Anyone Here who hates Rakhi Festival ?
It's been more than 5 years since I stopped talking to my sister Even though We live in the same house, Whenever I Had to talk which is urgent like calling my father or informing anything, I go near her room without looking at her, I stare at wall and inform her anything if it is urgent and whenever I need something I address Her as "SOMEONE" like can SOMEONE(her) give me your phone I need to call father. I only ask if it is very very urgent.
She is 4 years younger than me, She constantly used to insult me for various reasons and Always tried to demean me I dropped out of Btech due to severe mental health issues and suffered through a lot, didn't got job at the right time, so according to her i am a failure and don't deserve respect, So during family discussions Whenever I talk she along with my big sister gang up on me, They pick up small thing I say during the discussion and try to fight me.
My parents always sides with them, During one heated arguments my father said, "Vallu Aadavallu intiki maha lakshmi valla UCCHA(URINE) Tagina thappu ledu".
Whenever this festival comes I need to act like her brother and have to let her tie rakhi and then everything goes normal and we don't talk.
It feels like dying cause I don't want to see her face or anything to do with her, cause the level of insults i endured from her and another older sister gave me suicidal thoughts.
My family is not led by my father but my mother, she thinks she is actual goddess cause she is the one who do pooja and everything that is related to god.
My mother have a very complex relationship with my both sisters. generally whenever we as a family encounter any problem, normal mothers consult and discuss with their husbands or with elderly people, but my mother, she ask my sister who is younger in my family.
Like suppose, should we go to hospital for a check up ? My mother asks my sister then my sister complete goes spiritual mode like BABA and tells my mother you should,
My mother deeply believe in signs given by eyes (Kannu(eyes) adaratam, left means good for girls and and right means bad)
Both my sisters and my mother is a team decides these bullshit things. My father is a slave for their judgements.
I don't believe in god because of these bullshit things so i am an outcaste in my family, because of my series of failures i experienced in my life, they believe it is because of having no faith in God, They believe I am a bad luck Because of it.
The only reason i am still at my house is because i am preparing for govt job.