u/PuzzleheadedEye877

I (f34) was with my ex (m31) for 6 years. It was the most awful 6 years, he broke a lot of promises because drink and d*ugs came first and has a serious issue with alcohol, d*ugs and gambling. It was me looking after him throughout the whole relationship, me buying us food and his alcohol & w**d, also his electric and cat stuff for his 4 cats, honestly it made me resent his cats because they was his cats and his responsibility but I was the one that was buying the cat stuff majority of the time and if you have 4 cats the cat food and other things add up really quick. He never had any money because he would spend his money on d*ugs and alcohol and it was me buying everything most of the time and it was starting to really get on my nerves. On top of that he was treating me like a bag of s*it, I felt like his mother rather than his girlfriend it was frustrating and embarrassing, long story short but he left me for the new girl that moved upstairs in his place, shes also heavily on drugs so I guess they will be perfect for each other, I feel a lot of emotions, I feel angry, jealous, free, im happy now I can finally enjoy my money to myself without looking after another adult but I feel ugly and worthless he left me for someone else after 6 years lol, I dont know what to do with myself because I dont feel like doing anything, I want to lose weight and do my hair and get new shoes but im scared I will bump into him and his new girlfriend since its a small town. I haven't heard from him since he asked me to come over at 11:45pm two days ago and I honestly dont want to but I got anxiety over bumping into them, I honestly hope she can make him happier than I ever did because he used to wake up every morning feeling depressed, he would slam doors and shout at things if he couldn't find them and it used to get me down a lot so I do hope he has happiness but obviously its still very sore at the moment, what do i do with my time now im not waking up to him everyday and looking after him everyday and feeding him?

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I was with my ex for 6 years. Im homeless so have always stayed at his places. I paid for everything 90% of the time. Our food, his beers, his w**d, cigarettes, electric, his cat things because he has 4 cats i mean everything, he paid for things here and there when he got paid or borrowed but mainly it was me. He has serious addiction issues,.alcohol d*ugs and online gambling, im clean from d*ugs and have been for 2 years so all i do is sometimes drink. A new girl has moved upstairs in his place, shes heavily on drugs and I mean heavily, shes a s*x worker. We had a big argument on sunday when I was at my family's place because he was talking to me like trash so I said im not going to see you. He got paid Monday and I thought he was going to reach out but never did. He left me for her and I haven't heard from him since Monday night. It hurts so so so so bad. I know I deserve better and every time I was with him I wasnt happy but I am so so so hurt after 6 years he leaves me for her, what shes got that I dont have i will never know. He got paid $800 and didht even pay me back the 40 he borrowed despite me saying something about it on Monday. I feel broken and lost and ugly as hell. He always told me to lose weight and now left me for someone so much skinnier (shes really thin, wears tight jeans with crop tops and im jealous) I feel suicidal and I dont know what to do or how to reach out. Im looking constantly at my phone for a text that never comes. I dont know why im so hung up when I dont even think I love him. Im in so much pain physically and mentally. Will it get better?

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I was with my ex for 6 years. Im homeless so have always stayed at his places. I paid for everything 90% of the time. Our food, his beers, his w**d, cigarettes, electric, his cat things because he has 4 cats i mean everything, he paid for things here and there when he got paid or borrowed but mainly it was me. He has serious addiction issues,.alcohol d*ugs and online gambling, im clean from d*ugs and have been for 2 years so all i do is sometimes drink. A new girl has moved upstairs in his place, shes heavily on drugs and I mean heavily, shes a s*x worker. We had a big argument on sunday when I was at my family's place because he was talking to me like trash so I said im not going to see you. He got paid Monday and I thought he was going to reach out but never did. He left me for her and I haven't heard from him since Monday night. It hurts so so so so bad. I know I deserve better and every time I was with him I wasnt happy but I am so so so hurt after 6 years he leaves me for her, what shes got that I dont have i will never know. He got paid $800 and didht even pay me back the 40 he borrowed despite me saying something about it on Monday. I feel broken and lost and ugly as hell. He always told me to lose weight and now left me for someone so much skinnier (shes really thin, wears tight jeans with crop tops and im jealous) I feel suicidal and I dont know what to do or how to reach out. Im looking constantly at my phone for a text that never comes. I dont know why im so hung up when I dont even think I love him. Im in so much pain physically and mentally. Will it ever get better?