u/Senior-Tadpole8153

This time of yr is absolutely my favorite from the fall leaves to the Halloween decor, but its also the lonliest for me. You see I made a promise to myself to make ONE friend this yr and thats been a flop and once again im seeing all the posts of ppl and their friends partying from last Halloween. Im sick and tire of the line "JUst g0 oUT And mAk3 s0ME fRieNdz" like its a universally easy thing. Its not! And ive been hurting rly bad this past week i dont wanna b a raging party animal on a bender but id like to experience the Halloween festivities (family friendly or someones house) with some friends just once where I dont feel like a total loser again going to bed early on Halloween crying like last yr. My 20s will b over in a few yrs and I got nothing to show for it so ye im a bit desperate for experiences yes ik u can still do im 30s but I wanna do it now so I can atleast say I did it actually nvm f it im done with the Oct-Dec bs im done yall can keep ur stupid festivities i want no part in any of it

Im tryna print off one single godamn document i need for TOMORROW n this pice of shit refuses to cooperate its a HP ENVY 7800 for all who care n ive tried printing in multiple ways:

- laptop/pc says printer is in an error state

- plugging in a USB it dosent see anything orrrr I gotta convert to a jpg in which the stupid fucking thing needs photo paper fuck u hp u stupid fucking piece of shit printer

- using the stupid fucking official HP app is useless cuz it says connecting issue even tho tge connection light is on n i went thru on the printer itself n its fine also ive printed b4 n the stupid thing is currently connected to the wifi orrr when there is no error i hit the blue print button nothing fucking happens

- oooooh my fuckingggggg goddddddddd now apparently therss no paper yea sure there isn't WHEN I JUST FED UR ASS FULL AS BOOK OF SHEETS this fucking thing gaslighting me im rly close to breaking it like actually

B4 anyone asks yes ive unplugged it like 15 times n almost tossed it out a 10 storey window the printer isn't even mine n belongs to my family but id rather destroy this fucking thing n force them to get smth other than this fat hunk of junk when i move out I am met getting a printer by HP fuck those clowns and im sick of every time i close the tray or smth it makes a bunch noise like it gonna print then da-ding ok im ready :) FUCK YOU ASSHOLE I HATE U SMMMMMMM IMA THROW U OFF A CLIFF THEN CLIMB DOWN SAID CLIFF N BEAT U WITH A BASEBALL BAT THEN USE A MAKESHIFT FLAMETHROWER THEN GO TO TOWN WITH A CHAINSAW THEN FUCKING GET A GUN LICENSE JUST TO SHOOT TF OUTA YA TILL ALL UR CIRCUIT BOARDS R TINY LIL PIECES THEN ILL HAVE U RIN OVER BY A STEAM ROLLER B4 TAKING U TO A LIVE VOLCANO OR ONE OF THOSE METAL FOUNDARIES N HAVING U INSINERATED FUCK U HP ENVY PHOTO 7800 I HATE YOU

That sub is insanely insufferable filled with misinformation are there any otger subs that cover social situations, anxiety, making friends etc or is this rly the only one?

I had a really shit day n would rly like someone to talk to or at there bare minimum be acknowledged i have no one to genuinely talk to. I tried going out today cuz im lonely with no friends to try n talk to someone granted i was just wandering but still i was trying and b4 I even made it that far out in what I thought was an androgynous fit i got hit with the "sirrrrr" I hate that fucking word smm im overly masculine n feel disgusting all the time no matter wut I do I it's like im being forced to b like this while there r cis boys out there looking like angels getting called cute n being confused as girls meanwhile i struggle with everything I go to social media to unwind sometimes n everone has either a big ass group of friends or pulling the look I want I cant do this anymore. im not shitting on other ppl's illnesses here but I will say being chronicly alone for idek how long anyone n tryna navigate smth like gender completely alone is so fucking hard its one of the worst things out there, atp im just gonna give up let ppl call me sir who cares anymore ill go out do manly things instead and while im at it toss out the bisexuality too cuz im failing there too n my homophobic ass father might know n ive already been threatened so for now on im done tryna b unique there r ppl way better at it anyway

Ive had a really shit day n would rly like someone to talk to or at there bare minimum be acknowledged i have no one to genuinely talk to. I tried going out today cuz im lonely with no friends to try n talk to someone granted i was just wandering but still i was trying and b4 I even made it that far out in what I thought was an androgynous fit i got hit with the "sirrrrr" I hate that fucking word smm im overly masculine n feel disgusting all the time no matter wut I do I it's like im being forced to b like this while there r cis boys out there looking like angels getting called cute n being confused as girls meanwhile i struggle with everything I go to social media to unwind sometimes n everone has either a big ass group of friends or pulling the look I want I cant do this anymore. im not shitting on other ppl's illnesses here but I will say being chronicly alone for idek how long anyone n tryna navigate smth like gender completely alone is so fucking hard its one of the worst things out there, atp im just gonna give up let ppl call me sir who cares anymore ill go out do manly things instead and while im at it toss out the bisexuality too cuz im failing there too n my homophobic ass father might know n ive already been threatened so for now on im done tryna b unique there r ppl way better at it anyway

Im tired of tryna find help and wen I post in a place like r/mentalhealth I get complete since or ppl just relating i need actual help especially one aimed at depression/anxiety/loneliness