u/October_31s

The humidity. The god awful humidity that fogs up your sunglasses when walking outside. The higher ac costs in your house and car. The UV index reaching maximum levels damaging your skin. The uncomfortable, sticky, itchiness of just being outside. Temps in the 90s with heat index’s surpassing 100° for weeks on end. The extreme thunderstorms and hurricanes. The blinding sun. The bugs. The BUGS. Mosquitos and hornets all over you outside. The students, from kindergarten to college, as well as all faculty, increasing traffic, crowding up the gym with free summer passes, crowdedness anywhere in public. Truly unbearable. I am in the wrong climate. Save me, autumn.

32 x 34 US 209 lbs.

I’m like 30% Irish/Scottish, 40% German, and the rest Russian/Scandinavian (Norway and Sweden). My hair is an auburn brown with a gold tint, but my thick eyebrows, lashes and facial hair are nearly black. Had white blonde hair as a child. Fair skin that tans. I don’t understand how such a Northern European could not be blonde. What’s the history behind foreign invasions and cultural intermixing?

Is this weird? Almost everyone on here says they did.

I’ve been on it since the beginning of this year (I really don’t remember…) I started at 25, moved to 50, then 75, so I guess it’s been over 3 months. Today I took 100 for the first time. My brain has gone from constant OCD (undiagnosed) chatter and worry, severe insomnia and viewing the world as a bleak, suffering place to feeling chill almost all the time now. It got to a point where I couldn’t even drive, or didn’t want to sit in traffic. Now I can just exhale… set the worries aside. Perhaps I avoided side effects because I started at the lowest possible dose, but I went from being s**c*dal (with plans) to being at least a 7/10 every day. I didn’t notice it at first, until I got into the 50mg range. The small things don’t bother me anymore. Is this abnormal? No weight gain, GI issues, brain fog, maybe a tiny bit increased anxiety at first, no sadness, nothing. In fact, GI issues improved. I went from not being able to get out of bed for an hour in physical pain (depression induced) to bouncing up at 7:30 and getting ridiculous amounts of productive stuff done and enjoying long lost hobbies. I could not even answer the phone for jobs before.