I feel left out by my friends... TwT
I don't think my friends are doing anything wrong, but I still end up feeling hurt.
I have pretty bad social anxiety, so joining a voice chat with a bunch of people is really difficult for me. Most of the time I just can't bring myself to join. Because of that, I end up missing a lot of conversations and moments they have together.
What hurts the most isn't even that they're in VC, it's that I often don't know it's happening until much later, or I don't know what everyone's talking about afterward... It makes me feel left out, and I end up getting jealous even though I know they aren't trying to exclude me.
I hate feeling this way because I know my jealousy isn't really about them doing something wrong. It's mostly frustration with my own anxiety and the fact that it keeps getting in the way of spending time with people I care about
(Online friends btw)