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Having depression and anxiety makes everything so much worse. I feel both depression to do anything but so anxious I’m doing nothing.

I look around my room and I get so upset. My room needs to be cleaned out. My entire room needs an overhaul especially my closet and I just can’t do it. I don’t even do my hobbies anymore

My weight is getting out of control. I can’t eat anything without my mom or really anyone telling me how much I’ve gained! I just wish I was skinny and then no one would judge me for what I eat or what I wear.

My hair used to be so long but my anxiety made me pick it out and it’s short and stunted and I’m trying to get it back to what it used to be.

I want to leave island but I have no clue what to do. With how expensive things are I don’t know how I’d find an apartment and what state do I go to. I want to go back to school but I can’t do it here it’s going to hell. I don’t know if I should study abroad or just stay stateside. I really don’t know what to do in that regard.

Same with getting a car! I swear it’s been hell and everyone keeps telling me I need one already but no one helps. I need someone to sign my insurance because I’m under 25 but no one will! No one! So I just….i feel so pathetic at 22

I’m an American and I took a gap year (well two years) and I’m trying to go back. I want to do something a little daring (also my community college is going to shit) and I applied for school in England and got a partial scholarship but it fell through because I got laid off and my mom needed help.

I’m thinking about trying to do it again especially because school in the mainland is just as pricey as it is abroad. Someone told me Spain and France are cheaper but what about language requirements? Which one is more accommodating? I’m looking and there is a lot of conflicting information so I thought maybe an Americans who did this might know

I’m starting to think I need to go to the hospital. I took a quick nap after work and I woke up choking! I literally had something stuck in my throat and I had to cough really hard. I’m trying to catch my breath but now I’m worried about sleeping

Ok so I’ve had two instances of waking up feeling like I couldn’t breathe and struggling to breathe in general. It almost feels like I’m choking on air. I’ve noticed this problem now that I’m close to not having a job and my mom getting sick again. Even right now I’m struggling to get a full breath in while I’m at work

First, like I said before they’ve closed our office and everyone in my office will be laid off September fourth but they still want us to work like everything is normal! Yes! Everything is A-Okay! I’m totally not going to be without a job! So yeah literally none of us have the energy to really do this. I heard a few of my colleagues cursed out customers that cursed at them and really truthfully I don’t blame em. If I had more confidence I would too with calls I got this week. Either all of our performances have gone down since we’re close to the final month. Well we got put in an hour long meeting and some higher up person was basically asking why we weren’t performing like normal.

I kept it simple and just said that my life has gotten really stressful with my mom’s medical issues and job hunting so a job laying me off in a month isn’t my biggest concern. Yeah my other coworkers ripped him. I mean I almost felt bad….ok I didn’t at all. He was the one who denied me working part time so I could help my mom out more. But yeah I hope he appreciated the feedback.

Second, it’s about my mom. Tomorrow I have to work because my job has us work a mandatory Saturday every month. My mom wants me to go to the ER with her because her doctor is concerned that the medicine the doctor gave her didn’t work and that she needs to go back and see if they can do something because she fears this could go badly considering how much pain and how long it’s been. My mom wants me to come to attest to everything going on with her and see if that might get better results than her alone. She wants us to go tomorrow and she didn’t know that I had to work. So right now I’m trying to see if I can get the day off.

It’s an excuse for everything I try! I try using my vacation time but they say that Saturday doesn’t count for time off! I try asking if I can just work next week instead they say no! I try a half day (because really people don’t call Saturday) and still they won’t budge. I tried seeing if they could get me switched and there saying it’s last minute so they can’t do it which I know is bullshit because when it was Memorial Day weekend I was supposed to get Saturday off and then my coworker said they couldn’t work that day and a supervisor said they would help. that night while I was home I got a text suddenly saying I had work! So I know they can. I’m so stressed I genuinely think I’m developing an aneurysm

Had an outbound call with a customer and he was confused by the call. I explained that it’s because he hasn’t paid June or July. He said that he knows and doesn’t know why we called. Of course I’m confused because….obviously the reason we’re calling is to see when you’ll pay. This goes on for another two minutes.

Once it was five minutes I just told him that we’ll look into because with everything going on with my life right now I can’t deal with it

Mom is still sick and might have to leave island and my supe tried explaining to upper management but they aren’t bending even with notes. I got my final warning today so if I get any occurrences (even if I’m a minute late) then I will be terminated and won’t be able to get my severance or qualify for unemployment….why am I being so fucked over? Genuinely

Sometimes I think about aspects of his story and think “this sounds like a twelve year who overly torments their ocs” I mean I love him! But seriously he was abandoned as a baby and the only way he stayed alive was suckling the teat of a cat. Like holly your doing the most

Balekin is interesting to me because we get the cruel side of his personality but he’s also this partier? He’s the head of the court of debauchery and he canonically went to burning man to take humans?

How does he know about burning man? Who told him about this? Does he go to Coachella too? Lollapoolza? How’s he getting there? Portals? A car? Plane? Does Balekin have a damn passport!?

Sometimes it’s hard to imagine Balekin as a partier because of how we usually see him. Which says a lot about hollys writing and making multifaceted characters. But it’s funny as hell to think about.

Also I know fae don’t care about people but damn do you think they see all the humans Balekin has and think “damn how he got so many?”

This job is stressing me out on both ends. I have to worry about them either firing me before my layoff or getting laid off in September. My mom is sick she went to the ER yesterday and came back this morning. I got in ten minutes late because of that and my supervisor has told me to be careful because they’re watching me like a hawk which seems nonsensical to me because you’re laying me off anyway!

I mean I try to be prepared for everything. I have an emergency bag, extra can goods and rice. Medical cabinets and fire safety. I’m always prepared and I have plans but I don’t right now. I have a job that even though I’m explaining what’s going on with my mom will still give me occurrences! I don’t have a new job lined up yet to fall on. There are no gigs like Uber Eats or anything I could do to tie over. I can’t really say I can move and I also have no idea how to move especially with how bad the economy is! I just…I don’t know what to do

Genuinely today was awful! The cxs were mean and I’m being monitored even though I’m being laid off and explained it was because my mom is sick. And now my mom is being sent to the ER but I can’t leave to be there for her because I already exceeded a lot and anymore means they can fire me so I just….im losing it a bit

I just got a email saying my merit increased. So I got a slight increase in my pay that won’t be effective until August….my last month of working….what perfect timing

All of a sudden my vision is weird and I’m struggling to breathe! I feel lightheaded and my ears are ringing a bit I don’t know if she should wake up my mom because I’m not feeling well but I’m panicking

My life has been taking a serious nosedive this past few months. My fridge is still broken! I keep calling the guy and he just keeps giving me the run around about this part to fix the damn fridge! My mom might have cancer again and she’s been asking me for money to cover her MRI and CAT scan. Then we have to keep it a secret from my grandma to not set off her dementia and then my mom is pissing me off because my uncle is offering her his house so that she doesn’t have to keep flying out for her oncologist but she refuses! SHES DONE THIS SO MANY TIMES.

That’s not even adding to the fact I’m being laid off in September and I’m struggling to find a job and might have to move because of how hard it is trying to find something on a island. So I’ve had to leave early and sometimes I’m a minute late to clock in but truly what does it matter? I’m getting laid off regardless and my severance is being taxed 40% so yeah I’m not exactly happy!

Honestly I feel like I’m on a verge of a nervous breakdown and every time I try to explain to my family they just brush it off so I’m kind of alone with this stress. My heart is constantly racing, I feel dizzy, and I’m stressed eating so I’ve gain a lot and my family keeps telling me. And now I get a write up today. From occurrences I’ve gotten with having to leave early for work because of my mom or being a minute late because the damn mouse pad can’t properly work! So yeah….i think I might cuss someone out at this point where I’m at

I do mortgage calls and this customers home is in foreclosure and the sale date is July 2nd. They were denied assistance because it’s week before the sale date and the cx can’t afford to reinstate. I hate to tell them that the house is being sold. I mean I know I’m just a regular rep and we’re not giving much power but still sucks

Wuthering Heights by Kate Bush, Heart of Glass by Blondie, Sunny by Boney M., The Sign by Ace of Bass, Stateside with Zara Larson, Mr. Incorrect by Malcom Todd, Attention by Malcom Todd, As by Stevie Wonder, Carnival by the Cardigans, Wriggle by cosmo sheldrake, Rocky road to Dublin (he’d like the original more but I do think he’d like the remix for sinners), so easy by Olivia dean, ain’t it fun by paramore, new perspective by panic at the disco, Headlock by imogen heap, anything by lady Gaga but his favorite is born this way, Any song by abba, and murder on the dance floor by Sophie Baxter.

These are definitely not based on my own personal taste and I definitely don’t have a biased opinion

So I’m planning on reading the entire folk of the air series and my friend was telling me about some other books I might like that I had gotten as gifts.

The hunger games is one. I got the series as a gift but I never watched the movies or read the books (my mother is a catholic and checked any books she bought me so hunger games was off the table in both medias)

Once upon a broken heart. She thinks I’d like the romance.

A court of thorns and roses. Granted she doesn’t think I’ll love this book more that she thinks I’ll love to hate this book series.

So yeah if any of you have read these tell me if it’s worth it