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My toe is currently throbbing and bleeding like crazy and it’s so hard to not keep going, it would be nice to feel less alone. Also messed up my cuticles on my fingers and now my nails feel weird, but ingrown toe shit is the worst. Swear to god I just took like a protractor compass to it. I feel disgusting but i can’t stop it’s a cycle. I just dig until it bleeds too bad to see while dig into the skin and wait just to pick at it again once it’s healed

I don’t want to spoil two much but it’s about a forensic psychologist and a catholic priest (i think) who try to figure out if things are supernatural or not. The priest (and all the supernatural stuff, demons and the like) perfectly incapsulate how it feels to have intrusive thoughts (i mean the demons speak and act exactly like how my intrusive thoughts do) and magical thinking, connecting dots that arnt there (though bc it’s a supernatural show they are real but like the character and his actions/thoughts still stands) moral ocd, feeling like your thoughts are being listened to and you need to ‘repent’ for intrusive thoughts, while the other main character who is the forensic psychologist is the logical side of the brain that tries to rationalize all the ocd thoughts and break them down to their base components to understand and perceive the ocd thoughts in a more logical unharmful scientific way. The cases of figuring out if something is supernatural in this show feels exactly like how it is to go back and forth with your ocd thoughts. Anyways this was me rambling and yapping sorry for the lack of structure but if you’ve watched this show let me know what you think, I feel very seen, haven’t finished yet I just started watching last night but I just had to yap

I’ve been more aware of the time of my downs the past few months, the typical in this sub I’m guessing, 2 weeks before my period I go into a deep deep depression. I just started my period today so I’m feeling better but those two weeks totally fucked up everything (like the two weeks I have every month, though this month was a little worse). I didn’t go to school for the whole two weeks and now I’m failing many classes, how the hell am I supposed to fix this, I’ve been on ssris, switching to snri soon, and I don’t want to go on birth control, I’m scared of the side effects, but genuinely this shit is a disability 😭 after some reflection I realize how much this has affected my life, especially in regards to school, like what the hell??? Also my antidepressants stop working almost completely for the 2 weeks so I’m like is my only option birth control?? I’m deadass about to not graduate highschool because of this 🤧 (also off topic but I did nnooot mean to post this like 5 times Reddit glitched)

So I struggle with bfrb (body focused reparative behaviors which are most of the time because of ocd) (along with other stuff) anyways I have trichotillomania and dermatillomania, basically the compulsion to pull out hair and pick skin, schools almost over and I think it might be getting worse because of school stress? I’m in guanfacine and going to start a new med for ocd but it’s really fucking up my attendance (which was already bad) I’m currently an hour late for school because I can’t stop picking at my skin, it’s happened the past few school days. Anyone else struggle with this and how can I snap myself out of the trance? I just spent like twenty minutes looking for tweezers

My mom brought up buttons, inventing buttons, but I feel like that idea could be easily stolen and you can lose a lot of profits, I’m thinking open up a shop and sell your own shit. I was thinking bikes but I don’t know how to invent those, the biggest problem would be knowing how to make something and getting the materials to make something. What would you do?

Rate the dynamic I’m bored,

my brother (older): sx 1w2 5w6 (might be 4 wing tho) 4w5

me (younger): sp 5w4, 9w1 4w5

I just typed him so it’ll be fun to see what people think

Most of the time like many intps I’m quiet, respectful, not interactive in school, I don’t get close to people easy (sp5 iykyk) I’m very withdrawn but sometimes it’s like a switch flips in my brain. I’ll get comfortable with someone, not close friends, not really friends at all, more acquaintances, but you start a conversation and suddenly you find yourself awkwardly and loudly chatting away oversharing, literally JOKING AROUND with someone (which I like never do (and the times I do like the scenarios I’m talking about it’s met with deeep regret) with people I don’t know and am really close with) acting like you’ve known this person for any significant amount of time. This is a weird pattern I have. I’ll get comfortable in a moment, blab away, then I’m ashamed, embarrassed by my behavior, literally wanting to avoid school just because of how embarrassing it was to act like that. It also tends to ruin potential for friendships for me since I’ll act like I’ve known this person for years for like 30 minutes, and immediately the day after I won’t even look at them. It’s so embarrassing oh my godddd, but do yall get this too?? It’s so weird it’s like I’m literally a different person, sometimes it makes me question if I really am an Intp even though I am