u/Selfcentred-Deer

Come on, do something already, magic boy goo. (Don’t come at me for the glasses I KNOW they‘re feminine but my eyesight failed me today lol)

Obviously after 3 days on T it didn’t feel much different and I could hardly compare it since I had to switch up exercise order, but I can’t wait to see how big the difference is in terms of how the workout feels and how fast the muscles grow.

(Yes, I had to burn off all that cake somehow… pull-ups on my balcony seemed like a completely normal thing at the time)
So I posted 2 days ago about being soo close to starting T. Unfortunately the letter stating my insurance will cover the T for my endocrinologist arrived late this afternoon so not in time for me to start on my actual birthday, but I happy cried anyway. Couldn’t have asked for a better birthday gift and hopefully I can pick up my prescription tomorrow already. 🙏

I got some good news from my insurance today - I think. It sounds like the medical services recommended for me to go on T, which means the insurance will likely issue the paper saying they‘ll cover the cost and then my endocrinologist can finally prescribe it. Fingers crossed I get it before Thursday. It’s my bday and it would be SO awesome to start T then. Also felt like an absolute unit at the gym today and wanted to share 🙌

Since starting T is taking longer than expected (approval process is VERY slow) and I am constantly being she/her‘d and Ma‘amed and sent to the women‘s changing rooms at work despite being 5‘11“ maybe you have some tips for me I could implement? I try dressing age and workplace appropriate, I work out and diet as well as I can and the haircut is there because the perm gives my otherwise very shiny and dead straight hair some structure and cutting it short would probably make it look like a pixie. Voice test says my voice pitch is more in the androgynous to male range already but I feel like at least in some cases it’s the voice where people go „oh“. Unfortunately I’m a very hairless person so things like dyeing or tinting the peach fuzz above my lip aren‘t possible. Maybe someone has an idea about a tweak that would help?

Edit: thank you so much everyone for the tips and kind words. I made this post bc I am incredibly frustrated with how long I have to wait for T and the uncertainty of it all at the moment. I am doing everything I can do get that T train moving, but it takes like 6 months of mandatory therapy, then an indication letter from the psychologist, another letter from the endocrinologist, then you have to submit everything to the insurance and when I did that yesterday after my endocrinologist finally did their part after 6 weeks of nothing I got a response saying it may take up to five weeks for them to decide. Hence my need to do SOMETHING OTHER THAN WAIT FOR T 😭

So I finally got everything I needed to apply for T with my insurance today, let’s hope this is one of the last pics of me pre-T 🥹🥹🥹

I need help, I took a bunch of pics today but I can’t decide which one to put in my dating apps. I like em all but I think most people will look at some of them and think I am quietly judging their life choices (which I probably am, but I‘ll keep it to myself, promise 😭)
Which one would make you swipe right?

Since today marks a very important day in my calendar, yet the act in itself was totally anticlimactic I thought I’d celebrate a little bit with you guys: I finally changed my name and gender marker officially today.
It’s funny that at this point the only thing I have got to show for it is a receipt over the 40€ it cost me to get it changed in the database. I still have to order a new birth certificate, new marriage certificate, get a new ID and a new passport. But apparently, somewhere in a system, I am officially Sawyer now. 🎉

I‘m having more and more fun taking portraits of myself these days lol. Still waiting on my T, still no fixed start date. 😮‍💨 I’m off to Mexico in a week and right after that can finally change my name and gender marker officially.
And the most random thing that gave me gender euphoria today: cracked open a coconut with my bare hands. Yay. (The fight to get the pulp out was much harder though)
Happy Sunday everyone.

…I „tried on the look“. 😂 I got a lot of comments on recent photos saying I looked like Hermes or Achilles from the Song of Achilles sooo I thought I’d use AI to give myself a uniform - and now my question is: where do I wear this to? 😂 Would it be acceptable to go to work like this? 😬

…the anticipation is killing me because I’m waiting on the last paperwork and should be getting it soon but I have NO idea how long it’s gonna take after that and I am SO tired of waiting 😮‍💨🫠
Hate being misgendered on a daily basis.

still Pre-T 😭 counting down the days even though I have no definitive date. Should be sometime within the next few weeks hopefully? Final appointment for the indication letter on Wednesday, then that gets sent to the endocrinologist and we‘ll see how long it‘ll take for them to get me the prescription.

Wishing everyone a happy pride month 🏳️‍🌈🫶

No one ever takes my picture so I just have to do it myself so I have something to remember my pre-T face by. 😅 not long now and I am ITCHING to see all the changes 😭 (yes, I know it might be slow. No, I’m not a patient person 😬)

Basically just that, I’m not huge by any means but I love this pic because for some reason it makes me look like a giant at 5‘11“ 😅