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I’m very exhausted from school, extremely burnt out and depressed. I’ve left offerings but I haven’t been able to sit with her I haven’t even lit her candles. I haven’t talked with her. I’ve looked for offerings everyday in passing but I feel horrible like I’m neglecting her, how can I show my love and respect for her while I’m in this state?

To put it simply my friend suggested I reach out to a deity, I want to find direction in my life and guidance and so I pulled from my tarot cards, each card, the star, judgment, the hermit, ace of wands. Each card seemed to be something lit in the dark, and each meaning seemed to connect with her. I researched her some a few years ago but I don’t know what to do. I’m scared of doing these things and I’m especially scared of doing something wrong or offending her. What advice do you have?

I’ve been on abilify about a month now and it’s helped me so much but now the binge eating has started. I used to have BED but I managed to fight it off and get rid of it mostly along with 60 lbs. it’s helped my confidence so much but now I’m extremely bloated and I’m terrified of going back to how it was. Yesterday I ate almost two whole large pizzas, (around 4-5k calories total) and I feel so ashamed. I’ve talked about metformin with my doctor but she wanted to wait to see if I actually needed it. Do any of you guys have tips that will help with this? I’m losing my mind, as well as experiences with metformin. Thanks!

I have severe scopophobia that leaves me housebound, yesterday I had a panic attack after driving for five minutes and had to head back home. Anyone have any tips of small tiny tiny steps I can take to help it? I’ve noticed I’m getting more panic attacks lately and big steps for exposure therapy just arnt working

I’ve typed myself as a 5 since the start but I’m starting to question it. Based on what I’ve read and watched regarding differentiating the two this is what I’m conflicted about

-I am a people pleaser and I’m overly sweet to people, complimenting them a lot. My reasoning is because people will leave you alone, I avoid conflict because conflict = attention and it’s annoying having to deal with arguments about things you don’t care about. I like making people smile with compliments, but everything we do is self serving and my reasoning for being so sweet is probably just to project that image of me, around people I’m closest to (which is just family) I am not a people pleaser, yes I try and be nice because that is simply the right thing to do but I’m comfortable voicing my opinions and unmasking, and I have no problem with my family setting firm boundaries and bluntly telling said people when I don’t want to talk, don’t want to hang out in the same room, etc. it’s exhausting having to be the way I am in public but I do enjoy being kind. I avoid feeling angry because it’s an uncomfortable feeling and I can get caught up in the moment and embarrass myself. I get hot and on the verge of tears and the idea of an argument, and if I do get in an argument I am petrified about getting something wrong, though maybe that fear is because I am scared to be wrong and scared that I won’t know enough to win said argument and therefore I’ll be stupid

-people say 9’s are more dissociated and numb, I think that’s very true for me, I feel emotions true but rarely (though im not sure how much mental illness and disorder goes into this, probably a lot, also goes into my other points) but I also tend to break down and rationalize emotions when I do feel them. However when I very very very rarely get angry I can’t rationalize it right away because I’m stuck in the moment, I’ve gotten better at this but basically, like a 5, every emotion I feel I experience like I’m observing myself like an object, sometimes I don’t when for example I’m happy because why would I need to break it down, besides there’s usually an obvious reason, but with things like sadness I am in my head (which I live in my head I will add that, I live entirely in my head and interact almost not at all with the physical world) I will break down to core human instincts and reactions to distance myself from it and be objective, like if sadness is triggered due to rejection.

-when something comes up that is too much emotionally I will set it aside and avoid the feeling before deep diving into it to break it down. Emotions aren’t something we can control and when it gets too much even me rationalizing and turning it into a puzzle won’t work, because the emotion itself won’t go away, so the first thing I do in that situation is distract myself.

-I love ‘what if’s’ which is a thing in both types but I need there to be some logic in there, it’s just useless if it makes no sense logically and if there is no possibly it could happen. For example (which is also an example I took from a post about the differences in the types) if talking about humans flying, it would piss me off to just think about some magic just making it happen or something like a potion with no further reasoning. I would wonder how biologically humans could fly, their weight, how high with said weight, how big they would have to be, where they would go and what they would connect to, would it even be with wings? What animals can fly without wings, maybe gliding? That’s the thought process

-I don’t get super focused and deep into one subject. I do get focused and somewhat deep but I won’t explore every nook and cranny because sometimes just the general idea is enough, though I want to know the process behind the general idea, like I want to know what way gears turn in a clock and how it’s set to move every second but I don’t care about what type of glass is used or the specific type of gear needed, just a general idea of what the gears would look like while I’m more focused on the how. I also have many interests which I’ve heard 5’s usually stick with one or two things. I have around 5 interests, all of them being forms of media but I figure media is too broad to be considered one topic, and I don’t actively seek out every scrap of information about a show, I would rather just watch it and notice things myself, if I wonder about something I’ll look it up but I won’t actively look up ‘hidden secrets in x show and how they made the color grading’ that’s something I will stumble upon naturally because I don’t have the energy to look up something I just don’t care about like that, which I guess could be a sign I don’t get intensely into something, I feel I get intensely into something but I won’t try and figure out everything about it like that, I’ll come up with my own observations and curiosities, if I like the cinematography I’m not going to care about what made the actor get into the show

-I love to learn and it’s all I really care about, but I don’t think I collect knowledge out of fear because what I do collect is information I would never need to use, why would knowing about the directors random decision that made the movie really good quell my fear? It’s more so because I like to know about it and admittedly because I don’t want to be seen as lesser because I know less, but everyone gets that in fandoms where they collect and hoard information because otherwise you’re at risk of not being a ‘true fan’. I do enjoy validation on my intelligence though and it’s probably the most flattering compliment I could get, I do things for recognition of ‘hey I know this look’ both from others like teachers and myself so I can feel comfortable and stable in my competence.

-I feel fairly positive about people. Though I avoid people and don’t interact with them (which may be why I feel that way, because I don’t have to deal with people) I don’t have any grudges against people, I like to think I’m a very understanding person and I will always see all points of view, even if I don’t agree with someone I will force myself to see through their eyes and I enjoy doing so and exploring that. I like interacting with others sometimes, I’m scared of being rejected by a group and that along with I know they will demand energy from me which I won’t be able to provide and don’t want to provide, but other than that I like talking to people and it’s nice to feel included sometimes, even if I just hang around like a cat. this is why all my friendships must be low maintenance, otherwise I will ghost the person if too much of my energy is taken up by them, I won’t tell them to stop talking to me though because I don’t want an argument and I don’t want to talk about why I don’t want to talk, I’ll just avoid them because somehow my brain says it’s nicer to ghost them than to tell them hey can you stop doing this/texting me so much it’s so draining. Though I do apologize and explain in depth my absence to people who let me be that way and who are my closet friends who understand

-I don’t set boundaries verbally at least or firmly with people im not close with, instead I’ll just avoid them. I am super passionate about my autonomy and I have ranted for hours countless times about people who pissed me off so badly because they threatened my autonomy. I’m extremely resistant to people threatening it and i will hold a grudge over that most of the time and rebel against them.

I can’t think of anything more right now in conflicted about but if you really read all of that I’m impressed and thank you for taking the time to do so and I understand if you didn’t because even I wouldn’t, I didn’t expect to write this much dear lord. I’m 100% sure I could’ve simplified this but the reason I struggle is because the differences are so simplified

Hi, I just started 5mg or 2mg Abilify I don’t remember that’s just a guess I don’t handle my meds, I literally only have taken one dose, so far I’m feeling faint, nauseous, both tired and like I can’t sleep, also my vision is kind of blurry and I’m really dissociated rn? Am I making things and is it possible to even get these side affects after one dose, also I’m really paranoid and low-key got bowel issues. Also the dissociation is like the same level as the worst dissociation periods I’ve had, like my mind is empty yet I can talk so much, brain is quiet but my inner thoughts feel real. Am I just psyching myself out? So much brain fog and I feel very emotional. Also my legs feel very restless and my limbs and jaw feel heavy

His typing- ISTJ sx/sp 6w5, 683 LFVE

So first off I have autism and it makes things more tricky because female friendships are hard for me and I naturally am uncomfortable because I feel pressure to be a girls friend in a girl way if that makes sense, I care more about girls opinions and what they think of me and I’m sensitive about the way I act because I’m not like a girl, I don’t look it I don’t act it but I am and I’m scared they can see it or I’ll be rejected from those friendships because of it so it’s harder to let my guard down. Also I am demisexual which makes it hard to decipher if I actually like girls or not. Anyways I don’t get crushes often, I’ve had maybe 4 in my life and my second one was a girl who I really liked, I didn’t want to date her really I wanted to just be her favorite person and to be more affectionate with her. I’ve looked into queer-platonic relationships and that’s pretty much what I felt for her, I really liked her and she was the only person I felt comfortable being affectionate with, I wanted her to hold me and like kiss me on the head but never anything more than that, I just wanted that kind of affection and sometimes more but it never felt like ‘I want to kiss her’ outright if that makes sense. Also a few months ago I felt attraction I think to a girl in my class, she was funny kind extroverted very smart and stood up for me, I felt my heart flutter and I wanted to get close to her and to share affection but again not anything more. I can’t imagine myself in a relationship with a girl, like I can’t imagine sex or making out, but I kind of can with guys? The rest of my crushes were guys and I felt more romantic I guess towards them, like I imagined the classic date stuff, more affection, things like that and sometimes yes sexual, but only with the guy I dated after a few months. I’ve called myself bi but I don’t know if I’m allowed to call myself that if the relationships I see with guys are more ‘normal relationships’ and the ones I see with girls are more complicated. Maybe it’s because I’m demisexual or maybe I just wanted to be friends with them? I don’t know, I don’t think I wanted to just be friends w the girl I liked back then because I confessed I liked her and cried when she didn’t like me back

This is a ramble that I’m typing as I’m thinking it so it’s not polished and may be hard to read. The term black and white thinking always bothered me, it’s not black or white, I see the grey areas I love exploring them I can acknowledge them, but I just realized it’s just a super simple phrase. It can be true for some people for sure but I always thought it meant thinking like you can’t see grey areas but in my experience it’s all or nothing thinking, that fits better imo, it’s that it’s either one extreme or the other, too energetic and talkative vs burnt out not talking at all, don’t clean the room at all or clean all of it, super friendly vs bitchy there’s no in between in my actions or behavior or often in the way of thinking yeah that’s true but I just don’t see it as black and white. It’s all or nothing not black and white, I can see the greys I just can’t seem to balance in the middle I can only manage to be on one extreme. Just a realization I had okay bye

I have zero complains. That may be the best horror movie or movie in general I’ve ever seen. Now I can see how you would think I’m just glazing mark but no I mean the pacing was fucking perfect somehow I was so focused on it the whole time I mean it demands your attention you have to pay attention or you’ll miss something it’s amazing and never boring I literally restarted it after like 10 mins and wasn’t bored despite already watching those first 10 mins, the music and sound design??? Holy shit it is so strong on that suit, the movie is a master in literally so many things, the sound design, the cinematography was insane some of the best if not the best I’ve ever seen, these things on their own make a great movie but when a movie mastered all of these different things I mean that’s impressive, I have so many compliments to this movie. Only complaint I would have isn’t even a complaint, I’ve just watched mark enough to hear mark instead of Simon while he acted and it sometimes took me out of it but then I was sucked back in. The ending is evil though

My toe is currently throbbing and bleeding like crazy and it’s so hard to not keep going, it would be nice to feel less alone. Also messed up my cuticles on my fingers and now my nails feel weird, but ingrown toe shit is the worst. Swear to god I just took like a protractor compass to it. I feel disgusting but i can’t stop it’s a cycle. I just dig until it bleeds too bad to see while dig into the skin and wait just to pick at it again once it’s healed

I don’t want to spoil two much but it’s about a forensic psychologist and a catholic priest (i think) who try to figure out if things are supernatural or not. The priest (and all the supernatural stuff, demons and the like) perfectly incapsulate how it feels to have intrusive thoughts (i mean the demons speak and act exactly like how my intrusive thoughts do) and magical thinking, connecting dots that arnt there (though bc it’s a supernatural show they are real but like the character and his actions/thoughts still stands) moral ocd, feeling like your thoughts are being listened to and you need to ‘repent’ for intrusive thoughts, while the other main character who is the forensic psychologist is the logical side of the brain that tries to rationalize all the ocd thoughts and break them down to their base components to understand and perceive the ocd thoughts in a more logical unharmful scientific way. The cases of figuring out if something is supernatural in this show feels exactly like how it is to go back and forth with your ocd thoughts. Anyways this was me rambling and yapping sorry for the lack of structure but if you’ve watched this show let me know what you think, I feel very seen, haven’t finished yet I just started watching last night but I just had to yap

I’ve been more aware of the time of my downs the past few months, the typical in this sub I’m guessing, 2 weeks before my period I go into a deep deep depression. I just started my period today so I’m feeling better but those two weeks totally fucked up everything (like the two weeks I have every month, though this month was a little worse). I didn’t go to school for the whole two weeks and now I’m failing many classes, how the hell am I supposed to fix this, I’ve been on ssris, switching to snri soon, and I don’t want to go on birth control, I’m scared of the side effects, but genuinely this shit is a disability 😭 after some reflection I realize how much this has affected my life, especially in regards to school, like what the hell??? Also my antidepressants stop working almost completely for the 2 weeks so I’m like is my only option birth control?? I’m deadass about to not graduate highschool because of this 🤧 (also off topic but I did nnooot mean to post this like 5 times Reddit glitched)

So I struggle with bfrb (body focused reparative behaviors which are most of the time because of ocd) (along with other stuff) anyways I have trichotillomania and dermatillomania, basically the compulsion to pull out hair and pick skin, schools almost over and I think it might be getting worse because of school stress? I’m in guanfacine and going to start a new med for ocd but it’s really fucking up my attendance (which was already bad) I’m currently an hour late for school because I can’t stop picking at my skin, it’s happened the past few school days. Anyone else struggle with this and how can I snap myself out of the trance? I just spent like twenty minutes looking for tweezers