u/Pinkstar161

This is difficult because I actually really liked the album musically. My favorite is Freak because I fell in love with the instrumental and the vocal snippet and then the whole song just tied it all together. I also love Oh Well production wise, Kiss Me, and Stay. I was listening to the album on repeat the day it was released but as I listened I had this underlying anxiety that has lingered. I suffer from anxiety attacks anyway, but after listening to Petal despite loving it musically, I felt my anxiety amp up and it’s been worse than I remember it ever being. I do admit the lyrics to the songs are very dark and there is just an overall dark vibe to it. The photos are unsettling and she clearly wrote it from a very low vibration place. And it is by no means her best album. It’s probably her worst if I’m honest but it’s not bad. Despite my love of the music though, I think I do need to step away from her music for a bit because I fear it is having a subconscious negative affect on me. Don’t know if anyone else feels this way but I feel like I’m probably not alone.

Felt like I was in the music video for a minute. If I’d been driving down a windy road would have been even better.

I had a tonsil stone that was deep in a crypt but still visible for a few weeks. Something did come up during a yawn a few days ago but I caught a cold/allergies this past week and I wanted to look down my throat and saw I had a pretty prominent stone sticking out at the bottom of my tonsil where the one I’d noticed weeks ago was. In the past, to dislodge them, what works for me sometimes is flexing my throat to make them pop out so I was doing that a couple times and then suddenly it just disappeared. I tried to see if it moved lower by checking behind my tongue but it was gone. I didn’t feel it go down my throat but either I did because it was right at the back of my throat/bottom of my tonsil and probably wouldn’t have easily moved forward into my mouth or I don’t know if it could have gotten sucked into the tonsil crypt so it’s now invisible. It’s just it looked pretty big so I don’t know. I seem to have others that are hidden in other pockets.

My sister was playing I Feel it Coming and my mom was surprised to know that it was sung by The Weeknd because she swore it was MJ. This affirms my logic to describe him to older generations who haven’t heard of him as a modern day MJ. I know he has his own style and sound but he truly is the closest thing we have to MJ today.