u/ProGamerGirl2006

We been together for about 5 months now…He is the love of my life and the one I wanna spend the rest of my life with and have kids of are own someday. I love him so much. Are relationship is very amazing! But recently I been having a bad gut feeling about something that I can’t quit know why or what it is. ITS GIVING ME SO MUCH ANXIETY! My heart is BEATING SO FAST!!! Recently he been hanging out with his girl best friend a lot recently like to the point it’s making me uncomfortable. And mind you she’s a LESBIAN. one day they got matching tattoos together on there fingers and it says promise. Like that made me even more uncomfortable! Like why did you get a matching tattoo with her but not me like wtf! I been wanting matching tattoos together for a while now! Also she has his SHEIN account and door dash account and she buys things for her self but first she has to ask. And she asks him for money too sometimes. It seems like she is always going to him for everything. He says it’s platonic. But is it really? He does much more for her. And it’s making me jealous. They even have matching shoes together. And I feel bad when I get jealous cause I don’t wanna feel that way and definitely don’t wanna feel like I’m not the first priority. He has bought me some expensive things. But idk I don’t feel like I’m the first priority. And when Somthing wrong he does not tell me first he goes to other women about it. And I’m not the first person he tells me something about that I should be the first one to know. But no she is the first to know. The day I met her I knew something was not right the energy and the bad anxiety I got when I met her and the whole time we watched tv, and they acted like they where uncomfortable or something. I had bad anxiety the whole time! And he dropped me off first and not her first like you can go passed my house first to drop her off like wtf. I even asked if I can be dropped off last and he said no your closer. And today is the day that my worst nightmare became real! Here’s some background story- “she’s a lesbian and she does dirty work to make extra cash and he said I should do that too. I been considering it for a while but I was like idk. And he said you guys could collab one day in the future and I’ll be the camera man. And I’m like idk 🤷🏽‍♀️ I’ll have to think about that. And after he said that and we talked about it I had a rush of anxiety and gut feeling that I don’t know why I get when he mentions her and stuff.” Back to today. My bf went to sleep for work and I had a big gut feeling I should look through is phone. So I did. I looked at his hidden photos…. And I saw my biggest fear. He took pictures of her in sexy lingerie and a butt plug and like nudity and then I saw a pic of her BOOB IN HIS MOUTH. MY HEART WAS POUNDING, my hands shaking, my body filled with so many emotions! I was over whelmed. Then I went out the room to process what I have just seen. Mind you she’s a lesbian! And she has a gf and my bf has a gf wich is me! I feel so betrayed. So I went back in the room and sat down by him looked at him for a bit and thinking I don’t even know you anymore. That is what was going on in my head like was this relationship a lie. How could he do that behind my fucking back. And why would he even think that was ok! So then I woke him up and asked him, “do you really love me.” He said “yeah” and my eyes swelled up with tears. I starting sobbing. And he asked wants wrong. I continued to cry for a bit and then I said. I saw that you took sexy pics of your lesbian bff and one pic of her boob in your

Mouth. And this was not like months ago it was literally this month of March! Like wtf. And he was still waking up so he asked again say again what h wrong. So I sobbed even more and told him and I started to have a panic attack and he said calm down. I need you to tell me calmly so I can understand…before calmly down I was hyperventilating and big tears running down my face. And then when I calmed down I told him and he said. That was not her. And I said yes it was and then he said no and then I said yes. And he said it was before we even met. I’m like no it has the new sheets that u bought! And he was it’s just for her dirty work we didn’t do nothing. And I was like yes you did her boob was in your mouth and ik it was cause I can tell it’s literally the same skin tone. And he said no it was a gift from a friend for my birthday before we even met. I’m like no it’s not. It’s literally her boob! Same skin tone and shape and it was literally the same day that the other pics where taken or the next day after those. And I could not stop sobbing. He deleted them few mins later and he said it won’t happen again. But how do I know he’s telling the truth? My trust is completely destroyed. Idk what to do. What should I do?

Oh and he still has tinder too! And he literally has a polaroid photo uploaded to it that I freaking took! And recent pics and a pic from one of are dates! Like wtffff! I told him to delete it but well look at that he didn’t!