I've never met him, so why does he feel like someone I know? (Nostalgia for stuff I've never experienced)
I saw this man randomly on Facebook and god, I genuinely cannot stop thinking about him. 😭 It’s been two months since I saw him and somehow I still think about him way more than I should.
The funny thing is, I literally only know his name and his occupation. That’s it. I don’t know if he’s single, I don’t know what his personality is like, I don’t even know how old he is. I’m pretty sure he’s probably a lot older than me too, which somehow makes this even more ridiculous. 😭
But there was just something about him. I don’t know how to explain it without sounding completely insane, but he felt familiar. Like if I actually knew him, I could picture myself being so comfortable around him. And now my brain keeps wandering into these little daydreams about what life with him would be like.
I catch myself wondering what kind of husband he’d be, what he’d be like when he’s comfortable, what his laugh sounds like, what he’s like when he’s annoyed, all of it. And I DON’T EVEN KNOW THIS MAN. 😭
I genuinely didn’t want to get into the whole praying/wazifa/tahajjud thing because, hello, this is a man I have never even spoken to. But I can’t help making dua sometimes. Not even in a “this HAS to happen” way. More like… if there’s something good here, I hope Allah lets our paths cross properly.
I’ve never really felt this strongly about someone without knowing them. Maybe I’m just projecting an entire personality onto a handsome Facebook profile, which is entirely possible. 😭 But two months later and I’m still here, quietly wondering about him.
Anyway, I hope he’s single. That’s honestly the first plot twist I need Allah to clear up. 😭
I think what gets me the most is that it genuinely doesn’t feel lustful. Obviously I find him incredibly handsome, but that’s not even the part that has stayed with me. It’s more like I have this inexplicable feeling that I already know him somehow. Like there’s a familiarity there that makes no sense because I’ve never actually met or spoken to him. I don’t know anything about his life, yet I keep wondering about the person behind the face rather than just the face itself.
And I know realistically our paths probably aren’t going to cross. We have no obvious reason to meet, and I’m not expecting some movie-like coincidence to happen. But I still find myself wishing they would. Just once, I’d like to meet him properly and find out whether this strange feeling was completely in my head or whether there really was something about him that I somehow sensed from afar.
Accidentally deleted my last post 😭