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HII I LOVE TMA I LIVE BREATHE AND EAT AND SLEEP TMA I LOVE THEM SO MUCH- okay so I like Tma a lot i tried to get into Tmg (?) The Magnus archives protocol and lowkey the characters are boring it’s easy for me to forget them and lowkey I had to drop it because Everytime I heard Martin or Jon‘s voice from the computers I want to just sob my eyes out because WHAT DO YOU MEAN- anyways lowkey anyone please give me ANYTHING for me to keep going. Mr Bonzo is okay but he’s competing with LITERALLY MICHEAL SHELLY KNIFE HANDS MCGEE. and my weeks of listing to TMA. so I dont think they’re wining that much </3 maybe I should keep givin it a try but lowkey sam and Celia are not winning against Jon and Martin. everyone else is fun but I feel.. to grown to love Tm and Sasha more then everyone else but idk I’m only at like Ep 10

(PS DONT KILL ME!! THIS IS ONLY MY OPINION I DO NOT WANT TO SLANDER ANYONES FAVORITE CHARACTER PLEASE DONT BURN ME ON A STAKE I MIGHT CHANGE BECAUSE I FELT LIKE THEI WHEN LISTING TO TMA SO DONT BURN ME PLEASEEEE)

so this is South Korea I’m in the classroom with my group of friends and my friend of 7 years let’s call her Z and she has been being distant with me and Idgaf because she’s kinda toxic.

so at school my teacher showed us the World Cup of South Korea against South Africa, I was laughing with my friends because I’m half Korean and half Malagasy (a small island near Africa not the movie) so i laughed that I was split and my friends laughed along with me.

when South Africa won of course I felt really happy because a African country was winning so it was getting recognition and it felt like my country was also getting Recognition for being more then a poor country

i was cheering and I looked happy but I wasn’t “oh Africa is so much better then Korea Lol!” I just went “I’m glad Africa won, it’s a shame kora lost but I think it was player ## fault” so I only mentioned Africa three times when talking to my friends about it the football game

but then a girl that was friends with Z last year said “Oh my god [my name] is so happy That South Korea lost!” And then everyone (only the girls in my class idk why but it still hurts.) turned to me and then berated me about how I should be sad because I’m “Korean”

When you read this story it might sound like nothing important right? But ever since I moved to Korea for better education and a better life I’ve been told “you’re not Korean!” to my face every day of my life. I have Korean citizenship, I have a Korean passport but I’ve been told I’m not Korean. so as soon as I support my not Korean blood they start to say “don’t do that you’re Korean” it’s hypocritical and my bestfriend of 7 years, Z, She was the one who lead everyone to hate me for the next month. I didn’t whine and I didn’t cry I didn’t want to give them a reaction. I’m too tired.

the only friends I had where My friend group who where a Korean girl and a Vietnamese girl, They didn’t care That I was happy South Africa won. my viet friend was bullied in Korea so she supported South Africa and my South Korean friend didn’t take the game seriously so she didn’t care and I’ve been friends with them for 2 years now. It hurts that a friend of 7 years left me just because of a stupid game.

Time skip. It’s been three months since the World Cup incident and I’m ignoring Z and her popular girl group and suddenly shes trying to warm up to me But I don’t look at her the same way. I know how she works. She gets close then when she thinks she’s close enough she hurts me and she tries to get close to me again And it’s a cycle. So now I’m ignoring her, I’m blocking her and last time when I cut her off from my life I did It very dramatically with anger and spite but now I’m to tired to do that. I cut her off quietly And slowly. I never liked how she would bully my Korean friend just because she was bored.

im glad I left her pathetic ass. I’m to tired to talk to her because I’ve been through enough. next year I get to middle school anyways. I hope I never see her again.

Hi I’m 13 F and you can call me OP or M, ever since I have like 9 I had a feeling that I might Have ADHD and most of that is because my parents often told me to be quiet even though it felt like I was matching their energy, most of the time I talk to much to the point that people feel uncomfortable, I over think relationships with parents, teachers, friends ect and unless I get harsh humiliation I cannot learn anything because my brain Refuses to comply, I love music but hate it when it’s too loud or too annoying or I can’t control it, I have Acne scars on my nose because I popped my pimples, I tried cafine Twice but nothing changed and I only got sleepier, I Painted my pencil case last night because I was bored and it was midnight, every one of my teachers have told me I’m “creative”. my brain is cluttered and Ive been thinking about making this post five days ago and I find it hard to take a shower or eat properly and I’ve had depressive episodes a lot.

at first I thought I had a little ADHD but one day I was with a friend and let’s call her G and me and her where bestfriends and we just clicked and I was so confident we were never leaving each other and I often thought that me and her are twins mentally and physically and one day she told me she was diagnosed with slight ADHD as a kid so then I’m confused.

and at this point i think i somehow manipulated my own brain to make my brain act like a brain a ADHD person has and- it’s just been stress full and i get overwhelmed and angry easily over loud noises and just feelings on my skin.

i asked my parents and they told me I’m just “faking it” and that I’m “perfectly normal” and my school counselor told me that I don’t have ADHD from having classes with me and my homeroom teacher also said no I don’t have it but I often fidget and whenever I have my afterschool Dance classes I can’t memorize it unless it has simple choreography or a good beat.

crying cuz Im on my period and I bleed my favorite white pajama pants after only THREE HOURS and now I have to wear uncomfortable tacky pink shorts to bed. and I’m crying. :((

my random op on Religion is,

you cannot become Truly religious by being forced by other people by it or because someone told you to, to be truly religious and believe in the god your religion believes you have to come to it by your own terms, my growth and actually accepting yourself first and joking the religion later, when I became Muslim I was influenced that if I wasn’t muslim I’d never be accepted in my family and it broke my faith and mental health to the point I felt like trash but when I truly started to accept myself as who I am I just changed like that :) so that’s why you should accept yourself first before joining a religion!!

second part of it- DO NOT TRY TO CONVERT ANYONE!!! If you think they’re doing something bad get them to therapy!! Converting might cause more damage then good :(( pleas just print them to therapy or get them professional help -_- —^0 (thumbs up!)

idk ask me anything about me that you want to know and I’ll answer 😀

Chat I think I have an enemies to lovers(??) will they won’t they toxic on and off crazy roller coaster what the fuck even is this shiet situation-ship with my bully that I fuckin hate?????? but also not hate that much????? but I also want to beat him up with a chair and throw him out a window????????? help from 1 to “oh shit seek help” how cooked am I?

the trenches :33

martin: Jon.. I’m scared..

Jon: That’s the Idea.

tape recorder

Martin: SHIT SHIT SHITHSITSHJTTT

jon: MARTIN STAY WITH ME-