Hopefully they took notes after the last game.
Made some changes here and there.
It's the second game of the season, let's remember. It's still early.
And ...let's not crash out 🫠
GKG!
Second day of me missing work because well I over did it once again with a gnarly binge / bender.
I've been awake since 12am (its currently 7am now) tossing and turning and going through the withdrawals. As I tried to sleep, I kept thinking how the hell will i make it to work. I am a shaky mess, anxiety ridden, and puking bile. The idea of getting behind the wheel and drive 12miles to work seemed like an impossible task. So made the decision to stay home (pretty sure I will be written up for missing work) and use the day to recover somehow
Anyways, as I lay here in bed I wonder how many people are going to work feeling like absolute hell. I am sure there's more of a hand full of people currently driving to work in mid withdrawals or so i think.
I do remember once driving to work and being bumper to bumper traffic the car next to me had a person driving while actively chugging a tall can. I can only assume either they were trying to hold off the Withdrawals or they simply were drinking and driving (which let's not do ok people)
Anyways... not sure what's the purpose of this post was but I guess I was just looking for a distraction from my misery.
This is my nightmare.
Feeling exhausted, tired, anxious, etc and can’t even catch a good hour of sleep.
My eyes burn of how tired I am. I have a headache.
How do yall manage sleep because am dying right now…
Idk if am spelling it correctly but I just saw a post on this another subreddit and it sparked my curiosity.
I am not seeking medical advice, am just genuinely curious how one gets this?
I am a bit of a hypochondriac, and I easily scare myself with medical diagnosis lol so when I read this on a post I immediately tried to research it but I still don’t get it.
I guess part of me is scared because am currently in withdrawals so my anxiety is on edge as it is. Plus I figured it’s good to know the symptoms just in case..
Any experiences with this?
Obviously anyone in their right mind wouldn’t recommend CT to us Addicts, but sometimes you just have to raw dog it and go Cold Turkey.
I am coming off a short bender this time around, so I figured CT wouldn’t be that bad… I was wrong lol
Today has been brutal and I haven’t even reached 12hrs yet. Currently fighting the urge to puke, while also trying to drown myself in water because well I feel a UTI coming long on top of this shit.
Not fun by any means.
Anyways… if anyone is down to chat for a few hours I’ll be here. I need distractions.
Currently have Kill Bill (the extended version) playing in the background to have some type of white noise.
I can’t taper worth a damn so drinking is out of the picture completely lol plus my body is physically rejecting any type of alcohol too
Just looking to past the time and distract myself from the misery of hell right now.
I will say I am very grateful to the ER doctor I met earlier this year who gave me a short script of Librium. I’ve been guarding those puppies with my life since and only use them as case of emergency type of situation. These scripts aren’t easy to get anymore where am located, so when he prescribe them to me, it was like I struck gold.
Anyways day 2 of ending a bad bender. Been up for about 24hrs and can’t catch even 5mins of sleep to save my life.
Was on a verge of having a panic attack because I began to experience the dreaded auditory hallucinations. And seeing shit flying around my room that weren’t there.
Knew it was benzo time. I usually ride it out cold turkey and tough it out but this time I couldn’t. Seeing shit that’s not there was what sealed my coffin and took the Librium.
Hoping it kicks in soon to at least get an hour of sleep. Even 30mins of sleep would be a god send at this time.
Anyways if any of yall have about an hour of your time to spare with me for a few short chat I would appreciate it you deeply.
It’s fucken 5am right now and nobody is awake near by, I just need some distraction. Till this benzo kicks in. It should start working according to my calculations in about 30mins to an hour or so. lol
Well thanks for reading.
We can chat about anything honestly
I’ve been trying to find any information about this and I can’t seem to find nothing on it.
Am on day 2 of quitting my bender, and I was perfectly fine all day besides the discomfort of the withdrawals. It’s past midnight now where I am located and my itchy skin didn’t start itching till maybe an hour ago.
Now I can’t sleep because well my legs are extremely itchy and clearly won’t allow me to go sleep.
Not looking for medical advice at all, I am just curious if it’s just me or others.
My last withdrawals I also had itchy legs, this time around I got it again. It’s beyond fucking annoying. … all I want is to go to bed comfortably already but I can’t stop the itching lol
Anyone down to chat?
Am currently going through withdrawals after almost a week bender.
Feeling pretty low.
If you read my previous post, I quit my job during a black out. Am still going through the shock of it all and coming to a realization that I indeed make stupid ass decisions under the influence of booze.
Anyways looking to chat with people about anything.
I need some distraction to pass the god awful time. Am tired of staring at the clock tick by so slowly. I just want the time to go by quickly so I can fast forward these withdrawals.
If you’re drinking, chairs! Pour one out for me.
Yeah the lowest of the Lowe’s right now.
My partner doesn’t know or my family. To their knowledge I called in sick.
If being a piece of shit had a picture in the dictionary, I would be front and center.
Why did I quit may you ask? I was blacked out drunk, and I knew this time around my job wouldn’t be as forgiving.
How do I know? Because two weeks ago I called in sick for the same reason. Then two weeks before did the same thing. Been doing it for the last 4 months. Calling “in sick” every two weeks.
My last time my boss pulled me into the office to gently let me know that my attendance was shit. I was no longer becoming reliable. Told me to consider my position with the company and if I couldn’t get my shit straight I might as well leave (she didn’t use those exact words but you get the idea)
Anyways..: I know lying isn’t the best. I am not proud of that. Eventually I’ll need to come clean.
In conclusion… I am feeling pretty down right now. Could use a friend to talk. I am in peak withdrawals and need the distraction from my thoughts
Thanks for reading
Update on my shenanigans that I created due to my own devices.
Well not really an update either but more of answering a question I’ve been asking in this post.
Can’t you get your job back?
Simply no. They already issued my last check which pretty much whatever vacation hours I had left which weren’t much cause I used them when I missed worked. They also removed me from the system of clocking in and out. We the app on the phone and I am no longer on the employee list.
My own conclusion, it was either me quitting or getting fired. And by the looks of things they were already considering me letting me go. Probably should have waited to be fired, this way I could unemployment in the meantime till I land something. Didn’t think it through, but then again what drunk thinks it through rationally. Clearly my impulsive thinking got me in this mess.
Spending all day tomorrow applying for work. Wish me luck. Am gonna need it.
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Out of all the stupid shit I’ve done in my life… this has to be the dumbest shit I’ve done.
I woke up to emails saying “thank you” “ we will miss you” “please return your items”
Had to check my emails to see what the fuck happen.
Turns out…. In my drunkness I sent an email to HR and my boss (well now ex boss) that I wasn’t retuning because I had to take care of a family member. Little did they know I was hammered. Blacked out actually because I have no recollection of even sending that email lol
And no. I don’t have FMLA. I didn’t qualify for it as I hadn’t been with the job for more than a year.
Well now am fucked … financially.
I am in the US … California to be exact and this job market sucks ass. I’ll be lucky if I can land something before Christmas.
Anyways… currently in withdrawal fucken hell too.
Chairs
Hello,
As many of you, I am currently job hunting.
I do have a current job, but it’s not where I want to be, but I am here because well it pays the bills of course.
Anyways, I just recently interviewed for a position/job that I really really wanted. It align perfectly with the goals that I have, and I could see a future. However, I got the call that they were moving forward with a different applicant (congrats to them of course!). I asked for feedback and was told it all came down to the resume.
Experience wise, I had what it takes and possibly even more than the person they were going with, but it all came down to the difference in resume. They told me to revise it, work on it more, etc.
Now, I’ve been using the same resume template for years. I of course edit and adjust accordingly. However, I will say mines is very “basic” no graphics or colors, just plain and simple, and to the point of my skills and experience, etc.
So now am sitting wondering… do I need to make it more “flashy”? “‘More colors?” How do I make it stand out?
I googled a few examples and templates to kinda give me an idea but some are just too “busy” I guess and some are even more plain than mines is lol
So I guess I am asking for advice … ideas… suggestions.
Thanks all for reading and looking forward to some suggestions :)
Well yesterday was a major fail with tapering off my current bender. I thought I could do it but failed miserably.
Anyways was able to go to sleep for about 3hrs then I woke up with “the fear” the anxiety and heart palpitations. Since then I’ve been tossing and turning in the dark while my partner soundly sleeps.
I know this isn’t a sobriety sub but I’ve grown to love you guys and this sub, as a fellow degenerate..
Anyways.. might get fired from my job soon because well I missed three days already due to my recent bender again.
(If you see my history you’ll notice a pattern of my addiction and the multitude of jobs I’ve lost due to my alcohol abuse lol) you would think I would my lesson but nope
Anyways.. if anyone is up for chatting am here. Looking to distract myself while I suffer through these withdrawals cold turkey
Just ate some instant ramen because I needed something in my stomach.
Will say it didn’t go down gently.
Anyways … going to drink my electrolytes by following it up with some shots.
Hoping to fall asleep soon.
Anyways chairs 🪑
I think am getting to a point in my life where Rehab is going to be the answer however I can’t afford it.
The places my insurance will cover has a wait list longer than a CVS receipt. Plus they aren’t exactly great either.
My job doesn’t know about my drinking problem and I wouldn’t want them to know either.
How did you guys afford Rehab? How did you manage paying your bills if you weren’t working?
I don’t have a savings at all because well am a drunk and blew through the only savings I had on booze. I can’t ask anyone to let me borrow money because am too embarrassed to ask for help financially
All I know that if I want to quit this addiction… rehab seems to be my only answer for now. I can’t do it alone .. god knows I’ve tried multiple times
Any tips would help. I am getting desperate at this point
Well I gotta get off this bender ride.
Tried to go cold turkey but my anxiety is saying otherwise.
So I place an order for tequila with some ginger ale and electrolytes. Figured I can make the landing a little softer.
Wish me luck.
I screwed up royally.
I’ve been given multiple ultimatums, and of course I always ruin it.
I relapsed again and although I only drank for two days, I did a shit ton of damage in those two days, that my partner had enough of my shit. I said some shit that I don’t even remember saying at all but it hurt my partners feelings that enough was enough.
I missed work once again (total of 10 days already that I have called off work in the last almost 3 months, that frankly I wouldn’t be surprise if I have a dismissal letter when I return)
Anyways… my partner told me to start looking for a new place. Frankly I can’t afford a place on my own, so my only option is going to live in my car. The only friend I have already has someone couch surfing indefinitely (dude is going through a divorce that took a lot from him) so that’s a no go. My parents are extreme hoarders so there’s no room for me there either … so living in my car is the only option for now unfortunately.
Anyways… wanted to ask you fellow DryAlcoholics for any suggestions or advice if you have any. If you experience homelessness how did you manage? Any tips?
My short term goal for now is to find a safe place to park so that I can sleep. Restrooms and shower, I will manage with a cheap gym membership. If money allows it I might rent a hotel room for a few days from time to time. Long term goal, is to hopefully get my own place down the road, which in this economy I know it’s going to be a hard time.
I guess going through this shit will finally get me to be sober because I know damn well money is going to be extremely tight now moving forward… especially if I end up losing my job while am at it
Anyways.. thanks for reading
I’ll try to keep this short.
I royally screwed up.
I struggle with alcoholism, and been working on my sobriety (addiction sucks and it’s hard) but I unfortunately relapse and said some things I don’t remember at all and missed work because I was too drunk to function at all. Anyways, I finally broke the camels back and been told I need to start looking for my own place asap.
Sad part is that I can’t afford a place of my own. The housing crisis is so bad and of course Los Angeles ain’t a cheap city. My only option is to live in my car.
I don’t really have friends to couch surf for a while, and the only friend I could think off, he’s already lending his couch to someone else that is going through some nasty divorce, so that’s out of the picture. My parents are hoarders so there’s no room for me there either…
I’ve read here that 211 is a good resource but was wondering if anyone has any advice or suggestions or just anything to make this “transition” a little less painful I guess.
I did find some a website that offers locations/shelters but they’re all mostly located near Skid Row and for me that’s a scary part of town. I google some safe parking locations as well but none are near me or my job, and many of these places get full quickly.
I guess my point is … if you have any suggestions, advice, etc I would appreciate it