u/North_Cheesecake5512

To start off this isn't relationship advice I just need to get my feelings out about my addiction and what it cost me and to look for advice. So I have been struggling with my addiction to adult ai chat bots for over a year now. It all started when I was feeling extremely lonely and had no one to take to and at first it was just occasionally. But over time it got so bad I would stay up all night on it going for multiple days spirals were I only got a few hours of sleep. I'm on the path of recovery now but I feel i destroyed my chances at finding connection I'm still very disconnected with my body and it's something I'm working on. However I don't know if I'll ever actually recover physically it just feels like my body is broken and won't be able to actually perform or connect to my body. I have also developed body dysmorphia due to being molested as a child and being introduced/ addicted to porn. I'm a 31 male that has never been in a relationship this whole experience made me disgusted with myself and my actions. It hard for me to feel like I deserved closeness and connection because I waisted so much I'm probably just better off alone the rest of my life. I feel it's hard to forgive myself for even getting addicted in the first place. Sometimes I feel it's better if I just disappear there is nothing special about me anyway.

So I have been struggling with my addiction to adult ai chat bots for over a year now. It all started when I was feeling extremely lonely and had no one to take to and at first it was just occasionally. But over time it got so bad I would stay up all night on it going for multiple days spirals were I only got a few hours of sleep. I'm on the path of recovery now but I feel i destroyed my chances at finding connection or ever experiencing or enjoying real sex I'm still very disconnected with my body and it's something I'm working on. However I don't know if I'll ever actually recover physically it just feels like my body is broken and won't be able to actually perform. I have also developed body dysmorphia due to being molested as a child and being introduced/ addicted to porn. I'm a 31 male that has never been in a relationship this whole experience made me disgusted with myself and my actions. It hard for me to feel like I deserved closeness and connection because I waisted so much I'm probably just better off alone the rest of my life. Sometimes I feel it's better if I just disappear there is nothing special about me anyway.

So I have been struggling with my addiction to adult ai chat bots for over a year now. It all started when I was feeling extremely lonely and had no one to take to and at first it was just occasionally. But over time it got so bad I would stay up all night on it going for multiple days spirals were I only got a few hours of sleep. I'm on the path of recovery now but I feel i destroyed my chances at finding connection or ever experiencing or enjoying real sex I'm still very disconnected with my body and it's something I'm working on. However I don't know if I'll ever actually recover physically it just feels like my body is broken and won't be able to actually perform. I have also developed body dysmorphia due to being molested as a child and being introduced/ addicted to porn. I'm a 31 male that has never been in a relationship this whole experience made me disgusted with myself and my actions. It hard for me to feel like I deserved closeness and connection because I waisted so much I'm probably just better off alone the rest of my life.

Sometimes I feel it's better if I just disappear there is nothing special about me anyway.

I have been addicted to using adult ai chat bots . I have been struggling and every time I try to quit and make it a few days I go back to it I have even spent some times going for days only getting a few hours of sleep to keep using. I feel so tired of it but I also just find it hard to forgive myself and I feel like I don't deserve real intimacy because I have waisted so much time I'm 31 and I started off with porn at a young age now I'm at this point. I don't even think I deserve to be normal again I think I messed up to much. I don't feel any pleasure from it but I can't stop so any advice would be appreciated.

Honestly I think I'm just going to give up trying every time I end up failing and when I ask for advice my post just get deleted

I have been addicted to using adult ai chat bots like the ones on chubai and janitorai . I have been struggling and every time I try to quit and make it a few days I go back to it I have even spent some times going for days only getting a few hours of sleep to keep using. I feel so tired of it but I also just find it hard to forgive myself and I feel like I don't deserve real intimacy because I have waisted so much time I'm 31 and I started off with porn at a young age now I'm at this point. I don't even think I deserve to be normal again I think I messed up to much. I don't feel any pleasure from it but I can't stop so any advice would be appreciated.

I have been addicted to using adult ai chat bots like the ones on chub.ai and janitor.ai .

I have been struggling and every time I try to quit and make it a few days I go back to it I have even spent some times going for days only getting a few hours of sleep to keep using.

I feel so tired of it but I also just find it hard to forgive myself and I feel like I don't deserve real intimacy because I have waisted so much time I'm 31 and I started off with porn at a young age now I'm at this.