عندي افكار تطبيقات عايزه اعملها و أنا لسه بتعلم جافا لسه مخلصتش الأساسيات يعني بس بسأل هل لما أخلصها كده ابدأ اعمل تطبيقات ولا لسه في اساسيات تانيه لازم أتعلمها الاول
او يعني لازم اعمل مشاريع سهله الي هو بتوع الطقس و الto do كتجربه ولا ايه
i just realized that i really don't care about anyone in my life and i don't care about anything happening in the world in general, all i care about is studying and preparing for work to get money that's all
im okay with this, but sometimes i see my family or my friends ask about me and care and i feel like i care too but i dont take action and when i do i feel it's super fake so i think i dont care
does anyone know how can i fix this, i dont know if i wanna fix this bec i care abt them really or bec im guilty or bec im just uncomfortabe being an asshole or all of these reasons
i tried to act like i care and ask questions and talk more, but that felt so fake and felt like all my energy is gone
i used to think about why do they still care abt me, my family cares bec im their family i guess, my friends care bec.. i don't really know why they still care abt me even tho they keep telling me that im not engaging with them and my behavior makes our relationship more weak
i don't wanna lose them i love them they're super nice people all of them, but hoowww can i care i feel like im contradicting myself
can you help me please i really don't know what to do, should i just continue on acting maybe i will get used to it and make it real???
can u give me ur opinions on this, i couldn't think of a solution to this
i just realized that i really don't care about anyone in my life and i don't care about anything happening in the world in general, all i care about is studying and preparing for work to get money that's all
im okay with this, but sometimes i see my family or my friends ask about me and care and i feel like i care too but i dont take action and when i do i feel it's super fake so i think i dont care
does anyone know how can i fix this, i dont know if i wanna fix this bec i care abt them really or bec im guilty or bec im just uncomfortabe being an asshole or all of these reasons
i tried to act like i care and ask questions and talk more, but that felt so fake and felt like all my energy is gone
i used to think about why do they still care abt me, my family cares bec im their family i guess, my friends care bec.. i don't really know why they still care abt me even tho they keep telling me that im not engaging with them and my behavior makes our relationship more weak
i don't wanna lose them i love them they're super nice people all of them, but hoowww can i care i feel like im contradicting myself
can you help me please i really don't know what to do, should i just continue on acting maybe i will get used to it and make it real???
or is there another way i can fix myself
how can i communicate with others if i don't talk and i don't like talking 🫠
i feel like i have a problem with communicating
my friends noticed that im being quiet and not talk and never talk if i have a problem or anything, i always was like this but when i was a kid we had a lot of activities and things to do that i didn't need to talk much but now as we grew up its more quiet and we all started to like diff things and went for diff universities
they love me and i love them i actually tried to talk more about my life or if i have a problem but that didn't work well for me bec im not a talkative person and i don't like talking about anything i just like to do it more than talk about it, i feel like talking is useless as hell so it's like a burden to me (i like to write to myself a lot and i figure things myself and i like it this way bec i understand myself better and it always solves things quickly)
other than that, they couldn't understand the things i was talking about, idk if it's bec im bad at explaining and people usually don't get my point or what so i always felt like i shouldn't talk about this from the first place (everything and anything i said always ended like this)
i even think sometimes that im a fake friend but i really love them
i always told myself if i couldn't change this in me that means i dont really love them but i couldn't change this and i still think i love them i ask about them and think about them and meet them listen to them but talking is impossible for me im just a listener most of the time
but everyone is becoming annoyed of this they're saying that our relationship is becoming weaker bec of this..
i can't make new friends too bec of this (only very talkative people friend me) but people i like i can't communicate with them at all
its not like im completely mute i sometimes talk but not enough
i really don't know what to do about this please someone help me