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I recently started toying with the idea of writing something having to do with time travel. Not the “aw shucks, I’m stuck in the British 1500s!” Kind of way. No, I’m talking the “oh my god. I’m going to die alone in the Devonian period. I’m the only human for millions of years, and I’m not going to be rescued.”

The goal is to make the reader feel existential, but kinda more in a surreal way. Like, it’s finally hit them just how long life has existed for, and this version of earth wasn’t meant for their eyes to see.

Idk maybe I’m just talking about normal existentialism, but it’s a very specific feeling I’m going for and I’m not sure how to write it correctly? I haven’t been exposed to this kind of extreme time travel horror anything, so if anyone has show/movie/book suggestions lmk!

PM me if you’ve got one, please! I think when they’re put in the comments, people have been hijacking them before the OP can use it

Sorry for the long read. Me being gender-non-conforming has nothing to do with the situation btw.

I live with my mom. Was 2 weeks on/2 weeks off with dad before 2020, and it’s been just mom and I since then (we still like dad, but this isn’t about him). Just this year I started to realize that I was emotionally parentified by my mom starting around age 10-11. She was also parentified from a much younger age in a different way, so I guess she was just unknowingly continuing the cycle.

Since I came to this discovery, I’ve begun to build up a lot of resentment towards her for always leaning on me emotionally. Yes, she’s been through a LOT in her life, and I really want her to get the help that she needs, but I’m not a professional. Why are you, the parent, telling me, a child who has no concept of adults being capable of crying, about your childhood trauma? What do you expect me to do with this information? I barely even know what empathy is yet, and you’re telling me about the times you thought about committing suicide?? Learning this information about you so early just makes me think I’m going to be the thing to push you over the edge, but I can’t tell you that because I’m too scared it’ll be the last nail in the coffin.

Anyways, my mom has become even more codependent towards me because of things that’ve happened in the last year. I’ve tried to set some personal space boundaries, but then she gets mad/sad at me and makes me feel guilty for just not being emotionally available enough for a hug. I don’t know what to do anymore. We used to be so close before we had to move houses a few months ago, but now I kind of dread being around her.

We’re both emotionally drained, but the thing is: she recharges by being around me and talking, whereas I recharge with silence, alone or in the presence of people. It’s not like I can just get up and walk away. I can’t even tell her when I’m overstimulated and need some quiet time. She’s had therapists before, and has started to see another recently, but I don’t think she’d take it well if I told her she parentified me and how I’ve been affected. I don’t think she’d believe me. She’d probably defend herself and her reasons (not inherently wrong for doing this) instead of seeing me, her child, how she hurt me, and trying to better herself.

I guess I don’t really know what kind of advice I’m looking for here, sorry. I’m just at a loss of what to do to still live together and maintain a healthy parent-child relationship. I feel guilty for talking to other people in my life about this so I needed to vent a little. Sorry about that, too.

**It’s been hard to realize that your favorite person has only ever considered their impact on you once in your whole life, and hasn’t stopped thinking about that moment instead of seeing what they’re doing to you now.**

It’s even harder when she talks about how much she’s affected by other people and what they’ve been through, and how much she’s helped them. There’s receipts, too. She’s incredible. So why can’t she see me?

I still can’t believe I actually typed the title for this post. I’m so scared I’m going to lose her. Please help me, I don’t know what to do.

TL;DR: I was parentified by my mom, and have built up resentment about this. She is codependent towards me and I can barely set personal-space boundaries without resistance. No idea how to tell her how I feel while still having a healthy relationship and living together.

I’m going to be flying alone for the first time pretty soon, and I was hoping to bring a handmade artdoll with me for emotional support. It’s a little bit fragile so I’d rather not put it in my suitcase if I can help it.

Would it get flagged at security if I have it in my carryon? It’s got an aluminum armature wire running through it along with a bit of foil and a bunch of floral wire, and I’m afraid of them ripping open my little guy to check for illegal substances 😭 it’s only about 11-12 inches long and 4-5 inches tall if that helps anything

Hot take, but I dislike how the lambs look. Compared to the other animals, namely the sheep and fluffy pets (malamutes, huskies, guinea pigs), the lambs just look waaaay too detailed… they feel out of place to me. Don’t get me wrong, I’m looking forward to making things with the lamb chops, and I really appreciate that they’re adding another farm animal. I just hope that they’ll update the look when this event is over.