u/NJmade2001

I’ve had a rough life. I grew up particularly poor, and with narcissistic parents to boot, who, and what i’ve become, is of no surprise.

I’ve been fascinated by the wilderness for as long as I can remember. The scenic beauty. The calming serenity. Having grown up in rural Appalachia, a great chunk of my life has been spent outdoors. It is my home. It’s where I belong.

During my adolescent years I often found myself being drawn to the wilderness. It was a form of escape. It was the only time I felt in control of my own life, and by my late teens, I was an exceptionally skilled and seasoned outdoorsman.

As I grew older, I went hiking and camping as much as possible. I explored and mapped countless unmarked trails, I took a job in lumberjacking, and in spite of all the lingering trauma, all the fractures and scars my childhood had left, I was content.

It was my typical M.O, sitting by a fire, listening to the radio, deep in the appalachians. A constant throughout these trips was the lack of people. This can be attributed to the remote locations I tend to camp, but nonetheless, I was fully anticipating me being on my lonesome for the entire trip. As night began to fall, I turned off the radio and got up to relieve myself. That’s when I noticed it, the faint glow of a fire in a nearby campsite. Directly behind where I’d been sitting the past several hours. I could distinguish the glow as one emanating from a fire, but I couldn’t see or make out people. What really struck me as odd was that I never heard anything. Voices. Them approaching. Them setting up camp. I didn’t know what to think or do, but one thing was for certain, I had visitors.

After going about my business, I sat back down and tried not to think about it. Attempting to comprehend or make sense of the situation was pointless, they were here, and that’s the end of it. But eventually curiosity got the better of me, and as night was in full swing, I decided to go and investigate. I began to walk towards the camp. An almost casual stroll. That was until I got to within 100 yards, I began walking extremely slowly, until I reached and stopped at the edge of the clearing. Beyond the dying campfire was a tent, only I could see the outline of two people inside, due to a lantern or some kind of light source. It was at this moment, everything changed. My parents had degraded me, made me feel worthless, and stripped me of any control. My entire life, all i’ve ever wanted is control. These people, they were in my home, my playground. I watched them. I was aroused. A million scenarios ran through my head. I couldn’t tell you how long I sat there, but eventually, the light flickered off, indicating they were settling in for the night. I knew that I should leave. I knew that watching them should be as far as this goes. But it wasn’t enough. They needed to be aware of my presence. I wanted them to bend to my will.

I calmly approached the tent, perceptive of any sudden sounds or movement. I began stroking the tent with my hand. This went on for about a minute, until the light turned on, illuminating myself and the two hikers inside. They gasped and began flailing wildly inside of the tent. I was extremely turned on, and without even thinking about it, I grabbed a hold of the tent, shaking it violently. Two women jumped out of the tent, darting off into the trees. I chased after them. I can’t tell you how long I ran for, but when I stopped, the woods were quiet. Eerily quiet. I knew they’d likely sought hiding in foliage or behind a tree, so I sat where I was, waiting intently, listening for any sudden movement or footsteps. But there was nothing. Eventually, I had to come to terms with the fact that they’d gotten away. But in spite of that, I couldn’t be happier. I couldn’t even contain myself anymore. I unbuckled my pants and masturbated right there on the forest floor. They’re now scarred the way i’ve been scarred. They left because of my power. I’d finally been in control of my own life, and the lives of others around me.

Notorious
So notorious
So notorious
They call me notorious for livin' it up
And not givin' a fuck
Like a lion in a land of sheep
Feel my teeth as they sink in deep
They say I'm a rebel soul
Bad to the bone, always ready to go
Everybody wants to wear the crown
I keep linin' 'em up, I keep knockin' 'em down
Notorious
So notorious
I am exactly what they say I am
I stand for everything that they can't stand
I can't help it, I was born this way
But when I'm gone you'll remember my name
I am exactly who they say I am
Notorious
So notorious
I'm too fast, too furious
You're pushin' your luck and that's dangerous
I told you once so you better believe
You never met a motherfucker quite like me
Notorious
Notorious
I am exactly what they say I am
I stand for everything that they can't stand
I can't help it, I was born this way
But when I'm gone you'll remember my name
I am exactly who they say I am
Notorious
Notorious
Notorious
I am exactly what they say I am
So notorious
Notorious
I am exactly what they say I am
I stand for everything that they can't stand
I can't help it, I was born this way
But when I'm gone you'll remember my name
I am exactly who they say I am
Notorious
Notorious

Notorious
So notorious
So notorious
They call me notorious for livin' it up
And not givin' a fuck
Like a lion in a land of sheep
Feel my teeth as they sink in deep
They say I'm a rebel soul
Bad to the bone, always ready to go
Everybody wants to wear the crown
I keep linin' 'em up, I keep knockin' 'em down
Notorious
So notorious
I am exactly what they say I am
I stand for everything that they can't stand
I can't help it, I was born this way
But when I'm gone you'll remember my name
I am exactly who they say I am
Notorious
So notorious
I'm too fast, too furious
You're pushin' your luck and that's dangerous
I told you once so you better believe
You never met a motherfucker quite like me
Notorious
Notorious
I am exactly what they say I am
I stand for everything that they can't stand
I can't help it, I was born this way
But when I'm gone you'll remember my name
I am exactly who they say I am
Notorious
Notorious
Notorious
I am exactly what they say I am
So notorious
Notorious
I am exactly what they say I am
I stand for everything that they can't stand
I can't help it, I was born this way
But when I'm gone you'll remember my name
I am exactly who they say I am
Notorious
Notorious