

Hello! Today I want to confess, that I believe in enlightenment through Christ. And that I believe it is way superior to all other approaches. It is superior to the Buddhist teaching I also know; I firmly believe in it. Because this enlightenment comes from the heart, it comes from the truth. The Buddha enlightenment instead for most is just another false "tough love" Philosophy, which must break your heart by not telling you the truth ahead which you would need for a fair chance to be free and emancipated in decision about it. Christ instead opened up the full of the meaning of life, and he had no secrets in this:

John 18:19-21

>19 The high priest therefore asked Jesus about his disciples and about his teaching.
20 Jesus answered him, “I spoke openly to the world. I always taught in synagogues and in the temple, where the Jews always meet. I said nothing in secret.
21 Why do you ask me? Ask those who have heard me what I said to them. Behold, they know the things which I said.”

Now This means believers have to work and tell anyone, freely, just like Christ preached his Word, free of charge for all (2.Cor.11:7). There is nothing required from you, to accept this simple Gospel other than listening and doing this Word (Mat.7:21). The Word which is fulfilled fully just by loving your neighbor as yourself and doing unto them only as you would want to receive to yourself (Mat.7:12 et al.).

But I admit, it is not easy to grasp and follow. The courage Christ had to openly speak out the full truth ahead, means he was slain for it as all other Prophets of his time would be slain (Acts 7:48-53). This is the reason why Christ had to speak of his followers telling anyone the truth - he could not leave the testimony for himself, but had to relay it to his disciples, going into a most painful sacrifice which was necessary to preserve the teaching, at all. I firmly believe, if Jesus didn't hand himself over in Gethsemane, but fought with the sword, himself and all of his disciples would have been dead and Christianity prevented. This is how he gained the victory of the cross - to leave us this Holy Book, the Bible, the testimony of his life and words and that of the Father in Heaven.

How does Buddhism fare against his simple teaching of love? It fares with ages old traditions, the Buddha was respected instead of killed like Christ - he did not want to save the world like Jesus (john 12:47, John 3:17), but just to free his disciples for their private peace. He did not speak out the sins of others, but just gained a preferable place of detachment. Even in his enlightenment, he didn't want to save the world, but just to dare either breaking through his own pains with will power, or die in meditation seat as was not an uncommon thing for ascetics of his time. The Buddha didn't want to save the world, but he wanted to throw away his life for good! And he threw away his last ties of wanting to become freed for a personal reason, and it was his last tie and he was freed - then a Maha Brahma had to convince him to share his liberation with others.

So this is the method of the Buddha, that you must give up everything, so you can be freed. This works by removing all your desires for unrighteous gains, and your mind is purified and liberated. I however believe, that Jesus encompassed a greater method, which is superior: that you must only learn to accept what you cannot change (i.e.Philippians 4:11–13, James 4:13–15, Matthew 6:27, 34)! But this is only one key to removing all burdens of the mind, the complete ethical purification of the mind, which must be thoroughly done, will suffice in the end, instead.

Let me compare the seals of the mind from Buddhism and Christianity. Buddha claims, anything "conditioned" (which means non-eternal) will have marks of impermanence, impersonality, dissatisfaction. The Disciples are urged to meditate exactly on these things to free themselves. I acknowledge, these three marks are three gates to transcend your mental experience, while misunderstanding will lead you to self-destruction by making you deny otherwise worthy things!

I however believe in a greater mark of existence, which was given by Christ - the follower of God, who did not name God a cruel impersonal force (Karma, Dharma), but a living Father, whom we can greet out of joy (Romans 8:15, Gal.4:6-7) and call ourselves his children!

This mark of existence which surpasses all 3 others is called "righteousness", it is the justice which comes from mercy, it is the discernment of good and evil. What is good? It is what is helpful, beneficial, what we give without expecting a gain at the cost of others' involuntary suffering. What is evil? It is what tried to gain by destroying others. Thus what is good, is beneficial, it leads to saving the world as Jesus claimed he came for. Thus what is evil, means it is what will destroy the world by our works, destroying us with it. Christ came to bring eternal life and not eternal destruction, thus he ordered us to love the neighbor like ourselves, so that we will transform our mind to do good instead of evil. I believe in it firmly - even when it is more difficult to fall for traps of pride and greed in this simple truth, it will enlighten us fully and ever more than any Buddha could. It may be painful, sometimes costly, but it can bring us the full truth and glory which also Christ had (John 14:12).

Now a words of warning, yes, Acts 7:48-53, anyone speaking this truth is at danger of being misunderstood and done away with, as the truth hurts those who are evil, who want to destroy the world to have it taken from them in the end (Revelation 11:18). Where the Buddha ordered and allowed silence, no display of powers, Christ and the Apostles did so mightily, and they had nothing to hide (John 18:19-21) and exposed whatever they could find unworthy, Eph.5:

>11 Have no fellowship with the unfruitful deeds of darkness, but rather even reprove them.
12 For it is a shame even to speak of the things which are done by them in secret.
13 But all things, when they are reproved, are revealed by the light, for everything that reveals is light.
14 Therefore he says, “Awake, you who sleep, and arise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.”

Now but this revealing of things, instead of keeping them secret, even exposing what already hurts even talking about, has a price, and a resolution again Eph.5:

>15 Therefore watch carefully how you walk, not as unwise, but as wise,
16 redeeming the time, because the days are evil.
17 Therefore, don’t be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is.
18 Don’t be drunken with wine, in which is dissipation, but be filled with the Spirit,
19 speaking to one another in psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs; singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord;
20 giving thanks always concerning all things in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ to God, even the Father;
21 subjecting yourselves to one another in the fear of Christ.

Instead of going our private, personal way, as many people into the Asian enlightenment methods do, we have to rely on each other passing on this Spirit, so the truth may be visible from the Holy Scriptures more clearly for those who are drunken in Spirit by the deceptions of the world.

But then Christ will enlighten us, and will enlighten us fully, again Eph.5:14 tells us that Christ will bring the light into us. But what about the discipline, the mediation, which Buddhists know and frees the mind, but seems lacking in Christian tradition? Now cleansing the mind is also what Christ ordered, and I found it is up to the hearts of the believers to choose the method. But the instructions are clear:

2 Cor 10:3-6:

>3 For though we walk in the flesh, we don’t wage war according to the flesh;
4 for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but mighty before God to the throwing down of strongholds,
5 throwing down imaginations and every high thing that is exalted against the knowledge of God and bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,
6 and being in readiness to avenge all disobedience when your obedience is made full.

This means how we must conquer our mind and banish ever selfish and evil thought, look on, Romans 12:1-3

>1 Therefore I urge you, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service.
2 Don’t be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what is the good, well-pleasing, and perfect will of God.
3 For I say through the grace that was given me, to everyone who is among you, not to think of yourself more highly than you ought to think; but to think reasonably, as God has apportioned to each person a measure of faith.

Not enough affirmation of this practice yet? See also Phil. 2:1-8:

>1 If therefore there is any exhortation in Christ, if any consolation of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any tender mercies and compassion,
2 make my joy full by being like-minded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind;
3 doing nothing through rivalry or through conceit, but in humility, each counting others better than himself;
4 each of you not just looking to his own things, but each of you also to the things of others.
5 Have this in your mind, which was also in Christ Jesus,
6 who, existing in the form of God, didn’t consider equality with God a thing to be grasped,
7 but emptied himself, taking the form of a servant, being made in the likeness of men.
8 And being found in human form, he humbled himself, becoming obedient to the point of death, yes, the death of the cross.

Colossians 3:2-3

>2 Set your mind on the things that are above, not on the things that are on the earth.
3 For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.

This is a tough part to acknowledge...because accepting Christ, we must give up who we were...but not by giving up our lives, but just by accepting what we cannot change, and by our dedication to compassion and mercy, which will save not only us - but the whole world that is!

This is also fully encompassed in the Parable of the Talents (Mat.25:14-30). Here Jesus explains how our lives with our gifts and opportunities are like a fortune given to us...if we use it for the better of the world, being the salt of the world which prevented the fish to spoil at the time of Jesus (Mat.5:13-16), then our fortune will be doubled! But the one who does not want to work, but keep everything for himself, will lose even all he had...because the works would have also sustained that little, so that he must lose them when he fails, and another one doing the works would gain the merits. If such a person just had even shared what he had to help others doing the job, they would be accepted. Or, as 1 Cor 3:12–15 explains, one who would even try would still be saved, even though it will just be like as if being rescued by the fire. It will only work when you really wanted but failed, this is what faith over works truly means. One who didn't want, and gave up the works to preserve the world, would be cast into the fire fully instead. Don't give the Buddha your works by giving them up, give them to the people of the world instead to be filled with the truth and the light of the one who created our world, the Karma, the Dharma, and who is waiting for us in heaven to show us he is our Father and loved us all the way.

Maybe some of you now say, there is little evidence, that a Christian would get fully Holy by concentrating the mind like a Buddhist would strive to. I tell you, it is not true, the Spirit will lead you there, and the instructions are in the Scriptures...given by Christ in Matthew 6 and Luke 11:

Mat 6:22-23:

>22 “The lamp of the body is the eye. If therefore your eye is sound, your whole body will be full of light.
23 But if your eye is evil, your whole body will be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!

Luke 11:34-36:

>34 The lamp of the body is the eye. Therefore when your eye is good, your whole body is also full of light; but when it is evil, your body also is full of darkness.
35 Therefore see whether the light that is in you isn’t darkness.
36 If therefore your whole body is full of light, having no part dark, it will be wholly full of light, as when the lamp with its bright shining gives you light.”

Here you see that Jesus tells a simple and deep secret about the "lamp of the body", which means the mind's eye! Focus it fully on the light, and you will be filled with it. Focus it fully on what is benign, and the light will bring brightness and full transcendence, and not darkness to keep you enthralled with evil. That simple it is. Want to see the values you should focus on in Christ, to believe in? Read the passages of Galatians 5:13-26! Read this passage again and again. This is the Gospel, not blind belief in a miracle man or sky daddy. This is what will enlighten you fully, without you having to abandon this world. Do so, and you will see the Spirit will try to save this world with and in you, if you even try, you will be given place and dominion in eternity by God the Father and I believe in this fully: he will give it even to the least, and none will be greater than all others other than in the regard of how much they humble themselves in it (Luke 22:25-30).

Want to see full concentration being given right at the start of the Bible? Think that heaven is the mind, earth the body, and the vault is the will which directs the mind's eye, the attention, to collect at a single point of the body or outside the body in the world, read Genesis 1:9-10:

>9 God said, “Let the waters under the sky be gathered together to one place, and let the dry land appear;” and it was so.
10 God called the dry land “earth”, and the gathering together of the waters he called “seas”. God saw that it was good.

Once purified, collect your mind at a single place or space of the body, of the world, and let the world be filled with the light God has entrusted to you. You will see, all will be reveled.

Now I did some service by writing this all down for you, I hope it can give the light to a few of you so you don't have to burn in the fire, but are able to do the works of the Father which will bring that light to you and anyone else. Don't stay quiet, open up everything, teach on, preach on, don't give up helping each other for your own enlightenment. Instead enlighten each other, and the light will be with you forever, and never leave you and you will never be alone. May the many now rise up and teach each other this light, this simple truth, which could save the world if it didn't reject it! Amen!

The Bible citations in this text are from the "World English Bible Updated", which is public domain and free of charge to share. So I can hereby also declare this article to be free, and allow all sharing of it in the public domain. Please also tell the source which is u/Meditat0rz on Reddit if you do. Happy raising the light, raise it to the many hearts beating hearts bleeding for the redemption we all need. Don't give up the world, it's not lost, even when it might be for a time in future; the time which still will be can still be saved, and will be raised up to all eternity. So shall it be, Amen!

Hello. I hope this is the right place to post such questions, if not, please redirect me to the proper channel/sub. Already tried other subs, but all seem to avoid discussions on user bans in general. All I seek is some sound advice so I can claim my rights as a Reddit user properly.

So the caption says it all. I made a completely legit post in a big and very specific image sub, as requested it was my own OC, and I even also put a comment with second picture to prove it was my OC, as the rules explicitly forbid the usage of forged material and my picture was so distinct that it may have risen such a suspicion. The post was initially received very well with many upvotes and comments, it is exactly what the channel sports. Then the next day I found an unknown moderator had during the night permabanned and modmuted me out of the blue, all at once, without any discussion - pointing at my prove comment which I thought was appropriate to fulfill the channel rules, and not to break them. I wasn't given any explanation for it, just generally that I'd break the rules with that comment. I could not see which rule I had broken, at all, neither from the explanation nor from my own comment.

So this is very sad for me, I liked the channel very much and wanted to participate regularly, even did that already before that point. What can I do now to gain backing of my rights, or even try to somehow make this visible or discussed? I mean I was given no obvious reason for the ban, but I have a suspicion that it may be a discrimination due to my religious views. If this is not, it must be something weird or a misunderstanding - I don't understand why it happened, at all.

So I had reported this incident to Reddit (like 10 days ago), got no reply. I had used the wrong reason I guess, and now reported it again to Reddit with proper reason (2 - intransparent rules, "Set and Manage Reasonable Expectations", as I could not expect being banned without return from what I was told before).

Is reporting it to Reddit all I can do, and if yes, how long do I have to wait for any response or decision on it? I guess it can take weeks/months, right?

And I mean it is pretty arbitrary behavior from the mods - is there even a chance to gain any rights over this case, or are such decisions generally in the hands of the mods and they have free play in this? What else could/should I do to clear up this misunderstanding somehow in a graceful way? I feel such discussion about subreddit bans is generally not really wanted in most places of Reddit - are there specific places inside or outside of Reddit, where such a thing could be discussed?

Thanks for all answers and suggestions about this!

So I now out myself as not believing in penal substitution. It sounds good, but I believe it is not the Gospel.

What is penal substitution? It means a person must suffer the pains thought for another person, to have them released from it. Many believers in Christ, believe that Jesus himself suffered all the pains he'd later forgive on the cross already, leading to otherwise guilty persons now being free.

Why am I an opponent of this view? It is not mercy. It is what a mafia boss would demand from their victims for the personal satisfaction, but not what a righteous omnibenevolent God would do. It would claim God to be a murderer who would insist of avenging every guilt, but I am sure that he is not.

God is mercy instead! God desires not our suffering, but our mercy! So how does salvation work then?

I believe that God already saved us by his Word, Christ brought it and took the pain for 1 crucifixion to make it possible. We have to accept it, and then we can be saved...without Christ speaking it and committing miracles until he was executed by his enemies, this Word would not be known to us.

He just gives us the truth, and only 1 sacrifice was necessary, that of his Son Jesus Christ! To accept it, we need to accept his Gospel of loving the neighbor like ourselves, and to do unto them only as you would wish to receive on yourself. Because like you love and forgive your neighbor, this God will also love and forgive you, but only then he will be able to do it. He doesn't demand anyone to suffer for another one, but actually the opposite, that we help each other NOT to suffer.

Taking the suffering for another person in free will, still is a great merit however, and Jesus took this 1 crucifixion taking it to cause forgiveness for the whole world. Hence it was the greatest merit to cause! This great is the love and forgiveness of God, he doesn't desire sacrifice but mercy, learn what that means until you realize, that you've to forgive the debt of your debtors just like God will forgive you.

So this is a very simple yet hard truth. We cannot be simply saved by relaying our suffering to another person, it's a sin in itself to let another person suffer. Maybe it is okay, when that other person accepts the suffering on themselves, and bears it with patience and takes no harm in their life and works for it. But how rare would such a cause be, I mean, have you waited for Jesus to tell you that he accepted your pains and relieved you from it, from his own intention and purpose?

You say, hey wait. Then how are we supposed to achieve this salvation when we are too weak to save ourselves? This is the miracle, that Christ can be in anyone who accepts his Gospel from heart, and give you the strength and courage to live it. If you keep with it, he will stay in your like that until you're free. Remember he did not suffer extra for you personally, but once for all who accept him and the unique strength he embodied. Pray like a child or do the greatest works, whatever you want.

I know I did this, and prayed and was answered easily and given all ability and knowledge necessary for it. Within the limits, of the mercy I way able to give to others from myself. While NOT accepting the substitution, but only the mercy I'd have to accept to embody over others. I believe in it - believing in Christ and accepting his Word, he will see and know us and can be with us. And nobody had or has to suffer for it other than Christ in his 1 sacrifice which made it all possible. It makes possible that we can become righteous like him, and be forgiven our debt for it, just...we have to accept, and at least try. Even when we fail at times, it's us believing in the mercy in the end, which will save us. And not another poor man taking our beating, like for that evil mafia boss!

And for me - this mercy worked out and still works out. And even when I still suffer as life is suffering, I know this mercy cannot be taken from me any longer. The Word set and still sets me free in every way in every day, Amen! The suffering even will be forgiven in the end, and I know, that it is my test to endure which God will put upon my shoulders, and only as much as I'm able to carry.

So this is my view and rejection of penal substitution, and the source of my whole freedom in faith. I know we all can be worthy if we want, we must just want to try. And the God who made everything, wants that mercy and wants to forgive the suffering, instead of relaying it. The passages in the Bible concerning the substitution, I understand as parabolic and symbolic speech declaring Christ's sacrifice as noble enough to free us all from our sufferings. But we need to accept this mercy, and all the scripture is clear on this: we can't just be freed and be free from all punishment for our sins. We have to stop, even just want to stop, sinning at least, and that's the price WE have to pay for this sacrifice. Which was painful, but not in an unrighteous way.

I hope this all gives you the same confidence and ability to accept a Gospel, which I could not accept thinking my sufferings could hurt another one, even if it was the Son of God himself. I know him now, and that he only wants our faith and works of mercy to be able to forgive us. I believe he will also forgive those who believe in substitution, if their faith is righteous, just like Abraham thought the crime of killing his own son would be righteous. But it's not good, the Angel prevented it rightfully and caused mercy.

So this is the mercy which God desires over any sacrifice, and it's what makes us Holy in the end. So may we all, whatever we believe in, be Holy Holy Holy in the end and worthy of the respect of each others' dignity, which God requires for us to be able to live with and for Christ for all eternity - in freedom, because we know the sins were forgiven for the mercy, and not for another one taking their toll. Only this way, sins will be take away completely, only this way the effect of the forgiveness would be fully pure and righteous to demand. May we all take the courage, to accept and do this mercy, so we all can receive it in the end, Amen!

TL;DR Saw another post with the correct statement, that Christians have no monopoly on God, showing how he made all religions for the truth to be found. That God simply made this world for his truth to be revealed, you can find it elsewhere, as well! It's anywhere in creation, and while Christ brought the full insight into God's simple law, he was not the only one and I believe that other who learn unconditional respect and mercy, must also go to heaven and eternal life for being righteous, they will not be denied for not knowing Christ or for not having obeyed any Christian who was wrong in that regard. Heaven is full of Buddhists, Muslims, Hindus, Atheists, and countless others, who simply learned to love their neighbor and unconditionally respect everyone - it's the sole requirement for eternal life, it's what will keep you happy even when you're enlightened, it's what will enlighten you for free, to begin with!

Christians who deny this and demand people to follow strict rules like from Old Testament or literalism in New Testament are actually the modern Pharisees. They try to suppress the truth just like the Pharisees tried to suppress the Christians, well, at least they may no longer question and torture people for it like in ancient or medieval times.

And it all comes from misunderstanding John 14:6 - where Jesus says he is the way and the life and the truth and the only way to the Father. Modern Christian Pharisees misunderstand that as Jesus' monopoly on eternal life. They usually also claim you must blindly obey vocal commands of Christ or God to be a believer, and believe in the person of Jesus Christ only.

Why is this verse misunderstood? Look at the previous verses, and you'll know why Jesus said it. Thomas the Apostle asked him where he and his disciples should be going once their master was gone. And Jesus said this verse John 14:6, to urge them not to trust other teachers than him, because only his teaching would lead to the Father, and the others' won't.

So I believe this was a direct urge from Jesus to his direct first disciples, not to look for other teachers, but to stay true to the teaching he had given to them. They were not supposed to go to the Pharisees or other Jewish sects who preach God, but stay in the teaching of love of the neighbor they had been revealed by Jesus. Jesus claiming he is the way, he means to say that the love for the neighbor, is the only way which brings you to God - for his disciples, he would be the only one to teach it to them!

So this is the truth, Jesus wanted his disciples to keep loving their brethren and neighbors and enemies, instead of doing other sacrifices than the one to the cross which Jesus already made for them. But Jesus did not mean to say he is the only person ever to trust in this, and this is what so many modern Christians believe. It is simply a misinterpretation: the Old Testament shows, there were Holy people before Christ teaching, and they all gained it by their righteousness, which is the love of the neighbor. In Mat.7:21 Jesus directly tells people not to worship him falsely or in rituals, which would not get you to heaven, but to do the will of the Father instead, which gains you eternal life.

What is this will? Jesus told us everything to know! Nowhere is written we should follow any voice commanding us our deeds for God. So this is what "obedience" is worth. Instead, our commandments come from God, through the words of Jesus Christ: Mat.7:12 - do unto others only as you want to receive to yourself. Jesus says, this sums up everything, this is the whole Gospel in this verse - Paul affirms it in Gal.5:14, love of the neighbor sums up the whole of the law of God, it is the whole of the righteousness we must gain for eternal life.

So whatever voice would command me, and I am tempted often: I know if it commands me even the slightest thing which is against this love of the neighbor, it is not from God, it is a devil whom I should not obey. God does not hide things and does not command from the hidden without showing you fully his true face and intentions and letting you know why it is urgent truthfully etc; only devils and demons do command others from the hidden without showing responsibilities and giving free choice and knowledge about it. God showed himself, in Jesus Christ, telling us all the truth to choose for ourselves. Gal.5:1 - not a yoke of slavery, but freedom is what God brings. James 1:25, the law of Christ we follow, brings us freedom, we are free and it makes us free. The only price is, you must maintain unconditional respect for all whop are, be true to all responsibilities you accept, never accept evil but avoid it and expose it in yourself and other, yet forgive it wherever you can, and never lie or ever testify the untruth.

The rest is your life, if you keep these rules - you will be free in Christ. 1 Cor.7:21-24 - Christ told those who were slaves, to keep their state and not escape or revolt, this is true. I believe this is because else they and those who helped them would be accused and punished, even tortured and killed, and Christianity would have stay banned in the whole ancient world, maybe even it wouldn't have survived. But the other thing Paul teaches in these verses is, that you should not want to become a servant of man, but that you should rather stay free to serve God - in freedom. This also means btw., as the to love of the neighbor like yourself is always in effect, that you also should not enslave anyone, but give them the freedom to serve Christ instead, giving them what saves them when they are in need.

Okay, that went a little far, but I hope the point is clear. Jesus does not want you to blindly obey people who believe you the Bible is a law book for everything to keep which is written in it. They don't understand the Gospel, and most probably also they will understand many things they tell you to keep - completely wrong. Instead Jesus wants you only to follow that commandment of unconditional love and forgiveness - and whoever practices and teaches this right, will gain people eternal life and also for themselves, they do right what God desires and what Jesus taught. Jesus had no monopoly on the truth, he set it free - the truth is everywhere in the creation of God, you can see in in anything he made (Rom.1:20). All who realize that they need to love the neighbor will be blessed or gain eternal life, all who teach it properly will become Holy like Jesus and others who taught it in his name. The truth is free, it is from God, it brings you freedom. Don't let others tell you'd have to buy it from the before that point, don't believe them it's a secret. Jesus told everything in public, and told exactly that to those who were questioning before he was executed for disobeying those who claimed they knew God when they didn't. It's not a secret at all what God wants, and the only price is that you accept this love, and that you must bear the consequences of this different state of mind, which is sometimes rejected by those who cannot understand it right. But it's not their fault and then you'll know, and still be saved because it's simply the truth.

Let's pray for all religions to undergo reformation of their dogma, so they may evaluate this truth and it's fulfillment of the meaning of life, until all religions become the same and only remember their origins and differences in customs for their historical difference, when we humans all were not yet able to see the laws of our creator clearly. Now it's time to wake up, humans have grown and risen! We've had the age of enlightenment, we cast away a many yokes of such who were oppressed. By such deeds, the darkness which comes from the opposite deeds will get lifted. I still have hope, that this world will one day realize and accept the truth, so this whole planet with humanity doesn't have to go down but can exist ages long and in peace.

I sometimes pray for it. May this happen, may people overcome their arrogance and evil and simply accept, that all we have to do is love and forgive each other and let go of all selfishness and egoism and start sharing with those in need again, being patient with those who are humble and weak as Paul taught is the right thing to do (Rom.15). I hope soon as many as possible Christians and other people will wake up to this simple truth and destroy the works of the Satan which bound the to the competition which is currently destroying the whole planet with humanity. May the Lord of mercy and peace wipe away all our enmity, hostility and pride, to make whole humanity brethren in mutual respect and love once again. I've been told God gave us a light for us to live, the sun, and that he may take it from us if we have fallen from this love too far and oppressed and killed too many innocent suppressing this truth... Let's pray for light giving back this love to so many people, that he may never even consider this! Amen!

TL;DR Anyone who teaches the love of the neighbor right and saves people from evil, will be blessed and may eventually become Holy as Jesus and the Saints were. Also Muslims, Buddhists, Hindus, Atheists - anyone who truly purified their soul and learned to unconditionally love and respect and forgive will meet in heaven, to get the reward for believing in God's righteousness, no matter what name they called him or whether they knew at all, that is was the will of the creator.

Christians who deny this and demand people to follow strict rules like from Old Testament or literalism in New Testament are actually the modern Pharisees. They try to suppress the truth just like the Pharisees tried to suppress the Christians, well, at least they may no longer question and torture people for it like in ancient or medieval times.

And it all comes from misunderstanding John 14:6 - where Jesus says he is the way and the life and the truth and the only way to the Father. Modern Christian Pharisees misunderstand that as Jesus' monopoly on eternal life. They usually also claim you must blindly obey vocal commands of Christ or God to be a believer, and believe in the person of Jesus Christ only.

Why is this verse misunderstood? Look at the previous verses, and you'll know why Jesus said it. Thomas the Apostle asked him where he and his disciples should be going once their master was gone. And Jesus said this verse John 14:6, to urge them not to trust other teachers than him, because only his teaching would lead to the Father, and the others' won't.

So I believe this was a direct urge from Jesus to his direct first disciples, not to look for other teachers, but to stay true to the teaching he had given to them. They were not supposed to go to the Pharisees or other Jewish sects who preach God, but stay in the teaching of love of the neighbor they had been revealed by Jesus. Jesus claiming he is the way, he means to say that the love for the neighbor, is the only way which brings you to God - for his disciples, he would be the only one to teach it to them!

So this is the truth, Jesus wanted his disciples to keep loving their brethren and neighbors and enemies, instead of doing other sacrifices than the one to the cross which Jesus already made for them. But Jesus did not mean to say he is the only person ever to trust in this, and this is what so many modern Christians believe. It is simply a misinterpretation: the Old Testament shows, there were Holy people before Christ teaching, and they all gained it by their righteousness, which is the love of the neighbor. In Mat.7:21 Jesus directly tells people not to worship him falsely or in rituals, which would not get you to heaven, but to do the will of the Father instead, which gains you eternal life.

What is this will? Jesus told us everything to know! Nowhere is written we should follow any voice commanding us our deeds for God. So this is what "obedience" is worth. Instead, our commandments come from God, through the words of Jesus Christ: Mat.7:12 - do unto others only as you want to receive to yourself. Jesus says, this sums up everything, this is the whole Gospel in this verse - Paul affirms it in Gal.5:14, love of the neighbor sums up the whole of the law of God, it is the whole of the righteousness we must gain for eternal life.

So whatever voice would command me, and I am tempted often: I know if it commands me even the slightest thing which is against this love of the neighbor, it is not from God, it is a devil whom I should not obey. God does not hide things and does not command from the hidden without showing you fully his true face and intentions and letting you know why it is urgent truthfully etc; only devils and demons do command others from the hidden without showing responsibilities and giving free choice and knowledge about it. God showed himself, in Jesus Christ, telling us all the truth to choose for ourselves. Gal.5:1 - not a yoke of slavery, but freedom is what God brings. James 1:25, the law of Christ we follow, brings us freedom, we are free and it makes us free. The only price is, you must maintain unconditional respect for all whop are, be true to all responsibilities you accept, never accept evil but avoid it and expose it in yourself and other, yet forgive it wherever you can, and never lie or ever testify the untruth.

The rest is your life, if you keep these rules - you will be free in Christ. 1 Cor.7:21-24 - Christ told those who were slaves, to keep their state and not escape or revolt, this is true. I believe this is because else they and those who helped them would be accused and punished, even tortured and killed, and Christianity would have stay banned in the whole ancient world, maybe even it wouldn't have survived. But the other thing Paul teaches in these verses is, that you should not want to become a servant of man, but that you should rather stay free to serve God - in freedom. This also means btw., as the to love of the neighbor like yourself is always in effect, that you also should not enslave anyone, but give them the freedom to serve Christ instead, giving them what saves them when they are in need.

Okay, that went a little far, but I hope the point is clear. Jesus does not want you to blindly obey people who believe you the Bible is a law book for everything to keep which is written in it. They don't understand the Gospel, and most probably also they will understand many things they tell you to keep - completely wrong. Instead Jesus wants you only to follow that commandment of unconditional love and forgiveness - and whoever practices and teaches this right, will gain people eternal life and also for themselves, they do right what God desires and what Jesus taught. Jesus had no monopoly on the truth, he set it free - the truth is everywhere in the creation of God, you can see in in anything he made (Rom.1:20). All who realize that they need to love the neighbor will be blessed or gain eternal life, all who teach it properly will become Holy like Jesus and others who taught it in his name. The truth is free, it is from God, it brings you freedom. Don't let others tell you'd have to buy it from the before that point, don't believe them it's a secret. Jesus told everything in public, and told exactly that to those who were questioning before he was executed for disobeying those who claimed they knew God when they didn't. It's not a secret at all what God wants, and the only price is that you accept this love, and that you must bear the consequences of this different state of mind, which is sometimes rejected by those who cannot understand it right. But it's not their fault and then you'll know, and still be saved because it's simply the truth.

Let's pray for all religions to undergo reformation of their dogma, so they may evaluate this truth and it's fulfillment of the meaning of life, until all religions become the same and only remember their origins and differences in customs for their historical difference, when we humans all were not yet able to see the laws of our creator clearly. Now it's time to wake up, humans have grown and risen! We've had the age of enlightenment, we cast away a many yokes of such who were oppressed. By such deeds, the darkness which comes from the opposite deeds will get lifted. I still have hope, that this world will one day realize and accept the truth, so this whole planet with humanity doesn't have to go down but can exist ages long and in peace.

I sometimes pray for it. May this happen, may people overcome their arrogance and evil and simply accept, that all we have to do is love and forgive each other and let go of all selfishness and egoism and start sharing with those in need again, being patient with those who are humble and weak as Paul taught is the right thing to do (Rom.15). I hope soon as many as possible Christians and other people will wake up to this simple truth and destroy the works of the Satan which bound the to the competition which is currently destroying the whole planet with humanity. May the Lord of mercy and peace wipe away all our enmity, hostility and pride, to make whole humanity brethren in mutual respect and love once again. I've been told God gave us a light for us to live, the sun, and that he may take it from us if we have fallen from this love too far and oppressed and killed too many innocent suppressing this truth... Let's pray for light giving back this love to so many people, that he may never even consider this! Amen!

Today I needed it urgently. I was so down, like my situation was not easy for me to cope any more. My wife as well, she got down, I got her down, we both were only sad and had long discussions on how we can continue. I needed to get together all my confidence, my wife all her trust in me, so we could agree to move on. Like I'm really sad about all what happens, life let me down recently, and not just a little, but in many nagging steps draining out my courage. Well I still had some left but it already hurt.

Then I went to a walk in the nice spring weather, to just blow off some steam, and God just sent me somebody I didn't know yet, somebody very unusual. We both didn't know what to expect, and started talking, then we kept talking for more than one hour about eastern philosophy, good and evil, enlightenment, life itself, faith and everything that would come from it. I didn't have that yet, but for the first time I was facing somebody to discuss my faith with seriously from person to person, and it was such a joy. Even with somebody who was deep in thinking, but not identifying as a Christian, this was especially great and interesting! In the end we had to part because it got too intense for us, I never met a person like that with such good views before. Really looking forward to meet that person again and deepen our discussion. I really hope, it was not too much for them, like wow I really took so much from just that talk and being honest to a person about such things and getting the same back.

So today I want to make thanksgiving, I am grateful for God to present me this person at just the right time! I hope I can soon give back to God and also to my new friend. This was not the teaching I was used to, not the bread of heaven which tastes so good, but is boring to eat on your own. God instead simply gave me somebody to take serious and discuss and try to understand each other. I know I'm not perfect, they are not, as well. But we're both on the way and understood where we have to go to be happy and free at last. I needed this, now I have my confidence back. I want to thank them and God so much for that.

So this just picked me up again, and I've my confidence back now for a time. Even this simple talk washed my head and made me more humble again, and I guess the same is true for my friend. I hope this little anecdote can also give you a little confidence, that God can join your paths when it's time for you, for you and those who join with you. Want to leave this behind, also as a sign that you can and should have courage. Don't hesitate to open up to somebody who you feel is sincere, where you feel you relate and have something to say that is good for both you and them. It may be an disappointment at times, but otherwise it is always a missed chance you might regret later. I had to learn this for a long time, to just let go my fear, my expectations, my inability to interpret others well, all my knowledge of social inhibitions, to just be there and take others serious and talk about what I really believe. This hour of talk probably now cured me more, than dozends of hours of any "serious" therapy would. I hope my friend can be blessed for it, and also manage to get over his past.

So just wanted to leave this little word of encouragement and thanksgiving for all of you, hope you also find that person at the right time, that God makes a contact for you possible even when you don't expect it. Somebody who tries and really does manage to stir you up again when you settled so much that you got stuck. I've just got this, and hope God is blessed so much for it, he has shown me that the greatest dignity is really often in those, who are looked down upon by others for refusing to hide it, even when it's not made from what others would expect for it to work. It does work, when people just sincerely learn to believe in themselves and to accept anything just the way it is, to just do with it as good as you can. This lesson was for me better than any of the Bible. May the God of mercy take the blinders from our eyes, which makes us see others' expectations at all times, so we can see ourselves again, and what's really there for us in front of our eyes! Amen!

It will be imparted not by human hand or human judgement, else it is just a loan and must be paid back, it is not permanent.

Real enlightenment is permanent. I just saw a video, of some Sadhus, who were given DMT frog slime to inhale, from a western practitioner. Needless to say, they were impressed by the strength of the visions, well, they could handle it seems.

The last Sadhu who tried it, the most experienced one in all kinds of arts also death arts, said something deep that I will probably remember and tell others for a long time from now. The author of the video claimed, that he was the only one who remained silent during the whole trip, just sitting with closed eyes, then coming back and just asking the interviewer whether he was happy "now"... He said, this DMT, it can really show you some light. But it will only be a temporary light, once the effect is lost, you must lose it again. The true enlightenment however, which is hard to gain, with it you gain this light permanently, forever. You must never lose it again - what you see is not soap bubbles which must vanish after a time, but for real, it will never vanish, you will keep being that bright and free and beyond all troubles for all times that you be. So this is what he basically said, that DMT does not get you enlightened, but that it may be good, to give people a temporary proof to see what enlightenment can be like, so they can even believe it exists, at all. So he thought, that DMT was just a good proof of the nature of the mind and enlightenment, but not actually good for attaining it.

So I now thought, this is something true. You smoke a drug, and just get lifted to the temple of the highest Brahma, right? Not his temple guard or attorney, but the real Brahma, right, are you sure mate? You're not supposed to hang out there, he'll just laugh and kick you out of his palace again, leaving you behind a lesson and maybe a ticket to do some efforts and try for real next time. Be glad when you didn't end up in a Mara's palace instead! Then one day, when you're actually able to hold it, the Brahma may show you what he's doing there with us and our world all the time. I mean, you must look and behave like a temple guard, pass the tests, prove your loyalty to being benign and responsible fully, must accept to be executed out of free will when you deliberately threaten the lives of those entrusted to you or spill secrets which hurt others or destroy a world, must be able to control yourself so even a Mara cannot bend your will to make you intend anything evil any more for even a second, not one Mara, not two, also not five or more of them, and there be many - because any evil you'd want, it must become real when you've the light in you, and if you can't prevent it, this evil would quench your light and the enlightenment is not forever, even before it could be reinforced to destroy all that could prevent it.

Okay, now this is the story, so what's the lesson in it? I am reminded of the Bible, as a firm believer in Jesus Christ, that true knowledge, the truth about the Spirit, does not need any works of or obedience towards man. Be slave of God not of man is written in 1 Cor 7:21-23. This is because man always wants evil in the end, but God only wants good from us - he does not work for his agenda, but his agenda is our happiness. Yes, our happiness, even as we're all evil cowards and kill each other, he still works, so that as many of us as possible may be happy one day, nonetheless. So within this spirit, what is the enlightenment really worth, how would one truly gain it, eternally, forever? For you see that life is light, and eternal life, means being in the light, in the truth, forever. It means we go to Nirvana to live blissful for all times, no longer subject to the sufferings which come from practiced evil. Where we go then, there is no more practiced evil, only the knowledge thereof and how to prevent, overcome, destroy it, how to release people from it, how to cleanse anything it touched so it would not have to perish from it, but could stay...forever. Because goodness is life, it will lead to things existing on and on, but evil is destruction, evil is death, evil is not eternal but the opposite, evil means impermanence.

I believe realizing this, means realizing that egoism is evil. When you commit any egoistic deed for yourself, then you potentially deny the rights of something which is also worthy, which you destroy for gaining something else for you instead. By denying the rights of others to gain this "good" for you, you create destruction, you create evil, you lose your eternal light, even when you wanted good - because you wanted to buy this good with evil, with destruction, instead of giving God the proper price for it. What would be the price? Do unto others, as you would want to receive to yourself (Mat 7:12). You must do good, instead of evil, instead of egoistic deeds, you must bring light, life to other people...then you can gain the same. And this time it isn't impermanent, it won't drag you down. Instead the Book of Iob (Iob 42:10) and the Parable of the Talents (Mat.25:14-30) tell us, that God gives us back what we gain or lose in righteousness...two times, which basically means, for believing in his righteousness he will even put on top of what you righteously earned.

So this all comes back for me to a mysterious saying which Jesus made (Mark 8:35):

&gt; For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me and for the gospel will save it.

So what does this mean? That you have to die to serve Jesus, and who does not want to die, must die on top of it, but who wants to die, will live? This makes little sense, but I believe there is a way deep figurative logic in this: Those who "want to save their lives", are those, who want to preserve their riches, unrighteous gains, what they've taken from others, gained from oppression and unrighteous deeds, they want their unjust gains continued and still see the light - like they took to others without giving back and making good, it will still be taken from them. But whoever does what Jesus says, who lives for this righteousness, not only for themselves, but also for Jesus so also for all other disciples and all people of the world, being the salt of the world which means preserving it, sharing what they have, living this Gospel of doing to others only as you would want to receive on your own - such a person will save their lives not intending it, and I say, not only theirs... They save it by saving others' lives, they save it by bringing mercy to others and doing good. They save it by even instructing others to do the same, by becoming seeds of truth and mercy for others to bear such seeds, as well - to resist this egoism which leads to impermanent things, and to accept the Gospel of love of the neighbor instead (Mat 22:34-40), the Gospel of turning the other cheek to be slapped with an open door for talk and walk that extra mile instead, when provoked for a fight by slapping the first (Mat 5:38-48), the Gospel of striving to bring mercy instead of accusing (Mat 7:1-2, John 3:17), but also the Gospel of not keeping quiet about injustice, but to speak it out wherever it hurts so much that it hurts to even talk about the things done (Eph.5:11+12).

This is a Gospel, it can make you lose your life, just as predicted. It's because others will reject it out of fear and loss and can feel threatened by it, even as you mean to do good by telling the truth to them! This way, also Jesus died. The Gospel can also make you lose your life, not necessarily in the form of physical death brought to you, but in the form of you having to bear hardship over the different way you must go in this world, a way that many reject. This is for us to be reborn (John 3:1-8), in a spiritual and sometimes in a literal way, we must let everything in us which is against this justice, this righteousness, this mercy...we must let all egoism in us die forever, for us to be born again fully able of the mercy which can stay forever. Instead of working for yourself only out of greed, or giving yourself up into the hands of evil out of fear, you must resist such evil, you must free yourself and others for it to work! This can make you lose chances, this can also make you enemies...for anyone whom you help from oppression, there is also an oppressor who loses their unrighteous gains. They will be impermanent for their injustice, but they will want to take from you as you've taken from them - they understand half the Gospel from heart, like all humans. But most do not know or are not able to accept, where it's their own fault - they can't know where it's injustice to persecute somebody who is righteous. So as it taken from them where they lost or have desires, and they will try to take from the light. They will try to take the light of those who want to be sincere. This is what actually makes our world so bad in the end, because for every person who wanted to sincerely help humanity, and who was oppressed instead and the works prevented, all of those who accepted the benefit from it and possibly also all the world would be cursed from it. Where we take out of injustice, this God must also take from us. Like this he has given Jesus to us, and prevented some of us taking him from all others. But those who tried to take him, they were taken for sure, they cannot get back, Jesus blessing was too high they cannot be forgiven for it, and it's really sad. That's the bitter part about this Gospel, that some reject and will even fight it, can you imagine, they want to fight and prevent people giving rights and justice to each other and ending oppressing and freeing and feeding and clothing and housing and medicating and educating all of us as demanded in Isaiah 58 - instead it is prevented countless times every day, and you can imagine, how much death and evil must come to the people, who cause so much death and evil with such crimes. This is also something hard about this Gospel to accept - those who reject it, will not be saved by it, but they will perish from their attempts to spoil it for others, as well! Only those who repent and admit their faults and debt and guilt and are willing to open it all up and make good can be forgiven. But God came not to judge, but to save people - still his law will judge people, as it is necessary to prevent our all destruction (John 12:44-50)

Jesus promise, God's promise is, God will not let your light be quenched if you want his mercy over the egoism of the world and the devils, he will forever remember anyone who sincerely seeks him and give them light and life and a place to live and grow on. Some say, this blessing will last forever, the place will never be swept of us unless we fall like the Satan and declare mercy as weakness and demand weaker to be bent by the strength of the stronger ones as justice. I was told, in Revelation 12, that this Satan lost his whole holy place for it, his whole eternal light, for trying to quench a light which was thought to shine even as it was small, just to bring so much darkness to anyone who was waiting for it. Now this Satan, wanted to gain his life and power and his own will and his own laws, and he lost it all already, his death is already proclaimed for he was and will be not willing to repent or forgive. Now he's responsible of all of us, being damned to this place of correction and justification with us. Will he allow others to take from him, what he has taken before, to be reconciled with the world, or will he also have to lose his life, as he wanted to preserve it on cost of others for too long?

Okay, now this teaching is simple, eternal life comes from what is good, and egoism is what drives people into denying goodness in the most radical and fundamental way. So paramount to enlightenment, aside from the courage to never let your be taken from fear or subjected to threats, is also to overcome this egoism completely, to overcome the ego which prevents eternal life by bringing pain and ultimately death, all by it's egoism it infects you with by desires. Once you see, that all it's wishes, desires, judgements, aspirations, resentments, anger, hatred, painfulness, sorrow, are all deceptive, like a little speech bubble in a cartoon put to your head to claim you're eager of this or reject that or give this and that value to people and things... just CUT off these speech bubbles, CUT off the egoistic thoughts, wait for those which are just and sincere and righteous instead, follow them into the light. It's really that simple, do away the egoism, and you may find, there's something much greater and brighter and smoother and nicer behind that layer, it's actually compassion, but...it's not so loud as the egoism, you need to defend your compassion against you ego to win. You need to step in for a weaker person inside your heart, for your own love, against this evil ego. Who will win, must in the end declare the outcome by proving it, be it life or death.

Last word of warning, egoism is also fear, it is also wanting too much good, is is being too eager, too zealous, all of this makes you deny your own rights and that of others once again. Balance is the key. To love the neighbor as yourself, means loving yourself, as well. And not too much! Admit, that you want to be free, unfettered, have a clear conscience, make peace with the past and present and aspirations of future. Admit, that you don't deserve injustice or oppression, admit that you don't deserved being pushed down and silenced about your feelings, dreams, insights, knowledge. Admit all this to you, then try to admit the same to others, as well. Admit, you all have the right to be free of oppression and judgement - and don't judge others, just work for anything that lets pain be resolved. Sometimes...there needs to be evil exposed, don't hold it back, but it's necessary rather so that it can be stopped and forgiven, not so that it must be judged. God is the final judge, and he will also judge our judgements, so take heed and learn the value of mercy and the demerit of wrath. Because both count the highest in his eyes, each to their own direction - the mercy into the blessings of light and eternal life, the wrath into the hellfire where it may destroy and be destroyed by itself. This is the eternal law I believe in, and Jesus was who truly brought the knowledge of it to a world where it had been hidden, explained it in clear terms and set it up and started making it visible and accessible for anyone.

TL;DR so what does this mean for enlightenment? That you cannot enforce it! Who wants to gain enlightenment, must lose it. Who does not want it, will be imparted of it. How and why? Well...who desires the enlightenment for their strength, their supremacy, for being stronger, more famous and accepted, wiser, more powerful than others, for being able to gain more joy and not suffer for it any more...those who do that and do not wish the same to all others and also work for that, they waste their enlightenment. With any injustice they cause with their will, with all imposition, every curse or unjust prayer, every discrimination, every time they selfishly preach others the untruth to gain anything, part of their life, of their light is lost, until they are dark and bland like even no unenlightened human is ever born. But the one, who wants it not for themselves, but who uses it for the better of people instead, following the urges of God, not looking for their own benefit in it, but following their conscience at all times: even when they never wanted to be enlightened, if they do all right, they will be the first whom God will accept and give all of his eternal light. He will not give it to those who seek it for themselves and their own glory, but to those whom he believes would use it in the best way for humanity. He does not let others compete about it, for then he'd need to take it from all who gained it that way - they wanted to gain it by making others lose, so they must in the end also lose it again. Instead he will give it freely to those who share it, who don't want to keep it secret to themselves. This is justice, in this way I believe God, unlike the devils who practice such crimes, does enlighten people in a righteous way. As written in John 12:24, Jesus explained his death like a seed fallen to the ground. It'd need to "die", to germinate and grow first, before it could make many other seeds. Jesus needed to open up the truth and tell all the world, so all could know this Gospel of mercy. If he had kept it secret, he would have died alone, knowing it all, knowing he failed. Instead he proclaimed the coming of the Son of Man, and was rewarded by the highest number of children you could imagine, who will all live and serve for him eternally.

So how and why do I relate to this myself, why do I think I need to preach this? I do so, because I also never wanted to get enlightened, but I was imparted of insight and everything nonetheless. I never wanted to accept it, but it was forced on me, and it made me righteous, even when that probably wasn't ever planned - because I resisted all temptations and never accepted it, but only wanted to dedicate my life to doing good works at all times, not accepting any promise from anyone other than God himself. And he gave me only my life and my freedom, so that's only all I accept. When I was 18, I just felt overburdened by stress of the world, by the destructive ways of people who wanted to involve me in their schemes against my will, I sought peace in mediation. It made me see through my thoughts are illusory right away, triggering stream entry after only a short while of daily training with my own self-explored methods. Not being a greatly egoistic person, but one who believed in righteousness, I didn't want the enlightenment, at all, but rejected it - and still got it for having a sincere heart and admitting the truth about my thoughts an experience to myself and others when I was presented them, at all times. All the years after I started suffering heavily from it all, the devil quickly tried to snatch and prevent and silence me. But all the years, even when I didn't know, never wanted this light or power or knowledge, all the sparks of light I had given - I could only love them and make grow on. Because they were all righteous and I knew. I never wanted the light, I wanted to lose it over and over again, giving it to others as I thought they needed and are as needy and worthy of it as I am. So I was given this light in the end, as the only one to fully understand and keep it. I never was eager to attain any deeper insight into the Gospel, the nature of life, I never wanted to be great or achieve anything in this regard, other than fulfilling my duty over the responsibility over the humanity I was born to, as their son so I was raised by them and need to give back, to give back what I had been given - preferably more, so this world could succeed from my footprints and not suffer from them. So that eternal peace may succeed, and there be no suffering in the heavens. Within this spirit, I rejected all higher insights, I was given God's insight for free for it, as I passed all my knowledge on for free and kept no secrets. I rejected all magic, all powers, I was given power, to protect myself from it and resist indefinitely without having to respect the rules I was shown at first, with God even in the end teaching me how it is done so I can work out to eradicate all evil power in me more effectively to make others reject and destroy their dangerous magical powers, as well, to release them from the curses they impose. I rejected being in communion with those of the darkness, I fully rejected accepting or even respecting their cruel laws and rules, and was smitten by them in the Spirit over and over again. For not wanting the community of devils, I am now given the community of angels instead, and I must say, they leave me free and only do joy to me, they are the best company one could get or learn from, they already are all...enlightened. Even when I'd rather stay all alone as an autistic person, it's a highest reward to have seen these noble spirits, even daily care of a lowly freak like me, defending, entertaining and soothing me, even sharing my life and their wisdom about it...just because of that little love in my heart which I never wanted to give up. And because I was ready, to not want to keep even the most secret thought of myself secret from them, they may share all my life and they enjoy, they told me that sharing my life and gaining the wisdom from it...is part of the reward they get for trusting me and trying to defend me, and that it's more than enough, as long as I keep taking care and not put them to shame by acting against this eternal gospel, hating a neighbor like I shouldn't...

Even as I was smitten in the Spirit, with something entering my mind and trying to suppress and threaten and control me with force, even as I deny all violence God still has given me the power to smite my invisible enemies and to take and destroy their weapons and dismantle their lies and deceptions, just so I can say that I will never need it again once these evils are gone for good. This God now gave me the courage, I asked him, I asked him to rather make me lose my life than give it to the enemies of goodness, than giving me to the control of man or devils. I'd sincerely rather die than having to serve those who oppressed me for decades, so I asked him now to bring judgement over me and those incessantly accusing me of lies in my mind, so he would either make me or them die in a just judgement - they are constantly demanding my life, and I am not willing to give in to oppression or bear the constant torture which I am subjected to throughout my whole life. I called on God, because their judgement had no end in their injustice, they didn't even want to let me know the charges even when there clearly were some. For them not being responsible and not ending my suffering when they should. I now asked God many times to either directly kill me or them for it, so that the torment and unjust pain should not continue as I am not willing to bear it for longer. I believe this is the only way for such a judgement that you may ask God for a death, that you put your own life into his hands and say, sorry God, I'm not willing to bear this any longer, and you now either do away what cripples my heart or do me away completely, I would rather no longer be your son and die forever than having to bear this injustice longer for you or than having to go to the devils and serve them against you.

So I now for real called God to bring the final judgement and either kill me and give all I had to my wife, in case I lied and the accusations against me were righteous and a proper justice in any way, or to just let those who oppress and threaten and torment me in my mind and who refuse to even confront me about it or be responsible in any way, may simply die from their unrighteous works instead of me. This way, I am ready to rather lose my life for righteousness, than gain it for any victory or to tolerate the false victory of evil over me any longer. So if you're with me, please also pray that this judgement may be made real and my life long torment ended. Pray that either I or those who wrongly accuse me may finally die so my spiritual pains will be ended, and finally justice can be, because what is since more than 25 years now must be ended, it is for long and already a big shame for God. I don't want this shame, I give it back to God. I want the ones, who caused it, now to go for it, it's not my shame. If God claims it still is, then he shall take me away, then I am opposed to his justice because I believe it is not my own shame but I am a victim, then I'd rather die than serve such an evil God who does not believe in true justice and mercy. But I would rather want to live, so I can do the works I was appointed for and so I can teach the truth which needs to be shared, to gain many seeds and not just stay a single in the hidden. I believe in it, even if this God makes me die, it would be just, and if he makes those die who tormented me to free me, it would maybe be just but also a big disgrace, although a much smaller one than the constant spiritual chicanes I living in since decades nonstop. My oppressors being killed, would also mean I lost, but then at least I'd know, that this God has decided for the blessings I want to give to billions instead of the imposition of those who want to choke me down spiritually and let me seem like an insane liar for stealing the blessings from me. I do not know who spiritually attacked me all these years and why, and I also want it to be opened up to the public, no matter if I am found guilty or them. Because I believe in secrets mean death and truth is life.

I still know what I always lived and died and would and will still die for - the blessings that make life in this world possible, and that human life can be free, safe, innocent and protected from all oppression. Let's all work for enlightenment not for ourselves, but for the future of humanity. I believe the God who can grant it for free, for good, will only give to those who sincerely want that. Even if you don't make it, but that's what eternity, forever means - you must be good, else you mess it all up up there. Let's all practice the self-control and mercy necessary for it - may humanity be eternalized and live forever. For this, many of us need to rather want to die than commit evil or stay silent about it. Let's start spreading the seeds for it!