u/Several_Staff_8735

I Made a post here about trying to evaluate my market value as I date up and interracially. I don’t date interracially cause I think one race is better than another but for the benefits I can get from it.

I have been dating a white guy who is a few years older than me and I am getting mental fogginess from this. He is doing well for himself and I’m the first black girl he has dated. We never really spoke about race in the beginning and I loved it that way. It was strictly a “woman like man wanna see compatibility thing.”

When we got intimate, things changed; his first comment about race was that he loved the contrast of our skin. I was like okay, that’s alright.

The next thing I noticed was that he’d ask if any black guy has made me feel the way he has and size comparison. He’d compare me to his coffee and how he was gonna be the cream to my coffee. He’d be mad if I pushed him away cause he’s asking for too much and then the worst happened. I began to notice that whenever we were out, he’d look at other girls and say things that he noticed about them. Look at her nails. She has great style. I love those jeans. This broke my heart the most because it felt like I had woken up something dormant in him.

I’m trying to back away but now I regret downplaying the experiences of other black women who told me that they have been fetishized during dating. It’s painful.

This relationship has become more sexual than when we first started and I’m wondering if I should’ve waited longer before we had sex or if it’s okay that I got to see this side of him earlier.

It really hurts cause I wanted us to see each other as people, not as symbols or objects. I think I’m gonna have to accept that it would be hard dating up for me as this is what I seem to attract.

I won’t even get into what I face in casual situations.

I made a tinder profile and got so much attention it was insane. My 16 hours on the app has taught me many things. the main one is that my type (hot coll aged guys) aren’t on dating apps.

The two guys that came close were accidentally in a different city or most importantly was a fake profile 😡

One guy was so nice whil we chatted but when I told him I don’t do anal, he bolted.

A lot of the men just want sex. An idiot asked me to come to their house. of course I didn’t! I am a virgin and looking for a genuine man.

the good part is I got a lot of validation. I have social anxi around men and hearing genuine things from them about me gave me the confidence to go for it.

I am a virgin at 21 and I really came on this app to loose my virginity and start dating. nothing serious for now I just want to explore my sexuality with a guy who actually cares for me and keep on explo with others but okay

Hey,

I don't really like how this is going. I started a YouTube channel last week and so far I got 10 subscribers and 5k views. And only 4 comments. How do I have such a huge amount of viewers without many of them subscribing?

I am trying to get monetized soon but how will I get there with such a low subscriber rate?

In my niche, longform videos are extremely welcomed. I was wondering how long my videos could be before I start earning 1300 a month for example?

Hi. My niche favours long form videos (30 minutes,1 to 2hours), and shorts.

As I aim for 1k subscribers, is it smart to try and make more long form videos (1 hour long), to get more revenue through ads?

I also have the thought of affiliate marketing to advertise the products of the top guys in my niche. Then I can make an earning from them.

My body is a natural pear body shape. being black means that I am expected to be thicker, especially when you have nice curves. but when I’m thinner like a size 0 I look my mental age which is 12. when I’m not age regressing I miss the squishiness of my thighs but then I’m skinny.

When I’m thinner and I feel like age regressing I f sad because I look more of a woman. I feel like I want to enjoy looking 12 until I can’t anymore as an chrono-adult.