Why is it so hard to be happy in this lifetime :(( Sabi nila happiness is a choice, always choose to be happy. Pero damn, it’s so hard to fucking choose to be happy all the time when all I could feel is sadness and exhaustion.
It’s been 3 months since I last have someone I can call as mine. My life is great. Hindi every day masaya, but at least somehow it was peaceful. May mga nakakausap ako, but i know it was not like what i lost. Because what i lost, it has an assurance na whatever I say or do, he’ll never leave. I miss the feeling of having someone who can understand me. I miss the feeling of being in love. Most importantly, i miss the version of i once had.
p.s. 1 can and here i am ranting here at this subreddit haha
After work, decided to treat myself. All dressed up and glam plus reading while eating and drinking iced coffee. I could say it was a perfect night.
Difference between me over some people is that other people need to emotionally connect to someone before having deep talks while I’m using deep talks to emotionally connect to someone.
I like the pasta! Plus the place is nice.
How to stop craving genuine connection? I wanna focus on myself but at the same time I want genuine connection. Ang gulo ng isip ko rn!
Please wag ka na magparamdam. Please stop! Hayaan mo naman ako magmove forward. Hinayaan kita when you want to end us kasi sabi mo pagod ka. Hinayaan kita when i saw na you already has a new girl. So bakit ang daya mo. Nung ako yung nagiging masaya bigla kang magpaparamdam. Hayaan mo na ako. Please!
My sister’s ex message me saying na hindi na daw kausap ng ex ko yung bago nya. Matagal na daw walang nakakausap. I don’t know why parang nagsusumbong sya sakin regarding my ex’s attitude this days. Matagal na kaming wala. Now, here i am nagsspiral na naman. Please give me some advices what to do.
So i was talking to this guy. Casual lang nung una, until parang nilalandi na nya ako. With update na plus with pictures pa. So i have an anxious attachment kasi, so it was hard for me pag hindi sya agad nakakareply. I wanna end it kasi natitrigger nga ako. But at the same time, i don’t want to kasi i don’t want to close my door naman. To anxious attachment girlies, what do you do in these kind of situation?
Kapag magulo na ang mundo, kanino ako tatakbo? Kanino ako magsusumbong? :(
Kinikilig na lang talaga ako sa lovelife ng iba.
Walk and drink coffee while reading.
It’s funny how I can treat myself better than any man has ever had. I don’t wanna be in a relationship where I have to make myself smaller again for someone else.
Food and drink with a solemn ambiance
Been taking myself out a lot these days. I’ve got to watched a lot of people around me whenever I am taking myself out. Some with family, with friends, or with their partners. Then I noticed na parang ako lang yung alone in the area. I actually don’t know what I feel. I don’t know if it was peace or loneliness. Nararamdaman ko lang is it was heavy at the same time, it was quiet and comforting.
I don’t know why i kept overthinking things. May it be about friends, partner, family, work, or even strangers. What the hell is wrong with me??! Why am i such an overthinker? I tried naman na wag pansinin pero pumapasok talaga sya in my mind kahit sobrang busy ko na. How to stop overthinking ba?
I’m bored and kinda wanna yap about anything we can talk about. SFW only
About me:
- Southie
- Working pro
- Into reading and series
- Loves going to cafes
- Been obsessed with hiking nowadays
About you:
- 23+
- Respectful
- Someone I can yap with
Anyone up for calls, hit me up.
I can’t sleep right now. I’m a call person so anyone available for a call right now would do. We can talk anything under the sun. Strictly sfw, please be respectful. Preferably a girl, but anyone would be fine as long as hindi lang ako yung magbubuhat ng conversation.
Malapit na anniversary natin. I have so many plans for that day. Kaso wala eh, may iba ka ng ka-monthsary now. Napaisip tuloy ako how did you guys celebrate your monthsary. Just like ours? Idk, I shouldn’t care to be honest. But tangina, it was just a month ago since we last talked and 1 month na kayo. Unfair mo naman.
Malapit na sana anniversary natin. I have so much plan for that day. I’ve spent weeks to think of a plan. I’ve been thinking what gift to get you din sana. Pero wala eh, may iba ka na agad ka-monthsary. Ang sakit mo ah. Kaya siguro I kept thinking about you these past few days. Other than I have many time to dwell with my feelings and thought. It’s because it’s our month.