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Not sure if there was anyone else in this situation but I got a criminal record when I was severely mentally ill (minor charge, not comfortable saying what it was, but no one was hurt!) and I feel like people like me now with lifelong criminal records due to their mental health are forgotten about in the awareness?

I have an amazing care team, I really couldn’t be asking for better care! It is hard coming to terms with it, especially as I have history of anorexia, it hard not to internalise this. I find it hard hearing the people who have put a positive spin on their story. How do I put a positive spin on this? Where are people like me?

Hi,

I am looking for a driving instructor who would be good for someone with autism and anxiety. They would like to be able to drive and need assistance in doing so. Thanks.

I came across another person on Reddit today who was saying that their autism is not a disability, so why are there autistic people who are unable to work and struggling etc?

I explained to him he has been accommodated enough throughout his life to not view his autism as a disability, but that doesn’t mean he is not disabled.

It is really tiring needing to educate people about this. I don’t know how people can be diagnosed with autism but do no research into it, and not be aware of how it affects other people?

(I might delete this post because this whole topic makes me angry and I don’t want to attract negative attention on this post from other autistic people)

I am in an anorexia relapse at the moment but before this, my social worker signed me as too unwell to work. I was sectioned in May for a month due to a different mental illness. I have support workers and a lot of professionals.

I don’t have much motivation to recover. I am unable to handle working due to my autism and various mental illnesses. I have not managed to have a friend for ten years. I get in distress in public sometimes so I mostly go out with my support workers. Basically I was already very disabled by my autism and other mental health issues.

What motivation is there to recover for someone who is already significantly disabled?

I am in a relapse at the moment but before this, my social worker signed me as too unwell to work. I was sectioned in May for a month due to a different mental illness. I have support workers and a lot of professionals.

I don’t have much motivation to recover. I am unable to handle working due to my autism and various mental illnesses. I have not managed to have a friend for ten years. I get in distress in public sometimes so I mostly go out with my support workers. Basically I was already very disabled by my autism and other mental health issues.

What motivation is there to recover for someone who is already significantly disabled?

I feel like I only have the energy to do things I enjoy when I am anorexic. I had a quesadilla and chocolate star today and have lower energy as a result. I do want to be one of those people who goes out to do fun things etc, it doesn't feel possible without being anorexic. I prefer the person I am when I am anorexic.

I have a problem throwing things when i am upset. It stops me from harming myself. I live alone so only me can see mess but support workers need to clean it up, worried i will get in trouble for not keeping home clean by my landlord, does this happen, i feel like shit

I am worried about being bullied or picked on.

I feel like wearing the sunflower lanyard could help me a lot because I look stressed in public and sometimes end up in crying and in distress and it would make me feel worse if people were to treat me badly for that.

I would appreciate any reassurance.

They posted about plushies

I only interacted with the account so far by watching their Instagram stories

I know I was blocked because I searched for them in Instagram but it couldn’t find their account but when I searched on google the account came up.

I am really upset about this.

My instagram profile is blank and I have no posts. But I have ‘autistic’ in my username.

Does anyone know what I did wrong?

I am technically safe (free from abuse and neglect) but my living space does not FEEL safe. What have you done to create a feeling of safety?

(I am not meaning guns, cameras or anything, I mean comforting items)

I see support workers 16 hours a week, it increasing to 18 soon. And I have 24/7 support. I am struggling to process I need more help than this.

I feel so awful. I am going through a really hard time mentally at the moment. Me and my support worker had a nice time out of the house. But when we were out she started talking about her own mental health issues and this made me so, so sad. I was still upset two hours later and when I got back to my flat I was crying. I said to her I don’t think she can support me anymore because I can’t deal with her issues. I said to her she is supposed to help me. She said she didn’t mean to upset me. Then I apologised, she apologised, and we hugged. And we were both crying. I don’t want to make people cry. I feel bad about this. I want to prevent a support worker from crying in the future, I am not sure how because I didn’t expect it today.

I take 18mg of atomoxetine (non-stimulant). This medication helps me with emotion regulation among other things. I did things I regretted in the heat of the moment before this medication and dose so I am TERRIFIED it will stop working eventually. (I am referring to when you have found the correct dose)

I am wondering if anyone else is in this situation? In my area CPN’s are only for people with bipolar, schizophrenia etc. My mental health social worker acts as my CPN, I text her all the time and she is available most days for a phone call if not several. The previous city I lived my CPN was a MH nurse.

I can’t cope

How difficult is this job for someone who is autistic?

I didn’t get the support I needed in school but I did get good grades in school. I think I would find it really rewarding helping someone with SEN in a school.

How difficult is this job? I could only do it part time. I don’t have any qualifications or experience. I don’t have a degree. I have had bad experiences in work because I need accommodations and don’t mask. So I have no idea if this job is possible for me.

I am in my late twenties but I feel like this must be quite late to realise you went through abuse?

Long story short is I knew I went through emotional neglect growing up and I have had severe CPTSD for the past 5 years. My dad died when I was 18, which was 10 years ago. I struggled massively with his death but I knew my reactions to his death at the time were over the top. I cut friends out of my life. I felt broken and I just couldn’t understand what was wrong. I realise now it was because there was no chance I could get an apology once he died. Over the past 10 years I’ve sought help for my mental health and sadly in that time developed anorexia. It was in a session with a dietician in the past 6 months that she said that being refused food on a regular basis, a parent using this as a method of control, and being shouted at for trying to get food is abuse. This went on when we went out for food as well. I knew this wasn’t a positive thing to go through as a child but I didn’t realise it classified as abuse. But I went through emotional neglect at home and school too so I really overlooked this experience, since my emotional needs were otherwise not met. It has made me realise how bad the emotional neglect was that I thought being refused food regularly was not that bad, or even fine? (To clarify, I was refused food because my dad was struggling mentally, it was not due to financial reasons or inaccessibility. He will have known what he was doing but it went on weekly for years)

Anyone know where this is available in UK to watch?

Specifically childhood neglect and abuse.

Is there one of these around?

Just would be nice to connect to people who have also been affected due to lifelong trauma, I feel very alone.

I had a mostly happy childhood and it has taken till adulthood to realise that some things that happened to me were neglect and abuse. Neglect I was more sure about and I won’t go into that here. Regarding abuse, me and my siblings were refused food every Saturday by my dad until the evening when we all had a big meal. When I tried to steal any food from the kitchen, I was profusely shouted at. My dad was furious and he made it clear it was not acceptable. I think I struggled the most with it so my dad’s anger was directed at me. He would tell me I was not allowed any food. Even back then, I knew it was not done maliciously and it was a way for him to control something (I am sure he had undiagnosed autism and he got stressed a lot). I had no idea that this way even bad and it was a dietician when I was under eating disorder services who explained it could be classed as abuse. My dad tried his best, we went on great holidays, I have happy memories, so it is hard to feel like something like this was even bad even though this and other things I went through have caused me to have severe mental illness as a adult. My dad died unexpectedly when I was 18 from heart disease, and I am sure stress was the underlying cause. It is difficult coming to terms the ways I was undersupported growing up while missing and grieving him.