OCD

I have recently been suspecting I may have OCD. I have very intrusive thoughts (violent/sexual) and they are extremely distressing to me. I dont have any physical compulsions/rituals so I have always ruled it out, but I have mental rituals if that makes sense? Like I will have a completely unwanted intrusive sexual thought about someone and I will either sit there and obsessively convince myself I didnt think it, or the worst is I will convince my brain that my husband or someone else thought it first and my brain is just feeding off their “vibes”. I know how unhealthy it is and it is slowly ruining my relationships because I will project my intrusive thoughts onto other people around me and then think they are horrible people for thinking that. Does this sound like OCD?

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 20 hours ago

OCD?

I have recently been suspecting I may have OCD. I have very intrusive thoughts (violent/sexual) and they are extremely distressing to me. I dont have any physical compulsions/rituals so I have always ruled it out, but I have mental rituals if that makes sense? Like I will have a completely unwanted intrusive sexual thought about someone and I will either sit there and obsessively convince myself I didnt think it, or the worst is I will convince my brain that my husband or someone else thought it first and my brain is just feeding off their “vibes”. I know how unhealthy it is and it is slowly ruining my relationships because I will project my intrusive thoughts onto other people around me and then think they are horrible people for thinking that. Does this sound like OCD?

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 20 hours ago

Wandering Eyes (23F 28M)

I 23F have been with my boyfriend M28 for about 5 years now, so I would say I know him very well. I have noticed something he does over the past years that confuses the hell out of me and I wanted to get input from other men/ anyone who has an ifea on how to approach it/ what it could mean. Every time an attractive woman is near us (he has a specific type, and i know a hot girl when i see one so I can immediately tell he is looking at her some) he always turns to me and says something along the lines of “youre so sexy its a problem” or “youre too hot” to me. He doesnt say things like that to me in public often, so it always catches me by suprise and it truly only happens when a hot girl walks by??? Is he just trying to reassure me- and by that is he implying that I am obviously less attractive than whoever walked by?? It stresses me out because my overthinker brain immediately goes into comparison mode/ I I take it now as confirmation that he is attracted to someone. Or am I straight up crazy hahah. Ive never had a high self-esteem so I am open to the idea that I am overthinking it.

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 20 hours ago

Second Time Anxiety

I am about 5 weeks pregnant currently with my second baby, my first will be 2.5 when this baby is born:) With my first I had severe HG and threw up several times a day every day, depression/anxiety throughout my pregnancy and PPD/PPA. Overall an awful experience lol. I really only started to feel like myself a year postpartum. And now I am going through it again, andI am so over the moon excited but also terrified. Although no bad symptoms have started, and its not guaranteed they will ever, I am riddled with anxiety of whats to come. Anyone have a really difficult first pregnancy, but an easy second?? Am I doomed to have PPD again since I struggled with the first??

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 8 days ago

Pregnancy

Has anyone in here been able to stay on the med while pregnant? (300mg XL) I just found out I am 4 weeks and I would really like to continue taking this pill its been absolutely life changing! I struggled with bad depression during my last pregnancy/postpartum so I am really worried about stopping it.

edit: I of course will ask and listen to my doctor, just curious on others experience!

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 10 days ago

Auditioning While Pregnant

Anyone have any experience with auditioning for a show while visibly pregnant??? I am due in november, rehearsals start at the beginning of next year so I know I will have plenty of time to recover (also my second child so not too worried about recovery), but auditions are in September and I am very clearly pregnant. Will I even be given a chance?? What if there is a dance call lol?? Any tips or helpful experience welcome!

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 16 days ago

Am I overreacting for stepping down over song assignments?

Hi! I have been on the worship team at my church for a few years now and I love serving my church in that way. Our worship director is a woman who has recently been involved in a LOT of church drama and I have slowly distanced myself from being close friends with her. I have noticed a pattern since I joined that when I am assigned to sing with her I am 90% of the time leading a short hymn at the beginning and then she leads the rest of the songs. Not a huge deal to me, I was just happy to worship. But recently some close friends have been asking me why I dont sing more, pointing out that all the other singers on the team usually lead 2 or 3 songs and I am also the only person who is assigned one particular hymn. One person even asked if I requested not to sing much because its clear that I sing less than others. I really cant say this without sounding gross haha but I believe I have a really good voice, I have actually done competitive singing for years and won awards, get asked to sing frequently at galas and weddings, sing often at a local bar, and get told often that I have a true gifting and talent with the voice I was given. I do not care about the performance aspect, I care that I have lead “How Great Thou Art” 7 times this year and no other songs, when every other singer on the team has lead a multitude of songs. I feel extremely called to be a worship leader and feel that God has gifted me in my ability to do so, but I feel like I am not being allowed to truly serve. It feels like a personal attack in some way and I am considering stepping down completely. I dont feel like I am truly worshipping with a pure heart when I am feeling angry about our worship director.

I have tried to ask her about this and said “Is there any particular reason why you always assign this song to me” and she said something along the lines of “I just dont think most of the other songs fit your voice”

Am I overreacting for thinking this feels like a personal attack in some way?? There have been a few awkward interactions with me and her when other people have said to me (in front of her) “you have my favorite voice ever” or “you should really sing all the songs” so could it be she is upset about that?

Edit for more clarification: the drama she was involved in had to do with her ex-husband accusing her of cheating on him, and the fact tht she remarried so quickly after. We were close friends before but I disagreed strongly with how she went about everything and I have since stopped reaching out to her. We haven’t had a falling out or anything, just stopped hanging out as much.

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 1 month ago

Missing Chickens

So I have some hens in our field, they have about an acre fenced-in and at night I lock them in a RV that I converted to a chicken coop! I have had my flock for about 2 months with no issues but within the last week I have had two girls not return at night and I am assuming they have been eaten. I am a pretty gentle-hearted person so I am torn up over this and was not expecting this to happen twice so fast! Could I be doing something wrong? Or does this come with the territory of chicken-owning?

For aome more context: I let them out of the trailer around noon and lock them up when it starts to get dark at night. So they free-range for about 7 hours. I cant figure out what could be taking them, I havent seen hawks or raccoons or anything? Any tips on increasing the safety of the area? Do i need to keep them locked in more of the daytime?

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 2 months ago

Singing a song from the show

Hi all! I am auditioning for a local production of Dear Evan Hansen in a couple of weeks, and in the audition details it says “Welcome to sing something from the show, but not necessary”

So my question is, is it better to sing from the show in this case if i’m hoping for a specific role? Or is it better if I sing something that leaves more for the imagination.

The song I was thinking of (not from DEH) is “You Learn To Live Without” from If/Then, and I would sing “So Big So Small” if I chose from the show.

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 2 months ago

I went out to coffee with a girl from a dating app today (our first time meeting), I felt like it went pretty well overall. That being said, she kept her purse on the entire time like she was ready to leave the whole time. Is that a sign of her being ready to bail? Am I overreacting for thinking that she wasn’t that interested/ was just waiting for the chance to leave?

EDIT: We have been married for over two years now, we have been arguing about this since our first date 😂 Wanted to hear what the world thought, and it looks like she wins. Some of y’all are toxic too 😂😭

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 3 months ago

Hi!! I am auditioning for Dear Evan Hansen this month at a local theater. I am wanting to audition for Heidi, but I am 24 years old. I do tend to be typecast as much older and have played multiple “mom” roles (I am a tall and curvy woman haha). But still, I am wondering if anyone has any tips on ways to really sell looking/sounding older?
Thanks!!

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 3 months ago

My local community theater is doing “Finding Neverland” this fall and I just recieved notice for a callback for Sylvia!! She is kind of a dream role for me, but theres one problem. There is a kiss in the show, and I am very uncomfortable with kissing someone lol. I am married and honestly just feel yucky about it, even though I know it’s acting. My question is, is this something I should bring up at the callback? Or wait to see if i even get the part? Or should I decline the role completely?Would it be super unprofessional to ask that the kiss be a fake/ stage kiss or that it be erased completely? (in my opinion the kiss really isn’t necessary to the story but I could be wrong)

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u/Sad-Raccoon-3192 — 3 months ago