u/PersonalitySure193

im not of the law and order generation. it practically ended as i came out of the womb. i always heard people say ‘it makes you think violence is okay,’ but especially as an adult now, that line of thinking is so crazy. especially this episode i just saw where boy 1 goes into a rage and kills his heroin baby friend, boy 2 after boy 2 makes jokes about boy 1’s mother’s nightlife. and then the defense makes this case that boy 1 had a gene that made him predisposed to be violent. and then boy 1’s mom (yes her) takes the stand and says she thought she could control him but she’s glad to know it isn’t her fault. jesus.

I'm 5 minutes in and this will sound like such a silly question, and I'm sure it's dated. It's definitely not a spoiler since I'm 5 minutes in, and there won't be any elaboration since it was a joke, but the plot of the episode is that a soap opera star is severely injured in the park. So, one of the detectives mentions the "John Lennon theory" in reference to a detective denying the possibility of this being a random act. What does that mean? I'm not very informed on the reasoning behind what happened to John Lennon, but I wasn't aware that was a theory. Again, sorry if this was a stupid question.

just toured harvard and MIT we have one more full day. plan to go to kendall square, honestly we don’t know any of the spots though. what’s at kendall square or harvard square? are there any comic book stores with cute knick knacks? i think i saw kendall square had a farmers market tomorrow. what are the best restaurants, bakeries, dessert shops, ice cream parlors? and accessories shops? secondhand stores? any unique places? planning to go to harvard museums, as well, how long should we expect to spend there? to better map out the day?

okay so i’m an august birthday so i was always one of the youngest kids in the grade, until 10th grade when my dad passed away of cancer and i had to repeat it. i was always self conscious about my emotions, i always felt emotionally immature. when i saw a girl who was a few weeks younger than me get into columbia last year, it made me feel like it was never about my age, it was just a “me” thing. and it sucks cuz everyone always said i was smart, but i never saw it reflected in anything i did. i always had to work extra hard on assignments because my brain just didn’t wanna work with me. i have ADHD and anxiety and i was diagnosed with anxiety at the age of 6 because of my fear of the “reading log” if anyone even remembers those. even when i was 6 i felt behind. i knew how to read, but i couldn’t get myself to read. when i was graduating elementary school, this girl was interviewing all of us asking how we felt about graduating, and i said i wished i could redo everything, at my young age of 10! ugh. around that time, i was diagnosed with ADHD, and that’s when i figured out why i couldn’t focus, it’s like my brain needs glasses, but we still haven’t found the right prescription, and now im an adult. and i think that’s part of it. i always hoped, ‘at least we’ll have figured it out before \[important benchmark\]’ but now, im literally an adult. and its not figured out. i was diagnosed at 10 and we haven’t found out what medication is right for me. none of them seem to work. it’s so embarrassing. for the past 3 years, i’ve been at a teeny tiny private alternative school with maybe 20/30 high school students. they all call me ‘unc’ this year. a kid in my ‘new’ grade is almost a full year younger, to the day. luckily my birthday is just later in august, so not quite. it hurts my heart to feel so old while all my friends from my public school graduated and went to university last year. i will start university this year, and sometimes i wonder if i should take a gap semester at least, but i cant. i’m too old, i’ll have such awful FOMO, i have no AP credits towards my name. i feel like the worst version of myself. i’ll be in a remote location, only 2.5 hours from home, but still, 2.5 hours. i’m scared, but i can’t afford to be scared. i’ve lost too much time.

it’s not like i’m going to an awful college it’s just people from my school have gone to the same colleges i was rejected from. so clearly i could’ve done better. and i didn’t. and i think it just really hurts like ugh.

i went to a niche alt school or whatever and i did 9th grade at public school with grades and had reasonably decent grades btw competitive public school taking hard classes i guess i have to say that then my dad dies and i miss a bunch of school they make me go to therapeutic school but my mom was like no she doesn’t need that she’s fine mind you i hadn’t gotten out of bed done anything in months so she sends me to this place i do every extracurricular start anything i can but it’s hard no one is interested in anything it’s a bunch of kids who were bullied in public school or had bad mental health and kinda rude and judgy so just obviously awful mix no one interested in what i start but i try to get a food pantry most kids come from less privileged areas no one can bring food in im stupid for thinking they could but like ugh then a opportunity comes up i didn’t even submit it in college application but my school didn’t submit half my college applications until april so we’re even but a disability place will let you to get internship anywhere that you can secure one yourself so i get one at a university then i can list i had a internship but i don’t so that’s great im stupid and but still add him on linkedin and

okay i know it’s not stevie wonder, marvin gaye, or like LITERALLY ANYONE??? pls send help im going insane

I'd like to read some of his work, but can't find any opinions (critiques or positives) on him, at all, despite how influential he is. I think this would be the best place to ask this since I'm looking for a marxist influenced perspective, but not one biased toward academics, such as Balibar.

Demographics

• Gender: female
• Race/Ethnicity: white
• Residence: boston ma metro 
• Income Bracket: full pay
• Type of School: alternative(context is that my father passed in 2022 and my public school has been sending me here since september 2023)
• Hooks: location? (macalester gave me 1k travel scholarship to visit)

Intended Major(s): environmental studies/urban planning or history and will probably get more specific when i get further into college

Academics

• GPA (UW/W): 3.78 UW might be weighted by colleges (this is from freshman year, current school doesn’t do )
• Rank (or percentile): wasn’t reported (also freshman year)
• Senior Year Course Load: chem, pre-calc, graphic design, french, capstone, history, not sure what of that counts..

Standardized Testing

• didn’t submit

Extracurriculars/Activities

1. peer mentor to stroke survivor, got her back into school after months of avoidance and integrated her into my school (she was previously at my old public school), taught her photography which helped with her mobility which i also got displayed for the school’s art show (this wasn’t so difficult but was last minute)
2. peer mentor to other kids too ages 9-14 (school run as opposed to parent initiated) with different mental health struggles ranging from ODD and ADHD to ASD and MDD
3. raised $8k by selling 1$ photo cards for dana farber cancer center which gave my dad life saving treatment as a kid 
4. run 2 photography clubs at my school, one after school and one during the last class period of the day for those who can’t stay after school, most are under the age of 13
5. CIT at camp for kids whose parents have gone thru traumatic cancers (1st yr- photography CIT; 2nd yr- 9-12yr old CIT)
6. CIT for 8 weeks for 7-8 year old campers 
7. Student ambassador
8. Photo in popular magazine with over 1,000,000 monthly readers
9. Photos displayed in galleries around the world (across Europe, Asia, and America) 
10. top 1% in photo contests with 150k+ contestents

 

Didn’t think I could include but maybe I should have but got fine results: 

1. Attended CTY
2. started a food pantry for my school, where many kids are from working class areas and often come to school with no food or drink (and my school doesnt have cafeteria or any food offered)
3. Won Photography Scholastic Silver key senior year
4. paid intern at local r1 university environmental studies dept analyzing soil samples across river basin in different communities testing at college soil lab for chemicals, looking for socioeconomic discrepencies

 

Awards/Honors

1. didn’t list any

Letters of Recommendation

chem teacher- she relates to me and is proud but kinda scary

history teacher- father figure 10/10 but idk what he would have said

Interviews

(Briefly reflect on interview experiences, if applicable.)

i was kinda awkward in the two that i did (denison and wheaton) and they were both online

Essays

i only did one supplemental and it was at wheaton (basically applied to all the schools that didnt have one) and i talked about my mentoring 

personal statement ppl liked but was probably over edited or under edited idk i didnt like it but basically talked about coming out of my shell and coming to this school with a stuffed bear which i gave to the girl in stroke recovery

Decisions by acceptance rate, descending

$= 10k USD of merit aid

again, i dont need aid but it's nice to feel wanted

Acceptances:

• >!$$$ Lesley University EA (94%)!<
• >!$$$ New England College RD (92%)!<
• >!$$$ University of New England RD (92%)!<
• >!$$$ Colby-Sawyer College RD (90%)!<
• >!$$ Elms College RD (85%)!<
• >!$$ Nichols College RD (81%)!<
• >!$$$$ Dean College EA (74%)!<
• >!$$$$$ Wheaton College (massachusetts) EA (68%)!<
• >!$$ Sarah Lawrence College RD (62%)!<
• >!Bard College EA (50.7%)!<
• >!$$$$ Clark University (massachusetts) RD (49%)!<
• >!Brandeis University EA (45%) !<
• >!$$ Macalester College RD (28%)!<
• >!Skidmore College RD (21%)!<
• >!Bates College RD (15%) !<

Waitlists:

• >!Sewannee University of the South EA (51%)!<

Rejections:

• >!Mount Holyoke College RD (36%)!<
• >!Denison University RD (17.4%)!<
• >!Williams College RD (7.98%)!<

When I originally wanted to apply to schools, I only wanted to apply to 5: Mount Holyoke, Wheaton, Skidmore, Brandeis, and Bates. These have been my top colleges for years, but with encouragement from family, I broadened my list during applications. During decisions, I realized I was right all along because a safety isn't just a safety if you'd be so happy going there. I've extended my deadlines and I'm currently between>! Bates, which I'm touring tomorrow, Brandeis, and Wheaton, and I have until May 15. !<