u/SleepTyped

I used to believe in Islam strongly, but over time religion started feeling mentally exhausting to me. It wasn’t just major things — even entertainment started feeling guilty sometimes. I felt like I couldn’t fully enjoy anime, movies, games, music, or modern entertainment without worrying whether it was haram or harming my faith.

Part of me feels like I slowly became atheist because my mind wanted freedom from that constant restriction and guilt.

But after leaving religion, I also noticed changes in myself that honestly concern me:

• more anger over small things,
• more jealousy,
• less guilt when doing wrong things,
• and a kind of emptiness I didn’t expect.

Now I feel conflicted because some things in Islam still make deep logical sense to me — especially tawhid, the purpose of life, and questions about the Quran and Prophet Muhammad (pbuh). Christianity feels harder for me to understand philosophically.

At the same time, I still struggle with questions like:

• Why are there so many religions if God exists?
• Why is there so much suffering in places like Palestine?
• Why would God allow confusion?

I’m not looking for insults toward religion or atheism. I genuinely want thoughtful perspectives from people who seriously struggled with belief and doubt.

Did anyone else leave religion partly because it felt restrictive, then later feel conflicted about it?

I used to believe in Islam strongly, but over time religion started feeling mentally exhausting to me. It wasn’t just major things — even entertainment started feeling guilty sometimes. I felt like I couldn’t fully enjoy anime, movies, games, music, or modern entertainment without worrying whether it was haram or harming my faith.

Part of me feels like I slowly became atheist because my mind wanted freedom from that constant restriction and guilt.

But after leaving religion, I also noticed changes in myself that honestly concern me:

• more anger over small things,
• more jealousy,
• less guilt when doing wrong things,
• and a kind of emptiness I didn’t expect.

Now I feel conflicted because some things in Islam still make deep logical sense to me — especially tawhid, the purpose of life, and questions about the Quran and Prophet Muhammad (pbuh). Christianity feels harder for me to understand philosophically.

At the same time, I still struggle with questions like:

• Why are there so many religions if God exists?
• Why is there so much suffering in places like Palestine?
• Why would God allow confusion?

I’m not looking for insults toward religion or atheism. I genuinely want thoughtful perspectives from people who seriously struggled with belief and doubt.

Did anyone else leave religion partly because it felt restrictive, then later feel conflicted about it?I used to believe in Islam strongly, but over time religion started feeling mentally exhausting to me. It wasn’t just major things — even entertainment started feeling guilty sometimes. I felt like I couldn’t fully enjoy anime, movies, games, music, or modern entertainment without worrying whether it was haram or harming my faith.

Part of me feels like I slowly became atheist because my mind wanted freedom from that constant restriction and guilt.

But after leaving religion, I also noticed changes in myself that honestly concern me:

• more anger over small things,
• more jealousy,
• less guilt when doing wrong things,
• and a kind of emptiness I didn’t expect.

Now I feel conflicted because some things in Islam still make deep logical sense to me — especially tawhid, the purpose of life, and questions about the Quran and Prophet Muhammad (pbuh). Christianity feels harder for me to understand philosophically.

At the same time, I still struggle with questions like:

• Why are there so many religions if God exists?
• Why is there so much suffering in places like Palestine?
• Why would God allow confusion?

I’m not looking for insults toward religion or atheism. I genuinely want thoughtful perspectives from people who seriously struggled with belief and doubt.

Did anyone else leave religion partly because it felt restrictive, then later feel conflicted about it?

I used to believe in Islam strongly, but over time religion started feeling mentally exhausting to me. It wasn’t just major things — even entertainment started feeling guilty sometimes. I felt like I couldn’t fully enjoy anime, movies, games, music, or modern entertainment without worrying whether it was haram or harming my faith.

Part of me feels like I slowly became atheist because my mind wanted freedom from that constant restriction and guilt.

But after leaving religion, I also noticed changes in myself that honestly concern me:

• more anger over small things,
• more jealousy,
• less guilt when doing wrong things,
• and a kind of emptiness I didn’t expect.

Now I feel conflicted because some things in Islam still make deep logical sense to me — especially tawhid, the purpose of life, and questions about the Quran and Prophet Muhammad (pbuh). Christianity feels harder for me to understand philosophically.

At the same time, I still struggle with questions like:

• Why are there so many religions if God exists?
• Why is there so much suffering in places like Palestine?
• Why would God allow confusion?

I’m not looking for insults toward religion or atheism. I genuinely want thoughtful perspectives from people who seriously struggled with belief and doubt.

Did anyone else leave religion partly because it felt restrictive, then later feel conflicted about it?

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