u/PrabhavXFaded

I don't really know why I'm writing this. I think I just need to get these thoughts out because they've been stuck in my head for a long time.

Lately, it feels like every single day starts and ends with guilt. No matter what I do, I always feel like it isn't enough. Every mistake feels bigger than it actually is, and every failure stays in my head for weeks or even months. I can forget good things about myself within minutes, but somehow I remember every bad thing I've ever done.

The hardest part isn't even failing anymore. It's the feeling that I'm disappointing my parents.

They've spent years sacrificing so much for me. They've worked hard, worried about me, supported me, and believed in me even when I couldn't believe in myself. I notice them getting older. I notice the grey hairs, how tired they look after work, the things they quietly give up without ever complaining. I see all of it, and instead of feeling motivated, I just feel guilty.

I keep thinking, "After everything they've done for me... what have I actually given them in return?"

Whenever they ask me how my studies are going, I automatically say, "I'm fine." Not because I want to lie, but because I don't know how to explain what's going on inside my head. I don't know how to tell them that I'm trying, but my own mind keeps convincing me that trying doesn't matter if the results aren't good enough.

Sometimes I avoid looking them in the eyes. I sit at the dinner table staring at my plate because I'm scared that if I look up, I'll somehow see disappointment, even though they've never actually said the things my mind tells me every day.

When my results come out, I hide them for as long as I can. I delay the conversation because the silence feels easier than facing what I imagine they're going to think about me. I know that probably sounds irrational, but that's honestly how it feels.

I compare myself to everyone else all the time. I see other people making their parents proud, achieving things, moving forward with their lives, and I can't help wondering why I feel so stuck. It feels like everyone else knows where they're going while I'm standing in the same place, watching time pass.

People tell me that my parents love me, that they care about me, and I know they do. The problem isn't them. The problem is my own mind. It keeps replaying every failure, every regret, every missed opportunity until I start believing those moments define who I am. It's exhausting living with a brain that constantly argues against every kind thing people say about you.

I don't want to keep feeling this way. I don't want guilt to be the first thing I feel every morning or the last thing I think about before I sleep. I don't want every conversation with my parents to feel like I'm carrying a weight they can't see.

I think I miss the version of myself that believed mistakes were just mistakes instead of proof that I wasn't enough.

If anyone has ever felt this way like you love your parents so much that the fear of disappointing them becomes overwhelminghow did you deal with it? Right now, I just feel tired of fighting my own thoughts every single day.

TLDR:

I constantly feel like I'm disappointing my parents despite how much they've sacrificed for me, and the guilt has become overwhelming. Every mistake feels like proof that I'm not enough, making it hard to believe the love and support they give me. I'm exhausted from fighting these thoughts every day and just want to know if anyone else has felt this way and how they got through it.

Uh, so hi. I kinda need some help. My friend is currently in 10th standard (he’s 16), and I was wondering if anyone could help by providing study materials, notes, or any useful resources. It would really mean a lot. Thank you :)

Hi everyone.

I'm from the PCB stream, and to be honest, I'm feeling completely lost right now.

NEET didn't go the way I spent years hoping it would. My CUET score isn't good either, and it feels like every plan I built for myself is slowly falling apart. Watching people move forward while I'm still trying to figure out where I even belong has been harder than I expected.

I've been looking into Biotechnology, but I have no idea which colleges I still have a realistic chance of getting into with my score. At this point, I'm open to hearing about other courses too anything that still has a decent future.

If anyone has been in a similar situation or knows what options I still have, I'd genuinely appreciate your advice. Right now, I just don't want to make another wrong decision.

Thank you.

myquals
Got my CUET results and I'm a bit confused about what to apply for.

My percentiles:

• English: 57.57
• Biology: 47.62
• Chemistry: 45.07
• General Test: 59.04

which is very very lesss but still koi chance he kya kuch milne ka ?? pls tell me which course i can opt

I don't really know why I'm writing this. I think I just need to get these thoughts out because they've been stuck in my head for a long time.

Lately, it feels like every single day starts and ends with guilt. No matter what I do, I always feel like it isn't enough. Every mistake feels bigger than it actually is, and every failure stays in my head for weeks or even months. I can forget good things about myself within minutes, but somehow I remember every bad thing I've ever done.

The hardest part isn't even failing anymore. It's the feeling that I'm disappointing my parents.

They've spent years sacrificing so much for me. They've worked hard, worried about me, supported me, and believed in me even when I couldn't believe in myself. I notice them getting older. I notice the grey hairs, how tired they look after work, the things they quietly give up without ever complaining. I see all of it, and instead of feeling motivated, I just feel guilty.

I keep thinking, "After everything they've done for me... what have I actually given them in return?"

Whenever they ask me how my studies are going, I automatically say, "I'm fine." Not because I want to lie, but because I don't know how to explain what's going on inside my head. I don't know how to tell them that I'm trying, but my own mind keeps convincing me that trying doesn't matter if the results aren't good enough.

Sometimes I avoid looking them in the eyes. I sit at the dinner table staring at my plate because I'm scared that if I look up, I'll somehow see disappointment, even though they've never actually said the things my mind tells me every day.

When my results come out, I hide them for as long as I can. I delay the conversation because the silence feels easier than facing what I imagine they're going to think about me. I know that probably sounds irrational, but that's honestly how it feels.

I compare myself to everyone else all the time. I see other people making their parents proud, achieving things, moving forward with their lives, and I can't help wondering why I feel so stuck. It feels like everyone else knows where they're going while I'm standing in the same place, watching time pass.

People tell me that my parents love me, that they care about me, and I know they do. The problem isn't them. The problem is my own mind. It keeps replaying every failure, every regret, every missed opportunity until I start believing those moments define who I am. It's exhausting living with a brain that constantly argues against every kind thing people say about you.

I don't want to keep feeling this way. I don't want guilt to be the first thing I feel every morning or the last thing I think about before I sleep. I don't want every conversation with my parents to feel like I'm carrying a weight they can't see.

I think I miss the version of myself that believed mistakes were just mistakes instead of proof that I wasn't enough.

If anyone has ever felt this way like you love your parents so much that the fear of disappointing them becomes overwhelminghow did you deal with it? Right now, I just feel tired of fighting my own thoughts every single day.

**TLDR:**

I constantly feel like I'm disappointing my parents despite how much they've sacrificed for me, and the guilt has become overwhelming. Every mistake feels like proof that I'm not enough, making it hard to believe the love and support they give me. I'm exhausted from fighting these thoughts every day and just want to know if anyone else has felt this way and how they got through it.