I just wanted to share them, maybe someone can relate to the way I felt while making them. You're not alone.q
I just dont get it. What you did to me was evil. It was just evil. I did not deserve that, I've never done anything to you. I still think about it, all the time. All those hands on me.
You don't understand. Putting you in jail won't undo the damage you've done. It won't make it hurt any less.
I'm in so much pain. I'm sad and so scared. I'm sad. I'm sad and dirty and it's all your fault.
Im professionally diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, psychosis, and post-traumatic stress disorder. I was raised in an abusive household, and got out around 3 months ago. I turned 18. I made it out. And I feel like life is worth living again, when before I never even imagined I'd make it this far.
Its so hard. I know. But it CAN get better. Im living in my own apartment with my lovely cat, i have a kind boyfriend, i can tell my mom "no, i dont want to see you". I can make art instead of self sabotaging, but that dosent mean i dont still have the scars and the memories.
It will still be hard. I have panic attacks, i cry, i remember things and it still hurts. But you will learn to live it with it, grow around it.
It dosent matter what cards youve been dealt with, it matters how you play them. Only you decide how your life goes. It will be okay.
What the title says. Relapsed on an entire box of 1mg xanax and idk how to feel about it. I'm about to turn 18 and something is deeply wrong with me in the head. I wish I could just be normal I'm going to drive everyone I love away and I'm going to be all alone. I'm extremely mentally ill and unmedicated (I've been on medication since I was 12, antidepressants, antipsychotics and mood stabilisers and stopped taking them at the end of last year). I need to get back on them because I keep crying and then being fine and its freaking out the guy I like who stays over all the time and I need to get it together or he will leave me I can already tell he wants to. I keep splitting on everyone (im diagnosed with borderline personality disorder) and I'm scared I'm going to do something stupid soon when I'm alone.
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Im 17f, he's 18m. We've been in a ?situationship? for around a year now. He stays over all the time since I live on my own, we sleep in the same bed basically every single night and I cook and clean and he doesn't even help around with chores, yet were not in a relationship? I keep waiting and waiting for him to say something but he doesn't.
We had a talk about it last year and we ended up not talking for a few months. He just said im too "mentally ill" for a relationship and too sad and sensitive. He came back. I dont understand why he's okay with acting like were together but the moment I want some commitment im "too sick"?
How do I talk to him about it without sounding desperate and childish? I want a boyfriend who loves me, not a friend who just leeches off of me. Is it over?