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Please, I just want to go to sleep

I just am kind of at a crossroads with my career but I’m mostly at a crossroads with what to do within my career if that makes sense. I don’t even know if this post will make sense but I just need to get it out!

I work in a creative career, I don’t want to give it away but it deals with art and food! So this is what I went to school for and I’ve been in this field since I graduated which was over 13 years ago. I worked in all different aspects of this field, working my way, always chasing a goal to do more and more and more. Had my eyes set on a certain goal and job in this particular area, worked in that part for 6 years and then covid happened and I got laid off. I was devastated obviously because this was going to be my new path. So instead of giving up, I decided to lean more into a different side of this career where the art part comes in. Did it “full time” for 2 years but I wasn’t making enough money, so I went back to work to keep doing this but also get a steady paycheck. Worked my way up to a position where I was making over $30 an hour, which in my field is amazing. I was still doing this side thing (pretty much full time after work).

Found out I was losing my job a few years into working there suddenly and then was back at square one. Instead of jumping back into another job, decided to lean into this and now it’s doing really well BUT every week I’m scared because I’m not sure if I’m going to make it through to next month, but I love it so much! Part of me says to go back to work and go back to doing this part time and getting a steady paycheck but I was so burnt out.

I just need to know if this is a sign that this happened to me twice. I’m scared to lean into it too much in fear of disappointment (I’m scared or rejection duh!)! But also I’m scared to keep growing because it’s scary and I do this by myself but it’s getting bigger and bigger. I guess I know my answer but it seems no matter what I do, I’m always steered back into this art part again. Am I just anxious and setting myself up for failure even though it won’t probably happen??? My GUT tells me to not give up bc each time I think about doing it less and less, something happens where I need to rely on it to make money.

If money wasn’t an issue, I would keep doing it. But it’s going to take some time to get to a point where I’m making more than what I was making full time at my last job. With how expensive everything is it’s kind of hard to not break even. But idk. Sorry this is so wordy and everything. If you stuck around, maybe some nice words or encouragement because if you can’t tell I have imposter syndrome and I’m scared of failure. But also when I accomplish something I was working towards, I have a hard time celebrating and instead set my goal higher! I’m relatively successful in it but my success is measured differently than some other people’s! I do not dream of becoming a multi millionaire, I just want to be comfortable and happy and right now this makes me happy but also uncomfortable because I don’t know what’s next.

I know it’s all plan based but I’ve been trying for the last few years. I have pmos (PCOS), I’m overweight, prediabetic, sleep apnea but it’s all not good enough for my insurance. I now have to go to a pulmonary specialist and see if maybe that could help. My doctor doesn’t recommend a compound. I’ve been on zep since January and it’s LIFE CHANGING for me. But I can’t afford $500 out of pocket pay anymore and it’s making me just want to give up on even trying and let myself go or maybe try to get type 2 diabetes so it’ll be covered.

This is more of a rant I need to put out into the void because it’s making me so depressed anytime I have to think about it. I have PMOS, PMDD, hypothyroidism, obese, I can keep going. I live a pretty active lifestyle but I believe a lot of my chronic illnesses stem from the stress I was under as a kid.

So now almost mid 30 adult has to deal with all the consequences of this. I’ve been trying for over a year to get zepbound covered. I have been on it paying close to $500 a month since January, but I can’t keep up with the cost. My doctor said she doesn’t recommend using a compound. I’m just so frustrated why it’s SO easy for people to get it covered just for being overweight. I know it’s all based on what insurance plan you have. I just hate how I have to go through so many loopholes to even consider getting it covered. I did sleep studies, I have sleep apnea but it’s still not good enough. Now I need to go to a heart specialist and I feel like that’s not even going to qualify me either.

I’ve honestly thought about just saying fuck it and trying everything to give myself type two diabetes so I can get it covered. If you couldn’t tell by now I live in America.

I’m just so frustrated. I just need some uplifting words or maybe a new way to approach getting it covered. This has been a life changing medicine for me and the thought of having to stop because I can’t afford it makes me sick.

What’s the point of having health insurance when i pay so much a month to not ever have coverage of anything. What’s going to happen when no one can afford any life saving medication? I know people have it way worse than me but I’m already working so fucking hard just to be able to keep up with paying bills and my medication.

I’m sorry for the long rant. I’m just at a point where I feel like giving up on everything. The only thing keeping me going right now are my animals and my husband. Other than that, I see no point anymore.

What are some decent paying bakery/pastry/coffee/restaurant work in the city? Specifically east end, Lawrenceville, highland park, friendship. Idk the east end!! I hate my current job and need something that pays more than $16 an hour.

I’ve been on zepbound since December and I use it for my PMOS! It’s been great with the inflammation and all the bad things that come with PMOS like insulin resistance. The thing is, I lost my job back in January (I’m on my husband’s insurance). I’m on unemployment and ALL of my money goes towards my zepbound because insurance won’t cover it. With the dose I’m on 10mg, it’s almost $500 a month with the self pay on Lily-direct bc my insurance doesn’t deem pmos as a cause to use it, like so many others. I obviously won’t be able to afford that after next month so I’m going to switch to a compound! I have a doctors appointment this week to do bloodwork and see how I’ve improved! I’m going to talk to my doctor but I’m also scared that with the compound I’m going to take something that’s not going to work as well or make me super sick. Any tips on where to get the most reputable one, that has the same results as zep? This med has been life saving and it’s actually making me super depressed thinking about how I can’t afford it.

I keep hearing that POSSIBLY glp-1s will be covered by insurance for PMOS since they changed the name and there’s proof glp1 help PMOS. Do you think it’s worth it to try to see if my insurance will cover it again? I’m getting bloodwork done just to compare it from the time I started (7 months ago, down 30lbs, starting weight was 290), and I’m hoping with some results that it’s helping, my insurance will maybe cover it or partially? I can’t afford $500 a month on this med but it’s been a life changer. My insurance said they would only cover it if I was over 40 with a heart condition (I’m not lol), type 2 diabetes (I was pre diabetic when I started this), I did a couple sleep studies and I had mild sleep apnea but didn’t meet the criteria. I also for about 4 years, went off and on different meds that were supposed to “help” and they didn’t. Metformin destroyed my stomach and I was literally taking like 2000mg a day for 3 years straight with diet and exercise and I swear I gained weight. This glp has been the ONLY thing helping me. I’ve never been able to successfully lose weight, but the weight loss is great but I’m just happy to not be in pain 24/7.

Thanks for readying. TLDR: will my insurance cover a glp-1 with results after 6 months showing that it’s working to help my PCOS.

I’m so confused why it’s advertised SO much but yet, with people with PCOS (PMOS) it’s so SO hard to get it approved. I pay out of pocket. I just started one but I have to pay out of pocket because I have PCOS. I’m obviously over weight but I don’t meet any of the criteria of having sleep apnea or diabetes. How do people afford it? How do you get it approved without diabetes? How do people get it covered by insurance JUST for weight loss. Pls help bc idk how long I can pay out of pocket.

Edit: This is the nicest Reddit thread I’ve ever been a part of. No one made me feel dumb and everyone has had great advice. So thank you 🥹 I’ll update this post if I switch to a compound next month after talking to my doctor.

I keep hearing that POSSIBLY glp-1s will be covered by insurance for PMOS since they changed the name and there’s proof glp1 help PMOS. Do you think it’s worth it to try to see if my insurance will cover it again? I’m getting bloodwork done just to compare it from the time I started (7 months ago, down 30lbs, starting weight was 290), and I’m hoping with some results that it’s helping, my insurance will maybe cover it or partially? I can’t afford $500 a month on this med but it’s been a life changer. My insurance said they would only cover it if I was over 40 with a heart condition (I’m not lol), type 2 diabetes (I was pre diabetic when I started this), I did a couple sleep studies and I had mild sleep apnea but didn’t meet the criteria. I also for about 4 years, went off and on different meds that were supposed to “help” and they didn’t. Metformin destroyed my stomach and I was literally taking like 2000mg a day for 3 years straight with diet and exercise and I swear I gained weight. This glp has been the ONLY thing helping me. I’ve never been able to successfully lose weight, but the weight loss is great but I’m just happy to not be in pain 24/7.

Thanks for readying. TLDR: will my insurance cover a glp-1 with results after 6 months showing that it’s working to help my PCOS.

Hello! PCOS/hyperthyroidism/PMDD person here and I’m about to have another flare up because it’s two weeks before my period (I have a freakin eye you dee but still get alllll the symptoms) and I was thinking about how last month I felt so much rage that I came on here to start fights with people for no reason 😂😭. I did feel better but now thinking about it, why did I do that.

Anyways, I have a doctor’s appointment next week to switch doses of my meds because I feel insane 2 weeks a month. And the PAINNNNN AUGH.

Hey so why have the teens in Pittsburgh been attacking random people? I feel like it’s happening a lot in east liberty. Over the last month I think I’ve read 1-2 stories a week where someone gets attacked by a group of teens.

Is this a parental issue? A not enough resources issue? What can we do as a community to get teens to stop acting like they can do whatever they want. Sure we were all assholes when we were teenagers, but I personally don’t remember attacking people with physical violence.

As much as I can’t stand cops, what can be done?? I don’t have kids but I have nephews that visit me frequently and I like to take them around the east end. I don’t want to have to fear they will get jumped by other teens.