u/Puzzleheaded_Monk540

First let me start off by saying I do believe in LOA and it has worked for me in the past. Not 100% but more than enough for me to believe in it, even if I struggle in some places.

That being said. The main NG sub (which I won’t tag here) has some of the worst mod abuse I’ve seen on Reddit.

For starters, I had a huge success with a small manifestation experiment that manifested into something 40x fold. Something $4 turned out to come to me in $180+. Mods deleted it because it wasn’t considered big enough of a success story. Other members loved my post and complained at the mods. Some reached out to me asking for a copy and paste so they could save it. But yeah, lesson learned. 40x a result is still not deemed good enough to be “successful”. Make it make sense.

Posted another thread about an SP manifestation that failed last winter. Got a ton of responses. Some good, some bad, and many confusing.

Well earlier this week I posted how I was still struggling 1.5 years in, and mods deleted it quickly. Asked why and I got a condescending essay accusing me about how deleting the last one wasted thousands and thousands of members hours who poured their support to me. Reminder about 25-45% were positive. Many were contradictory to NG teachings and some were straight up cyberbully abusive mocking me of my misery. Right, I wasted thousands of hours of trolls and condescending assholes.

I deleted the post due to security reasons, but I guess NG mods can’t even comprehend that’s a common reason people deleted their posts in the first place?

If the NG sub/community can’t even allow discussions to help struggling people, then what is the point of even having a community? To only showcase the positive successes while hiding the reality that not everyone will succeed? At this point I’m wondering if mods are part of some big network scam to make NG look shiny and perfect so that whoever are the coaches in the network can funnel more into their marketing channels.

I’ve personally spoke with a ex-NG mod who was 10000X more helpful. I could tell they stepped down because they too felt like the overall moderation was going to shit.

I’ve had some of my own discussion posts deleted simply because they challenged NG ideas too much. I don’t think these are bad things to bring up because how does one grow in understanding if they see contradictions in the teachings?

Mods will delete my posts, but not comments from delusional Trump supporters posting garbage like “I manifested Trump and ICE I’m glad they’re rounding up all these immigrants”. Like wtf?

Fuck NG mods.

TL;DR: I have had multiple successes with LOA, but 16 months of manifestation practices and my ex still has not returned. Need help.

Let me first start out by saying that I do believe in LOA and have had multiple successes such as manifesting a $20K bonus out of nowhere, an unexpected raise to six figures, winning the lottery, and even manifesting $180+ worth of gourmet cookies when I was just simply trying to manifest a $4 one. I tend to have a rationale mind so there are some parts of LOA that I tend to question, but even so I am still able to manifest great things.

That is why I’m frustrated that I still haven’t been able to manifest my ex. It has been 16 months and no text, call, DM…nothing. In fact it currently seems like things took a worse turn killing my motivation.

Last winter I went all in with SATS. My visualization was that we were spending Christmas together with a new Christmas tree and new sofa. I visualized and felt the emotions and feelings as if it were real. I lived in the state. I wasn’t sure how it was all going to come together, but I still pushed through.

Well the sofa and tree came. I got great last minute deals that only required a fraction of the sale prices to get them. However, no GF. I spent Christmas alone completely devastated.

Later on I found out she wasn’t even in the country. She was traveling abroad.

I posted about this (now deleted) and got an overwhelming about of responses. Many were very helpful and supportive. Others were not so. Some were even straight up bullying me, blaming that it was my fault and mocking me because they were able to manifest their exes. I was frustrated because I was getting so much contradicting advıce:

“You attached a deadline, that’s why it didn’t work” // “Deadline or specific date manifestations are possible! Even Neville wrote about it, saying if it’s on a Sunday then feel that visualization on a Sunday”

“You weren’t specific enough”//“You were too specific with the Holiday and that’s why you failed”

“it wasn’t meant to be.”// “Somethings your problem then because I got my S-P back.”

“What if you forgot about her and instead became open to someone new?”// “Keep focusing on her, don’t give up.”

“Reread Neville.”// “Try reading other authors like Ram Dass.”

“You can’t manifest against someone else’s will!” // “Everyone is you pushed out, ignore the 3D.”

“You need to detach.” // “you need to keep persisting.”

Honestly, I was so burnt out. But I also felt that if I gave up then that meant it would definitely never manifest.

I fell into the trap of overconsuming LOA content on Youtube. Talked to different gurus. Got the same run around: contradictions and sales pitches to buy an overpriced course or client call.

Frustrated, I stopped. I still felt bitter because this was taking so long. I decided I want to detach.

Maybe about a month ago I had a dream that I ran into her at a store. When I woke up, I took that as a sign that my visualizations had reached my subconscious, and that it would come to fruition soon.

About 2 weeks ago I stumbled upon her social media page and saw that she had reposted a few anti-male posts (man-hating, all men are misogynists, etc). I was shocked because I had never taken her to be that kind of person. When we were together she was very angelic, down to earth, sweet, caring, sensitive, beautiful on the inside and out. That is why I fell so deeply in love with her. Seeing this behavior felt like such a shock.

Lately I have been seeing a lot of angel numbers. Today, I saw 2222 and 222. To me it felt like a symbolic gesture of togetherness. As I laid in bed about to sleep, I felt a pull to check her page. I hesitated because I thought what if this is my insecurity? But after thinking I felt that this pull isn’t a coincidence, so I looked.

Turns out now she has a new man and posted a photoshoot with them holding hands. He’s shrimpier, skinny, big glasses, looks like a doormat nerd which blew my ego. I also saw she posted even more angry feminist/anti-male content. Honestly I felt so defeated and disappointed.

I’m stumped. How did my subconscious manifest a version of her to be aligned with a hateful ideology? In all my SATs and imaginings of us being together again, never once did I picture or feel her as someone who is anti-male. When we were together she was never like this.

For over a year I affirmed that we are soul mates, destined to be with each other, and that we are each others dream partner. Our relationship was the best one I have ever had in my life and it profoundly changed me to become a better person.

So how the hell did I end up here? 16 months later following LOA only to feel worse, questioning whether this actually works or not? Today I feel like I don’t want to even see her anymore. How do you proceed with a manifestation when the 3D shows you something that completely turns you off? Am I wasting my time and effort trying to keep forcing motivation? Or would this be giving up, and then the responsibility of it falls on me if it never happens?

Please help. I’m so frustrated.

DAE find it hard as an AM to find other Asians to socialize with without alcohol being involved?

I’m in my mid 30s and live in NYC. Many Asian circles here seem to be heavily involved in the nightlife scene which involves drinking. For health reasons I recently made the choice to go sober. Now I’m finding that many Asian social events are held together by alcohol. And when you tell people you’re sober you often get treated like *you’re* the odd one. Alcohol seems to be such a pervasive glue for Asian social circles, even fitness and sports related ones (eg, going out for drinks after a game)

I don’t understand. It feels like we’re picking and choosing when the 3D is real or not.

If we’re taught that the 3D isn’t real, then technically our manifestations aren’t either when they appear in the 3D. Am I missing something here?

I think the phrasing is where the problem lies. Maybe saying the “3D isn’t real” is the wrong approach. Instead something like “the 3D is impermanent; it is always changing” would be better.

Because if the 3D wasn’t truly real then why aren’t you falling through the chair or floor that you’re standing or sitting on?

Someone enlighten me here.