I’m crying while I write this I need advice
( I posted this on another forum but from my experience this forum always helps)
This Particular sin has ruined me so badly wallah it’s ruined my relationship with Allah swt ,these past few months my iman has been going thru ups and downs I would do the sin and not repent for a week or so and in that week I wouldn’t even read salah and then after that week I would repent and then I would end up going back to the sin and im tired of it idk what’s wrong with me i woukd cry my eyes to Allah swt asking for forgiveness and a couple hours later when im in the bathroom or in my bedroom alone id do the sin ive posted so many Reddit posts about this but this one’s coming from my heart . I used to be so close to Allah swt but i would throw it away every time when shaytaan came to me with the temptations. What’s made this sin so much of a norm to me is because of how unorganised my life is I’m 18 and I’m currently unemployed and ill be honest I wake up at 2pm and doomscroll for most the day the only productive thing I do is look for jobs and sometimes I don’t even do that. This all basically started after I finished college and I didn’t really have things to occupy my day with Tommorow I’m going to stop this cycle forever inshallah. Could anyone please advise me on what I can do instead of scrolling and what can help me with this disgusting sin.My dad is very understanding I think I might tell him and I feel like he’ll be able to help and I’ll feel like it’s abit off my chest because my dad thinks of me as a good Muslim