Ind of subconsciously deluded myself over the years in believing that because i've had such an awful, traumatizing upbringing that eventually that my story will have a good ending. I still subconsciously believe it, but I know that i'm not special. I'm just one of the billions of people who've been traumatized, abused, etc. And billions of people like us die with no happy ending. I don't know why that's so hard for me to accept.
Im trying to remember this one YouTube that was HELLA popular in 2016 with that movie series. I think her account was called pinksparklesgirl13 or something?? Also who remembers jemass hole
I'll start: i went for grad bash in 2023 and rode velocicoaster for the first time ever, at night. at the time i was deathly afraid of coasters but a friend convinced me to go on and I ended up enjoying it more than he did :'). Hits different at night . After that we couldn't do anything else but kiddie & 3d rides cuz we were shaken up lol
Before I switch gym memberships I wanna know if its as sketchy as people say online.
It would hike up the prices but I would very much prefer that over paying 60 dollars for a top that won't last more than 20 washes.
Enough of the ugly cash grab graphic tees, enough of the thin, low quality cotton that's only used to only be able to have a tag that says "100% percent cotton, i just want quality over quantity. 💔
I'll start: Slavery. After that, missionaries. I'm not really sure what the appeal was to be honest 💀 I guess it was a mixture of forced conversions and wanting an alternative to African spiritual religions but it still kind of mind boggles me.
Was trying to find some hollister archives and ended up finding a rabbit hole of "hollister fetishists" taking unconsensual creepshots of ramdom women wearing hollsiter and American eagle jeans. Really odd. But if you post outfits on here, please be safe. :((
p.s. mods can we please get hive-protect in here.
I wanna leave so bad. I just hide in my room and avoid contact with him as much as possible. But then in the mornings I'm forced to because I have to leave for work. And I'm forced to say hi and good morning to him.
</3 just wanna know healthy ways to cope
Sigh... so much more personality.
ill never understand why brand websites went from themed to being bland
I would like to preface this by saying that i was abused sexually as a child by someone who supposed to be "a loved one." Around the same time, ironically, I was a huge michael jackson fan.
I think the most infuriating thing about people "defending" michael is that they end up ALWAYS discrediting victims as a whole.
Every argument they've popularized in defense of Michael might as well be used against other CSA victims, including myself.
There are a few things I'd like to clarify & bring awareness to using some of my own experiences.
1. Stockholm syndrome/trauma bonding is not as rare as people make it seem.
Most of us are all probably familiar with stockholm syndrome, where abuse victims side with, defend, and empathize with their abusers. And of course, people don't understand why anybody would side with or would want to be with someone who has harmed them.
An example I can give is Natascha Kampusch, who at the age of 10, was kidnapped and kept in captivity for 8 years. She escaped, and when she had learned that her captor had died, she cried. She kept a photo of her captor in her wallet. She lit a candle for him at his morgue.
Recently someone asked: why did wade want to get married at Neverland? Why did he make a tribute for Michael after he passed? Acknowledging that trauma bonding exists, but not buying into wades trauma response because its 'too extreme.'
No response to trauma can be measured. Nobody has any right to say "if i were in this situation, i wouldn't ____." And nobody has any right to write off anyones level of trauma bonding because its too extreme to understand.
Natascha didnt like the term stockholm syndrome to explain what she felt, and i agree with her. For most of my adolescence, my step sister and i were groomed and abused sexually by who was supposed to be my step father. We have an older sister that was abused verbally and physically. A friend at school was the reason why the police finally got involved after 10 years. When we told our older sister that the police was involved, she cursed us, screamed at us, and cried. 🤷🏾♀️ our entire family told us that we were evil for trying to put the man who "took care of us" in jail. And subconsciously, i believed them, and still do. I wont lie, i still empathize with him. At the end of the day, he did "take care of me," and my brain minimized what happened to me, to keep me sane i suppose.
2. Safechucks 'inconsistencies' with the train station.
I feel like this has been explained over and over again in this sub and respectfully, I'm tired of people bringing it up.
To bring my own personal experiences again, i have a very hard time recounting my abuse. My step sister who abused sexually alongside of me has reminded me of 90 percent of it. Before she came into the picture, it was just me and my abuser. My step sister was in a different country. So i can remember close to nothing from that time. Sometimes i get flash backs that i cant decipher whether or not if they're just dreams, and it sends me into a panic because i dont know if my brain is making stuff up.
I recently went through my moms archives of my childhood stuff she kept. Going through my report cards, photos I've never seen before, i was shocked at how much information i had was wrong, such as the time my step father came into my life. I thought i met him when i was 7, but i found photos of him at my 5th birthday. I remembered everybody at that party but him.
Everytime i see people use that excuse to deny safechuck his experience i really get upset honestly. It doesnt do a disservice to just Michaels victims, it disservices all of us. After 'me too' it seems like every piece of activism for sex abuse victims has disappeared. Nothing has moved passed arguing against "but what were you wearing." Anything deeper makes people panic.
It explains why epstein outrage came & went. People were more hyperfixated on taking down whatever politician they already didnt like. Which is why people care more to entertain epstein satan worshipping conspiracies than the issue at hand. Its all fake outrage IMO.
By sharing my story i hope i can clear up some things, i always appreciate the kind messages though. Thank you 🙂
Anytime somebody mentions a place thats a part of the greater orlando area theres a bunch of birds in the comments commenting another essay about how well akshually its not orlando. okay and?? Some of us live near the smaller cities. I remember when h mart opened everyone was making a fuss about how its Ocoee and not orlando. For some of us Ocoee is not that far away.
This is stupid but it pisses me off so bad. Orlando is not just whatever 10 mile radius you live in and thats okay 💀
For context, i live in orlando so ive been to universal a few times. One for gradbash (iykyk, i had sm fun) and recently with a friend group (i was bored out of my life for some reason?)
I wanna go for my birthday this year and i wanna have as much fun as possible my myself. Im used to getting tickets feom friends who work there and ive never bought my own, so im not really sure how to book if you get what i mean? All i know is what i wanna get a hotel and explore the park. If anyone could give me advice on maybe the best package to buy, rides to ride, hotel i should get maybe, and how to have fun alone i would appreciate. Thank you.