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Quando tinha os meus 16 anos vi esse filme que me deu a volta ao estômago e o mesmo amigo que me recomendou 120 dias de sodoma disse para ler Lolita que era um pouco diferente do filme mas sendo o tema que é acho que é a mesma coisa.

Alguém já o leu? Se sim, como foi para vocês?

Acabei agora este livro e amei. Toda a abordagem do conceito Timshel (é escrito assim no livro) dá que pensar, sou da mesma opinião que nós temos o livre arbítrio de que independentemente do que nos aconteça e que nos façam, nós podemos não seguir o caminho da maldade e é nossa escolha não o fazer.

Os meus personagem preferidos foram sem dúvida o Sam e o Lee, confesso que sempre gostei mais do Caleb do que do Abel.

I did a post in a subreddit and I’m shocked how people don’t believe U=U is real, there is a lot of hate towards us and those who hate the most are the ones who say we must tell everyone get physical. Because of their hate this only reinforce that I must not tell UNLESS it’s a potencial partner (I would tell before anything physical happens).

They genuinely believe our meds will fail and we will infect everyone. Those persons keep misunderstanding that I didn’t get infected because the meds don’t work but because the person simply decided not to take them (and because I decided not wear a condom or taking prep)

I have the right to keep this part of my life private in order to protect myself from others, specially when we are already undetectable

Tomorrow will be one year since I made the decision to meet the guy that infected me

I already passed the grief phase, this exact moment of my life everything is fine: I’m healthier, happier and focus on my goals

Life didn’t stop neither did I

Im poz since December 2025 and this year 2026 I got sick more than I would get in 3 years.

I don’t know what’s going on, now im sick because I went to the beach later in the afternoon and the water was very cold. Im having a lot of head aches, pain in my hears, running nose and my friends are totally fine

I went to a festival, did a lot of drugs and I had a infection on my lungs and my friends were totally fine or not so bad compared to me. I took a lot of meds for my lungs and guess what: it killed all the good bacteria from my intestine and I had diarrhea for 12 days, I lost a lot of weight due to this.

And I had another things like other flues during the winter period in the beginning of the year that I felt like I was dying

Before hiv I didn’t get sick so easily, I’m not sure if I’m paranoid about this or not

My last blood results were in May and my CD4 was 505 I’ll only go back to do those in December, I’m undetectable and I take my meds everyday without failing

Im feeling the urges to smoke weed again, the reason I stopped was I have a chronic condition that creates chronic inflammation and that will damage my health even more and because my father has emphysema and his lungs are being destroyed due smoking but I crave it so much

Also ill have a party in October and im not sure if can control myself of not taking drugs. I love the artists there but I never went to a rave sober and my friends will be consuming

I’m constantly fighting my mind for staying sober

Hey everyone I hope you are having a good day

I’m (M29) single since December 2024 and I’ve been thinking how good this makes me feel. I can have more money, I have a lot of time, I meet a lot of cool people, I have casual sex and I feel freedom, I don’t have to constantly text someone or giving someone so much attention (I don’t like to receive that much attention also)

Ever since I remember I love my solitude, I love my time for doing my hobbies or for not doing anything at all if I choose to

I love people in general but I don’t imagine myself dating so soon, I’m learning how to love myself and discover who I am and who I would like to become and for me that’s much more interesting than dating

Eu não posso culpar os meus amigos porque ninguém me aponta uma arma à cabeça e me obriga a cheirar, essa vontade está dentro de mim quando alguém aparece com cocaína à minha frente ou quando alguém fala em ir buscar principalmente quando estamos todos bêbedos

Eu não bebo nem cheiro quando estou sozinho, não tenho vontade nenhuma de o fazer tanto que não o faço, mas quando estou com os meus amigos eu não consigo dizer que não

Apercebi-me que ando nestes consumos de drogas (já foi bem mais recorrente no passado) à 14 anos seja em raves/festivais ou em saídas à noite depois de jantar

Sinto-me horrivelmente mal hoje, desconfortável, envergonhado e sinto que me voltei a desiludir a mim mesmo porque já disse várias vezes antes que não ia cheirar e não fui capaz de cumprir com a minha palavra tal como não fui no passado

Eu não sei se posso ser considerado viciado porque não o faço todos os dias mas não conseguir dizer que não quando vejo começa a afetar-me emocionalmente

I cannot blame my friends because the will to do drugs is inside me but every time we drink a lot they always want to buy cocaine and I cannot say no

I don’t drink neither snort drugs when I’m alone but every time I’m with them and they want I end up doing. I don’t know how to say no.

I feel so much regret I don’t want this for my life

Hello everyone, I hope you are doing well

In my teenage years I took A LOT of lsd tabs and drops and other psychedelics like magic mushrooms, dmt, changa, 4-HO-MET, 4-HO-MiPT, 2cb, micropoints and mescaline and everything was fine, I enjoyed so much and were the class of drugs I preferred the most

I started to become obsessed with what’s the fabric of reality, what’s behind the curtain that we cannot perceive, there is truly a matrix? And so on

On 2019 I took half of a tab of lsd in a psychedelic party from Goa Gil (if you know, you know) and I genuinely don’t know what happened but I assume it was the music and my obsession over the themes I mention before but I started to feel incredibly weird in a really bad way.

I looked at my friends and they didn’t seem real, I could recognize their faces but the connection I had with them and that escalated for everyone. I was thinking they were part of a huge plan of distracting me from discovering the secrets of the universe, that they were part of the hidden secret and they were not really my friends. I was thinking the radio was sending me signals and I was communicating telepathically with the higher consciousness of the universe and I was the only one who could listen to that.

Everything became so intense that I run away from the party without telling anyone, I out myself inside of a car and until today I didn’t know who drive me out of there and which bus stop was there.

I don’t know how or when I get home but I put 4 Xanax in my mouth and I slept.

The problem was when I woke up I still didn’t recognize anyone has real, neither my parents but I had to pretend I believed in the reality I was living previous the acid.

Short cut basically I stayed out of touch with reality for 1 year at least, I was thinking The Higher Consciousness was communicating with me through other peoples body like one time at lunch break a stranger was playing chess with me and I was genuinely believing I was playing chess with God lol and the radio and tv shows were speaking for me the all fucking time

Somehow after a long time everything vanished and I was back to normal

My question now is, if this happened one time even if I did it “thousands” of times prior to that, what are the chances of this happening again? If I take 1/4 of a tab and I have olanzapine with me if something starts to be a little too much and I take it the psychosis go away? Or it’s not strong enough to cut the psychosis from the acid?

Sorry the long post

Hello everyone, I hope you are doing well

In my teenage years I took A LOT of lsd tabs and drops and other psychedelics like magic mushrooms, dmt, changa, 4-HO-MET, 4-HO-MiPT, 2cb, micropoints and mescaline and everything was fine, I enjoyed so much and were the class of drugs I preferred the most

I started to become obsessed with what’s the fabric of reality, what’s behind the curtain that we cannot perceive, there is truly a matrix? And so on

On 2019 I took half of a tab of lsd in a psychedelic party from Goa Gil (if you know, you know) and I genuinely don’t know what happened but I assume it was the music and my obsession over the themes I mention before but I started to feel incredibly weird in a really bad way.

I looked at my friends and they didn’t seem real, I could recognize their faces but the connection I had with them and that escalated for everyone. I was thinking they were part of a huge plan of distracting me from discovering the secrets of the universe, that they were part of the hidden secret and they were not really my friends. I was thinking the radio was sending me signals and I was communicating telepathically with the higher consciousness of the universe and I was the only one who could listen to that.

Everything became so intense that I run away from the party without telling anyone, I out myself inside of a car and until today I didn’t know who drive me out of there and which bus stop was there.

I don’t know how or when I get home but I put 4 Xanax in my mouth and I slept.

The problem was when I woke up I still didn’t recognize anyone has real, neither my parents but I had to pretend I believed in the reality I was living previous the acid.

Short cut basically I stayed out of touch with reality for 1 year at least, I was thinking The Higher Consciousness was communicating with me through other peoples body like one time at lunch break a stranger was playing chess with me and I was genuinely believing I was playing chess with God lol and the radio and tv shows were speaking for me the all fucking time

Somehow after a long time everything vanished and I was back to normal

My question now is, if this happened one time even if I did it “thousands” of times prior to that, what are the chances of this happening again? If I take 1/4 of a tab and I have olanzapine with me if something starts to be a little too much and I take it the psychosis go away? Or it’s not strong enough to cut the psychosis from the acid?

Sorry the long post

Um familiar muito próximo a mim tem uma doença progressiva e acho que ele saber que está nessa situação ficou depressivo. Ele não quer sair, está sempre deitado no sofá, nunca aceita convites para nada mesmo que eu e a minha mãe insistimos… aliás, ele fica extremamente chateado quando o convidamos para alguma coisa.

Ele era pescador e com isso amava o mar, já lhe disse que o levava de carro e ficamos sentados a ver a praia e ele começa com frases do género “o meu tempo de ir à praia já passou”, começo eu a ficar depressivo com a depressão dele

É esgotante assistir a isto e não sei o que fazer mais. É suposto “deixá-lo para lá”?

Há pessoas que nestas situações fazem tudo para aproveitar até ao último momento e depois há outras que ficam como ele e desistem de tudo e deixa esta sensação de impotência para quem gosta dele

I retuned from a festival and I had the most intense experience ever because of a friend of mine.

She’s addicted to ketamine for a while now and I saw with my own eyes the damage this drug does to kidney and bladder. The excruciating pain she was experiencing it’s unbelievable I really thought I was gonna lose her in my arms… and after that she decided to continue to consume drugs (ket included)

I was sober for 4 months before this festival and now I think it’s time to go back to sobriety. I don’t want to die neither I want to see my loved ones being destroyed by drugs.

I feel incredibly sad right now, do I needed to witness this to reconsider my choices?

The hard part that I know it must be done is stay away from literally anyone that consume drugs, I love those persons but I need to do this for myself and not feel guilty about it.

Im hiv positive since the beginning of this year and undetectable since March, I’ve done several blood tests and I’ve remain undetectable ever since. I take my pill everyday.

I went on a festival and I took a lot of drugs to the point my nose bleed since the first day to the last (7 days) and I never forgot to take the pill

However, me and my friends (who don’t know my status) we shared the notes/tubes for sniffing drugs and even them got bleed from the nose most of the days

I’ve read on the internet U=U for sex but is it the same for cases like this as well? I didn’t saw any blood on the tubes/notes but I got paranoid anyway

This was my first time going to modem and I’ve read on Reddit and spoke with my friends that went on previous editions and it was real: there was undercover police everywhere specially in the caravan park on the exit of the swamp.

5 different people I know got the penalty. 450€ for them but what got me curious was they had a paper proving they paid that amount but if they bring that same paper to the police station next year they have a free ticket for the next edition lol what the fuck? Isn’t this strange? Are the cops and modem organizers holding hands together? Like come next year, bring drugs, get the penalty again and we offer you the ticket again and the cycle repeats?

I was camping close to the hive in a hill with good shadow and I saw the police everyday searching the people on the camp smoking joints or doing lines.

I think this is the only bad thing about modem (and also the toilets)

I always take it in the morning 7:45 but I don’t remember if I took today and I’m currently at work. The sooner I can be at home is around 19:00… should I take it or wait for tomorrow at regular time?

It’s the first time this happened to me and I’m really anxious now I think it’s better to take it when I get home right or it’s already considered a double dose?