u/Penny012313

I met my ex boyfriend on dating app,we've been in a relationship for 2 months (on and off). I gave my all tbh,my rules is date to marry. I even sent him a boquet of rosesbut didn't accept it cuz I thought his the one. I'm from the PH and he lives in Croatia. He was hot and cold for those moment-- my feelings didn't change even a little,it grows more and more--but him? He said it's volatile. I keep chasing him at first.

So I knew it. Same road same ending.

I grieve while I'm still on the relationship almost everyday,can't concentrate on my work. I became lazy on everything. Get up cry,work cry,sleep and cry for those 2 months. I deactivated all media platform little by little. I'm learning to let him go because no matter what I do I'm not his end game. I got tired too.

My mom middled last night-(JULY 4, 2026)-she ask what is his intention with me.

He just said "stop messaging me you and your daughter."

When my mom sent that convo.

I couldn't cry.

I don't even feel pain.

I don't feel anger.

I don't feel hate.

I don't feel lose.

I am very calm.

This is the very first time I feel numb. I don't know if there's something wrong with me.

The last app I didn't delete was TG-when I checked our convo it's gone.

Still I message him directly on his number.

I said "Thankyou for telling that to my Mom. I was hoping you could say nice.I really appreciate that you were genuine for once. Nice meeting you.Goodbye.I thought I could save us.I forgot to save myself. You wr*ck me. You r*in me in all aspects. Still I couldn't h*te you.For the first time I ask God if you are not the one for me,please take him away. He really did! You break your promises. You lied, Everything you told me was nothing but lies. I knew it."

While I'm typing those SMS. I don't cry. What's wrong with me?

How to unlove him?

I miss you.

I miss the old version of you when I first met you.

I miss the late nights conversation.

I miss our silly jokes.

I miss our laughs.

I miss our future plans.

I miss our dreams.

I miss our promises.

And the thing I really miss. I miss US..

I love you.

I love you in my chaotic days.

I love you in my silence days.

I love you with all my heart.

I love you yesterday,today and tomorrow.

I love you even more to forever.

I'm sorry-

My love for you wasn't enough.

I'm sorry-

We never make it.

I'm sorry-

I learn to let you go.

I'm sorry-

Our distance and the timing was sucks.

I'm sorry-

My hopes was gone.

I'm sorry-

Loving you cost me a lot.

I'm sorry-

I did everything I could to save us but you never did --and that's hurt me the most.

I'm sorry

I came to your life once.

I met my ex boyfriend on dating app,we've been in a relationship for 2 months (on and off). I sent him a boquet of roses but didn't accept it. I'm from the PH and he lives in Croatia. He was hot and cold for those moment-- my feelings didn't change even a little,it grows more and more--but him? He said it's volatile. I keep chasing him at first.

So I knew it. Same road same ending.

I grieve while I'm still on the relationship almost everyday,can't concentrate on my work. I became lazy on everything. Get up cry,work cry,sleep and cry for those 2 months. I deactivated all media platform little by little. I'm learning to let him go because no matter what I do I'm not his end game. I got tired too.

My mom middled last night-(JULY 4, 2026)-she ask what is his intention with me.

He just said "stop messaging me you and your daughter."

When my mom sent that convo.

I couldn't cry.

I don't even feel pain.

I don't feel anger.

I don't feel hate.

I don't feel lose.

I am very calm.

This is the very first time I feel numb. I don't know if there's something wrong with me.

The last app I didn't delete was TG-when I checked our convo it's gone.

Still I message him directly on his number.

I said "Thankyou for telling that to my Mom. I was hoping you could say nice.I really appreciate that you were genuine for once. Nice meeting you.Goodbye.I thought I could save us.I forgot to save myself. You wrck me. You rin me in all aspects. Still I couldn't h*te you.For the first time I ask God if you are not the one for me,please take him away. He really did! You break your promises. You lied, Everything you told me was nothing but lies. I knew it."

While I'm typing those SMS. I don't cry. What's wrong with me?