u/PaleGh0stface666

so after stalling relentlessly on finding a new job because of how shitty my mental health has become, i finally found one for the first time in four months and i start tomorrow. it got so bad to the point where i genuinely couldn't leave my bed or my room because just being out of the house makes me want to have an anxiety attack. i literally had 3 in one week at my last job because i just genuinely could not handle being out of my safe space and now that im moved out and am away from my family i just feel like it's going to be even worse. i feel like im just going to be an even bigger shell of a person who won't be able to go 5 seconds without panicking or freaking out about something realistic because overthinking about literally everything is what got me to this point. about my mistakes and my past catching up to me and everything i shouldn't be focusing on.

i had to get this job. id be getting kicked out of where i ended up moving to if i didn't, and i was supposed to feel better about finally having a job but i don't feel better. i feel just as scared and hopeless and debilitated as i did the first time, maybe even worse. and the worst part was being asked "are you excited to start your new job?" like no why the absolute fuck would i be excited about doing something that requires leaving the only safe space ive found? where all im going to be doing is overthinking and panicking 24/7? im so scared i don't know if i can do this :(

Anna Camp is so fucking awesome in the third act. she gives one of the best killer performances honestly, even if she doesn't stick around long. she's a perfect mix between traumatized and absolutely fucking crazy lol I love her. as bad as the other killers were, Jessica was great!

at least i have this amazingly heart attack-inducing crack serum :)

for me it's def Shiozaki and there's no debate. underbaked character sure but she's beautiful and i love the Medusa-like design with a Jesus-esque flair to it. bonus points because of how fucking awesome and badass she was in the Sports Festival arc

what could have possibly made me think that going on a vacation with my two best friends who have known each other far longer than they've known me was a good idea? i was literally the background character from the first fucking day it started. a majority of it has been them having fun, laughing together, joking around together, playing games together, etc. while i rot in the living room because that same playful and fun energy is barely there when i'm included and i usually just get ignored or talked over.

ever since this vacation started, my best friend has been so much different with me. he barely jokes around with me or initiates any of the playful banter we usually have all the time, as it's literally one of the main foundations of our friendship, and most of what he has been saying to me is just really short and uninterested and default. hell i can't even get him off his phone to answer at least one thing i say half the time during the moments it's just him and i. but when our other best friend is in the room? suddenly all he does is talk and laugh and joke around with him and seemingly has far more fun than he's ever had with me. and on top of that, they've literally been drinking all of the orange juice owned by the lady we're housesitting for, and he just goes "it's alright, we'll blame OP! just to fuck them over!" which like i get he was probably joking but after how shunned and outcasted and ignored ive felt this entire week that really pissed me off

on top of that whenever the three of us play games together it's usually them just secretly teaming on me and sucking each other's balls and then wondering why i don't want to play anymore. as a matter of fact i'm currently sitting in the living room trying not to cry while they sit in the bedroom and have the time of their lives without me

at least a handsome kitty is here to keep me company :)

i've barely eaten at all this past week and i can't even leave the house without having an anxiety or panic attack, but at least i can savor every single beautiful drop of this cherry limeade-flavored caffeine. cheers 🥂

maybe i just like emo chicks but i always thought Reiko was super damn cool and deserved way more screentime than what she was given aside from the training arc in season 5. her Quirk is pretty standard telekinesis, but she used it pretty ruthlessly, like when she absolutely *swarmed* Ashido with attacks during their fight. her character design is also really beautiful and unique for someone who's supposed to be just your average edgelord character.

really wish we got more of her! she had potential to be a really interesting and badass addition!

idk how y'all chose only 5 so easily this shit was hard as fuck😭😭 but some honorable mentions are definitely Mina, Mt. Lady, Burnin', Bakugo, and Kaminari

for me it's gotta be Kirishima and there's no contest. dude has been through so much self-doubt and insecurity, and yet, he doesn't let it get him down. he still manages to be one of the strongest and most courageous heroes in the class, despite his disdain towards his Quirk, and takes any chance he can to go out completely out of his way to save his friends and others. he never gives up on anyone, and genuinely just has a heart of gold. plus, both moments he risked his life for Ashido are two of my favorite moments in the franchise and i fuckin' FANGIRLED.

you could definitely say all of this for Deku, but for me, Kirishima edges him out. such a badass, brave, and strong guy who is totally MANLY! but who's your goat and why?

Gen V is by far the biggest instance of me falling in love with something just for it to break my heart. to know that this show had such a promising and exciting future just for it to fall apart just as quickly as it started absolutely sucks.

i feel like Chance Perdomo's death is the biggest ringleader in all of it. rest in peace to that absolute legend, seriously, but i feel like this show would have continued on it's strong path if he hadn't passed. between all of the rewrites and rushed creative decisions that made the show completely fall in quality and feel like an entirely different show from the first season, along with it leaning way too heavily into being a spinoff of The Boys when one of the reasons the first season was so great was because it felt like it's own thing, it just sucks that this show ended on the anticlimactic and disappointing note that it did. season two was clearly rushed and forced just to get it out on time and it shows with subsequent rewatches, and now that it's the final season of the show, it just feels even more disappointing.

im so fucking sad man. i fucking loved this show and wanted to see it grow so badly, but nope. this is what we were left with.