u/OrangeCapsule

So I'm a transfer. I know where the list for needed books is, but I don't see anything for art supplies? Nor listed separately under each course--I really don't want to be the only one to show up without stuff on the first day if we're expected to have things already. Am I missing something? At my previous school, every class was very clear about what you needed before even signing up, and/or that you didn't and that it would be discussed first day and not to worry about it.

Yo, I'm working on an edit and I think Power Mix - Power would be a sick dance to learn and even take to a local venue of mine that does requests. I found a one minute demo on YouTube by Jessie Chan from a dance competition or something, but there's no full video or tutorial that I can find. Does anyone know of one or a similar swap that can go to this song?

OKAY NOW LISTEN--I haven't seen season 2, due to not having access, and I am currently working through the manga to be caught up completely while we're on hiatus, so it's possible there's lore in a panel I am unaware of--BUT!!

My theory is that "Himmel the Hero" is not actually the one who landed the final blow. Everyone believes that he's the one who did it, as that's the story that's been told in addition to him being their party's leader. However, I believe that what will come to light further down the road, is that we will find out Himmel was actually out of commission when the demon king became weakened--maybe he got hurt and is down, but then it will be left unclear who then finished the king off (left unknown on purpose). But the reason why he gets majority credit is because if it weren't for him, their party of heroes would not have made the ten year journey, so the success is given to him from the rest of his friends, despite not actually being the one to land the final blow. I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE, OKAY BYE

I've looked prior, but have not found any local place in Harrisonburg that hosts biweekly or even monthly line dancing nights. I'm not concerned whether it's 21+ or not, as I'm about to be 22. I love the Hometown Line Dancing group that's been hosting in Waynesboro all Summer, but I would like to find something much closer to JMU that wouldn't be almost an hour drive on school-nights

I regret it. But I got numerous back to back confirmations I needed to let go after asking what to do. I want you here. I need you here. I want my best friend back. I want to hear and know all the things. But now it's in God's timing. I hope you're right. And I hope I don't regret this the rest of my life. I hope our paths cross again and it works out. But I'm scared to fix it and rush or force something after trying to be obedient by letting go. I want you here worse than ever. To talk things out one more time and keep trying. But now I have to follow through with what I've done, or else being obedient would have been for nothing. I have so much to say and so much hurt I can't sort through. I have moments of peace like I did the right thing and it'll be okay for both of us one way or another. And then I start thinking or check socials to message you, or my phone buzzes, and realize it's not you. I'm sorry I did this. I know you believed in us. I did, too, and I want to, still.

I don't know if or when you'll see this. But I need you to know I want us to meet again one day with better circumstances and growth. If you ever reach a bad spot and you're considering painting the sky early, no matter what, call me first.

I've randomly heard of ToyHouse as a general website for artists, but never looked into it. I'm wanting to try and do ArtFight this year and it got me onto this website, but when trying to make an account, I need essentially a referral code to even get in?? Upon looking it up, apparently premium members get one or two a week to hand out? Does anyone have one I could use, or is that not how this works? DMs open. I'll delete the post if I get this figured out

Hey all, not really sure how much I can say given the subject matter, so I will beat around the bush a bit, but I need help/advice and prayers.

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From the ages nine to about nineteen, I was in deep with watching, reading, and writing inappropriate content and took part in the physical aspects by myself the entire time, too. It dwindled off a bit into my 20 and 21st year--I will be 22 in September. I had my first valid confession (including my first) back a few months ago. I finally fully admitted to everything and I am blessed to have not relapsed since then, nor have had the desire or temptation to, which I think has been the longest time without anything my entire life.

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However, ever since then, and more so the last month-ish, I have been getting these very vivid, real feeling dreams regarding that impurity, sinfulness, lustful stuff. Sometime's I'm me as myself, sometimes I'm in someone else's body doing things, but in the dreams, I'm aware of like, sin, God, right from wrong, and the shame I would have irl when going back and forth in stages. In the dreams, I'm like so far gone and just like a husk doing anything and everything for satisfaction.

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And then I wake up. Thankfully, I don't wake up with desires or temptation or what have you, but I feel so gross. They keep coming back and I don't know what to do. In the depth of my impurity growing up, I almost NEVER had anything like this happen, and certainly not so vividly and frequently. It's not going away and I'm scared of getting stuck in the cycle again

Hey y'all, I'll be in the area again starting on the 5th--are there any bars, clubs, or restaurants in the Gatlinburg/Pigeon Forge area that have a line dancing night or just usual thing? I'd love to go while in town and maybe even get my family to go along with me for a change. Doesn't necessarily have to be the place's usual thing, it could be a special event or something. If you know of anything, please comment and/or DM me! I'm also open to chatting!!

Getting it off my chest here since if I type this all out and send it to you, it'll just be another argument of hurt feelings and going around in circles. I don't know when you'll see this, but I have a suspicion you keep an eye on this account, especially since I've become more active and you have, as well. I know the whole thing with TikTok happened and you've said to do good there, but I know loopholes work both ways for both of us, for some things. Brain be braining. Forgive any weird segues, as I plan to write this over the course of a few days, if not weeks, as words come to me. Maybe you'll see this soon and it's the catalyst we've both been anticipating and someone throws the match. Maybe you don't see it until after the match is thrown, or maybe you don't see it at all--but that third option is close to zero percent odds.

I don't know how much more of this I can take. It feels like we've drifted apart the last month or so--partially because of me and my walls going up. We can agree to disagree on who's fault that is or what caused it. I'm content without you. I enjoy being with you. Texting feels like both of us are giving the other space. Calling feels like we're both on edge or have something in the back of our mind constantly and not saying anything. I express wanting to spend more time by myself this summer, doing things I like, being away from screens, on top of work, and you say that you're fine with it, but yet you still always seem despondent and dejected whenever it comes up. You always seem to take these things personally. It never matters how much I say it's not, or how much of my time you get compared to literally anyone else. You always want more. More time. More me. More everything. "'More, more, more,' said the baby."

To an extent, I get it. I do. You're convinced I'm the one for you. All you have to do is wait, and I'll be yours. You've always been so sure. I'll never understand why, and I'll honestly never be convinced. You know that--and yet you say you'll wait. Fourteen years, like Jacob, if you have to. But you're not actually waiting--you're fighting me along the way whenever I pull away, want space, or express generic interest in wanting to meet other guys or even find a damn actor in a movie attractive. You watch me not be interested, then get sad that I'm not, but still convince yourself I'm yours. Maybe I am and it will take the full fourteen years, but it can't go on like this. I can't deal with the hovering and the desperation and the insecurities around other types of guys I'm actually into for fourteen years. Yeah, earlier on, I would get spouts of jealousy over girls you'd been with, but that was also partially porn-brain still acting up and pretending like we actually had a chance together.

I want 's as much as you, but you want a relationship by the end of it. I just want a friend that's genuinely not trying to get into my pants because I'm all you got right now and you genuinely can't see yourself with someone else. It's like you don't fully respect my boundaries or desires in that aspect, but you pretend that you do.

"Of course real life comes first--it is what it is--I'll get over it," but you never do. It always comes back up with the next thing. You never move on and actually get over it, you just push it down until it comes up again in a conversation of ours or you even going to reddit to post about your unreturned affection and your frustrations around it. I'm not doing much better in this exact moment regarding posting, but you get my point.

We both set each other off a lot about things that don't even matter. A lot of things I don't care about and just brush off as insignificant, or am okay being alone and not calling/talking for a day or whatever, but you care so much about every little thing and get offended or sad when I want to be alone or just want to throw the match. I don't want you to think I don't care at all or that you care too much. I care too much about certain things or get in a mood. I get in a lot of moods--you know that more than anyone. And yet, you stay. You also say that I like fighting with you. I don't. I think you enjoy fighting and you know that if I fight back, I'm not going anywhere.

There's also these small things that tick me off and rub me in all the wrong ways. Like when you got all pissy and moody about me putting in my friends' Minecraft server IP before ours after everything got wiped with the window's upgrade shit--you knew our group was planning to play either that night or the next day or whatever, so I of course was going to snag the IP to get everything set up. But ohhh, I didn't even think to do yours and mine despite not playing in MONTHS, ohh yeah no, I'm such a bad person. Why didn't I think of that? Or when you were on with Dyl-Dyl, doing your own thing which I have always been supportive of and an advocate of, despite my hurt in losing him because of his wife--I hadn't told you I was getting on with an old girly friend of mine at the same time you were on with him. You called at some point after y'all got off and I declined your call because she and I were on, then proceeded to text you saying as such. Again, you took it personalty that I did that, that you didn't know, or whatever. It was ridiculous. Or that one time you were cooking supper and were muted while on call--I got home and put on supernanny for myself to watch, but oh, we created this unspoken rule that entire-screen stream is on 24/7. The video wasn't even on thirty seconds before you told me to switch it cus you didn't like it. Like I didn't even put it on for you or for us cus you were cooking anyway, but I had to change it.

Little shit like that just ruins it for me and really ruins the illusion that we're both equally considerate of the other person. I'm not gonna act like I'm perfect and have never done anything wrong against you, but most of it has come from me essentially not giving you what you want how you want it. Enough attention, relationship treatment, enough heads-up before I do something, etc. All these things that are not normal expectations of any normal, healthy friendship. It's exhausting. I don't want to marry that. I don't want to deal with that. Feeling micromanaged in pointless aspects or feeling like I must tell you every second of my day or else there will be a problem later down the line. Therapy is in order for both of us, in different ways, as we both have tendencies and unhealthy habits. I can confidently say, though, that mine have only gotten worse since knowing you.

My need to people-please you. To simplify or play-down what I want or really feel just to protect your feelings and manage the fallout from a disagreement or me trying to set boundaries. Moments I want to say I don't care and tell you to just deal with it, I don't. Because I do actually care, there's just a limitation sometimes depending what it's about. I don't feel at peace like I feel like I should with someone who's actually compatible for a life-long relationship. I have these moments were I think you and I might be alright in the end, but then I think about it and everything I don't like or don't want to settle for comes to mind and I take off the rose-colored glasses. I don't see this back and forth, push and pull, constant hurt feelings cycle getting better for the two of us. There's so much more patterns of behavior I can't stand than the good, and I'm sorry I feel that way.

We have so much fun together and so many good laughs, but then some days it feels like you're constantly being passive aggressive towards me, throwing out random comments about me and my 'hoes,' my interest in other guys or even hopping around from meat to meat--not in any funny or playful way, but like you're purposefully trying to start something. Makes me feel gross and like you're just trying to shame me into being with you so you'll stop making fun of me for looking for my person. It doesn't encourage me to be honest with you about who texts me or who texts back or what interactions I have in real life cus that ultimately just turns into me giving you more ammunition and shit to be insecure and jealous about.

You say stuff like how you do the things you do and don't expect me to do anything in return, but then get frustrated when I don't reciprocate. When I don't do something or I don't remember something, like your messages on the other account. I try and remedy it by telling you you don't have to, that I never asked you to do it (whatever it is), and you always say I shouldn't say that and that it's mean/rude and a slap in your face for your effort. It's so many mixed signals and it makes me just want to give up and stuff like that has been impacting my warm and fuzzies for months. Not just that, obviously. There's more, like above.

This is already getting so long in my notes. I should probably cut it off here. I don't want this to come across as some bashing session against you. I don't know what I want to come of this, but I gotta put it out somehow.

I doubt I'll ever send this to you directly. Don't got the balls to ruin things so directly by saying my piece and for no real reason to prompt it. Unsent Letters seem fitting. Kisses.

Thoughts?

Hey all! Putting this out here to have some feedback on notes and questions I've gotten today in reading through the Bible. I've recently come out of a little over a decade of mortal sin and being away from God in every way imaginable. I want to start Confirmation prep this next fall and have found a way for me to easily read through the Bible (of my own will and desire, for once, and not a forced school thing) and get more acquainted with the Word.

Below are a couple notes/questions I've made and I'm curious to see feedback on them, as I'm doing this alone and don't really have anyone to bounce ideas off of (that would know the answer or at least have some guidance).

Thanks in advance, and DMs are open if anyone feels the need to respond there!

(Edit: will preface this by saying I’m following the “Read the Bible in a Year” plan by  City Impact Church on the Holy Bible app with the CSB due to the couple Catholic Bible options not having an audio version available at this time)

Genesis 3:4 
The serpent says that Eve will not surely die, and that eating of the fruit will cause her to be like God and know good from evil.

Not to be blasphemous, but I think that’s actually true.
Stay with me, now–had Eve not eaten of the fruit, she and Adam would not know suffering, or otherwise, any evil. Therefore, only knowing good, comfort, and pleasure in God’s world.  But having eaten of it, evil comes into their lives and the world. Hence, the devil was correct in saying that Adam and Eve would ‘be like God’ and know good and evil, because evil would be introduced (for disobeying God). However, it’s phrased as if they might become like God, in His almighty power (or at least that’s how I always interpreted it growing up).

Maybe not a crazy realization or thought, but having never really taken the time to read/listen to anything of my own free will or interest, in one ear, out the other, for the most part.

Genesis 4:6
The Lord “said” to Cain, asking why he is furious that He does not have favor for him, like his brother, Abel.

I have never comprehended or realized the fact that God is directly talking to Cain, Abel, and likely their parents (Adam and Eve) at this time. I always thought that after they were banished from the Garden, God was essentially as He is now, for us–away in Heaven and only speaking or being seen by His chosen prophets and such. But in these verses, it sounds like He is directly communicating with them, similarly to how it was in the Garden.

Verse 10 and around, Cain is having this back and forth conversation with God, again seemingly as if they are facing each other and is not a one-off instance like, in Cain’s head or in a dream or anything ‘passive’ like that.

Genesis 7
Wait, “you are to take with you seven pairs, male and its female, of all the clean animals, and two of the animals that are not clean, a male and its female, and seven pairs, male and female of the birds of the sky,”
So it wasn’t literally just one male and one female of each type of animal????

Noah was 600 when the flood came

Wait, it just restated that two of each animal got on the Ark……so is it clean to eat and not clean to eat, kinda thing? But then why the “seven pairs”?

Hey, does anyone here use the Bible app where you can have 'plans' and go through devotionals and stuff?? For any section of a 'devotional,' usually a short little snippet or blog or something an individual has written, you can listen to it. However, when you get to the actual verses of scripture, that options goes away.

Does anyone know of a Bible-in-a-year 'plan' that allows you to listen to the scripture as well? I'm unaware of any setting I'd have to tweak (and if there was, I find it incredibly odd that it would be off by default)

Thanks