u/No_Yam_2959

So I was a NEET aspirant, and since I was a school topper, everyone believed I had potential, which i did, but i lost track, got distracted and fell into a hell hole. Unfortunately, I couldn't clear it. It's been 7 years since I did 12th. I did a few jobs, a few certifications; it's not like I did not try to get out of it after the first drop. I wanted to do BMLT from an institute that was far away; my father said no. Then I wanted to do BPT and nursing. My mom said no; she cried her eyes out when I couldn't clear it. Now, finally went to get admission in BMLT as I do think I want a degree, simultaneously looking for a job, as I left my previous one, which she wanted me to do last year, but I did not want to; she keeps saying I know u have potential; you can do it. I literally feel like killing myself. I want someone to just bang something on my head. Even if I tell her something, she makes it abt herself. My brother always got eggs and paneer, while I got usual sabji, not that I am complaining; I am grateful, but I am insulin resistant. Earlier, she used to say there is not enough. Once I started earning and started taking care of myself, buying a carat literally every week, still i got the same treatment like secondary and in a way even if she did not i started treating myself secondary, which I don't like abt me now . Like i feel i was in a hell hole and she pushed me further into it instead of guiding me out of it if i seeked therapy she said ask satsang aunty i am tired cant even get out of the house.

So nta messed up and they didnt change my city preference and as a result my center is again in rewa can someone suggest me a hotel under 600 as that is only my budget 😭NTA has also not refunded money everyone has increased their prices for that day .

I am considering to get this surgery done has anyone got it done from this hospital also what was the cost ?

My childhood best friend invited me to her brother’s wedding and I honestly don’t know whether to go.

We barely spoke after school, but recently reconnected on Facebook and talked for almost 2 hours. I’ve been socially isolated for the last 6 years with almost no friends, and talking to her genuinely made me feel light again.

The problem is I’m terrified of meeting old classmates there. I was one of the toppers in school, but I spent 5 years preparing for NEET and couldn’t clear it. Now I have certifications and some work experience but no degree, and I still live in my hometown while many of my old friends have good jobs and lives in tier 1 cities.

I disappeared from social media and avoided people for years because I felt ashamed of not becoming who everyone expected me to be.

I know people will ask normal questions like “What are you doing now?” but I already judge myself so harshly that even simple conversations feel scary.

At the same time, I don’t want fear to stop me from reconnecting with someone who genuinely seems to care about me.

Has anyone else dealt with this fear of meeting old friends after feeling like life didn’t go the way you expected?