She's my friend let's clear that up. I see her as a mother figure since I think this is a traditional case of "mommy issues". But I feel like I cant ever say no to her. I like cuddling with her it makes me feel safe.
Specifically one who is kind and nurturing.
I feel like I will never be normal or live a happy life with healthy relationships. Ill only ever be an afterthought or burden to my loved ones since they have partners and kids and since I dont I spend too much time alone with my thoughts. I wish euthanasia was legal for mental illness like it is in the Netherlands. The crisis worker flat out said she was hanging up since I wasn't wanting to try coping skills because you cant coping skills your way out of isolation. At this point im 36 never been romantic with anyone and its too late to start.
Why not let me die and let someone with a middle class income that could benefit from antidepressants have them? I have no worth to society or anyone in it. I wake every morning wishing I hadn't
I should swipe right match and get a date set up and few months later kiss! After a year or 2 feel intimacy! Its like how is it my fault I have unrealistic expectations am needy and want someone to cuddle and watch tv with? People can be so selfish only wanting someone who makes more than 40 grand. I cant go out and talk to women that's illegal now