u/PrincessMoss

I’m really going through it with some childhood trauma therapy work. It’s definitely exposing me to feelings I don’t think I have felt this deeply in a long time. My therapist is good and I feel safe with her.

But I feel sick to my stomach between sessions. Like I just want to vomit and can barely eat sometimes. And my mind keeps replaying my sessions over and over so much I can’t sleep.

I’ve never felt sick from therapy before? I don’t even know what to do.

(Not a therapist)

I usually just go once a week but I’ve been having a very difficult time lately with grief/trauma and l started going twice a week.

Last week I went 3x a week which felt like it led to a massive breakthrough but also low key insane like i’m addicted to therapy now. I have 2 sessions this week and I’m fighting the urge to ask for a 3rd again.

It’s too much, right?

I did infusions and troches 2021-2025 and it really transformed my life. I stopped because toward the end I felt like it wasn’t working the same anymore.

I went back for an infusion after 18mo off because I was grieving and my mental health was really truly bad. The infusion was gorgeous and I felt better for like a week. Doc put me on troches, 100mg once a week.

I only took them twice and both times I had severe SÌ the next day. I was in my luteal phase which I knew was a risk but I don’t think I can try again. It was very scary.

Context: CPTSD. I have or had PMDD, and am perimenopausal now and on hormone therapy when I wasn’t before. That’s the only real difference.

I guess I’m back to “nothing works for me”?!

I’ve been going through it all year after navigating a death in my family and a bunch of insane home repairs. Been on the lowest dose of estrogen patch (0.025mg) and progesterone but my obgyn suggested I go up to 200mg progesterone since I was suffering from insomnia.

We changed my dose a month ago and I can’t tell if it’s made things worse or life is just kicking my ass. She told me I could message her and we could try more estrogen or going back down to 100mg progesterone. But I don’t even know what to look for.

If you have successfully found your HRT sweet spot, what did you look for?

Also I’m 37, can’t believe I’m on HRT 😭 but yaz and psych meds were not doing the trick. I don’t have hot flashes, I’m just losing my mind.

Been in therapy my whole life and it never felt like it got anywhere. But I’m having a different experience with my IFS therapist. The way she sees my parts and is so gentle is doing something very disarming to me and it is making me uncomfortable. She feels suddenly important to me and I don’t like that because she is not a real figure in my life, she is a therapist who can move on at any time and has no personal stake in my life (or so I assume, because it is her job, and she is an excellent professional).

I don’t know what to do with the raw feelings. I feel like a moth to a flame because someone is exhibiting care to my yucky parts. I don’t want to feel this way towards someone who is only caring because it’s her job. It makes me feel pathetic and reinforces the story about my life which is that I am undeserving of love from people because I didn’t receive love as a child. She’s only caring because I signed up for this and my insurance pays her to care. It’s not real.

Also I hope my therapist doesn’t go on Reddit 😩

Considering traveling to see my therapist in person for an occasional long session. We are in the same state but not nearby so I have seen her for 6mo over video only.

Just wondering if anyone has done this and how it went. I haven’t seen a therapist in person since maybe 2019.