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Dr doesn’t think I have this because I’ve been struggling for five years

My primary believes I have pots. She sent me to a rhumotologist to rule out an autoimmune disease. They diagnosed me with fibromyalgia. I asked why they weren’t considering eds or another connective tissue disorder, and she told me that since it’s been over five years since I started showing symptoms, it’s unlikely that it wouldn’t have been diagnosed by now. Also because I couldn’t touch the floor, my muscles have always been really tight so I’m not flexible.

I’m so confused because ever since my first symptom that I’ve noticed (chronic exhaustion), I’ve been going to multiple doctors trying to get a diagnosis. I’m wondering if I should find a new doctor, or if she’s right and something in my bloodwork would’ve said something by now. (Ana and everything is normal). Would it be getting worse within five years? Why does this disqualify me for a diagnosis? I’m wondering if this has ever happened to anybody else. The reason I suspected eds is because my aunt has it.

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u/Slight_Wind9283 — 15 days ago
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Does anybody else use TachyMon?

I just downloaded it. I’m not diagnosed but I’m scheduled to do a tilt table test. The app keeps alerting me to a 35-39 beat change EVERY TIME I stand up. I’m thinking of deleting it, takes up too much battery. Is this useful information for my doctor, though?

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u/Slight_Wind9283 — 2 months ago
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I’m so scared that it’s all in my head

I have been struggling for a while now. My doctor wasn’t taking me seriously, and I had to keep begging for tests, so I switched doctors. The new doctor suspects pots.

I explained to her all of my symptoms: how my heart feels weird a couple of times everyday (I start feeling the beats, and they feel hard), my chronic fatigue / brain fog / exhaustion (that isn’t helped too much by Adderall, idk when the last time I felt well-rested was. Sleep study was normal), the muscle pains that I have, how weak my body is (like how I have to sit down in the shower because it just becomes too much), chest pains, migraines, extreme dizziness when I stand up or turn too fast, and how difficult it is for me to be in anything but perfect room temperature (she diagnosed me with Reynolds syndrome after I showed her a few pictures).

She had me wear a holter monitor for a week. I pressed the button about 10-15 times a day. But everything came back normal. Just like my blood results. She tested everything, including ANA.

I am diagnosed with major depressive disorder, adhd inattentive, generalized anxiety disorder, and panic disorder. The doctor asked me if I wanted to go ahead and schedule for the next tests: an echo and tilt table. I’m so scared that I’m going to waste so much time and money (US) on nothing. I don’t know which symptoms are in my head and which are real.

My symptoms aren’t debilitating. I feel like the more I explore this subreddit, the less I feel like this suits me. But I’m struggling through life and I don’t want to keep going through it if it remains this hard. I’m not worried about the tests themselves, but I just know they’re going to come back normal, because they always do. But there has to be something wrong. Life shouldn’t be this hard, right?

I guess I’m just looking for anyone else who feels the same, or went through this before getting diagnosed. I’m not even sure I’ll believe the diagnosis if I even get one— maybe they’ll just tell me I have it because they get tired of looking. I just don’t know what to do.

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u/Slight_Wind9283 — 2 months ago
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I really don’t want a pots dx…

I’ve been having sympoms for years, and my doctor wouldn’t listen. When I told him about my issues, he’d say it’s anxiety or that I’m too young to be even complaining about these symptoms.

He’d say that everybody gets dizzy when they stand up. That I need to work out and gain more weight, drink more water. He said the feeling of heart palps was in my head, it’s just anxiety. I began thinking that it was all in my head, especially when the bloodwork that I begged for came back normal.

So, I found a different doctor. She brought up the idea that I might have pots. After researching, I’m scared this might be my dx. I know I’m going to get a lot of people pissed off when I say this, but I’m not trying to invalidate anybody. It’s just that pots seems like a dx that doctors give you when they see something’s not right, but they can’t figure it out.

I got diagnosed with idiopathic hypersomnia after a sleep study. I’m constantly exhausted and no amount of sleep helps with that. After years of trying to get a dx, I was told I have IH and they can’t do anything about it. Being diagnosed was my goal, I was excited that I finally had an adnormal test result on paper to validate how I was feeling, but in the end, it meant nothing. They can’t do anything about it.

I feel like this is a losing battle and I’m never going to feel better. I’m just… tired.

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u/Slight_Wind9283 — 2 months ago

Does anyone else like to explore abandoned places?

I guess I can relate to them. They’re quiet, and overlooked. Alone and often gloomy, but beautiful in a way. “Normal” people tend to avoid them because they can be scary or seem boring on the outside. It’s the only places I can truly feel like myself… whoever that is.

u/Slight_Wind9283 — 3 months ago

I won’t ever stop…

I keep going through this process of picking, then healing, then ruining it and picking again. It won’t stop. I won’t stop. I’ve hidden my “tools,” but I’ll find a way, I just know it. I’ve used wooden toothpicks, sharp metal pimple-popping tools (my favorite method), paperclips, tacks, razor blades, box cutters, scissors. And even when there’s nothing around, I can always just pick using my nails or teeth.

I HATE the healing process. The way it gets sooo itchy and it looks diseased. It looks worse while it’s healing. I’d rather have people judge me for wearing fingerless gloves during summer than show them my healing process. It feels thick, itches on the inside. No matter what I do, it itches. I feel it going all the way down my wrist, all the way down my arm.

I’ve seen multiple doctors, derms, psychs— I know how to heal. I know how to use different coping mechanisms and how to stop. I know I can stop— I’ve stopped for about half a year once. But I always come back to it. Nothing’s quite like it. The feeling it gives me.

And even when I’m healing, I know I’ll do it again. I’ll always come back to it. It just takes one stressful day, or me absent-mindedly falling into the old routine. The ritual. And I love it. I love finding a place and pealing the skin off. It’s almost intoxicating and personal. I know it’s sick, and I’m mentally ill, and that I should stop. And I do. Sometimes.

But I know I’ll always be in the cycle. Picking. Healing. Picking. This is my life now. And it’s my fault.

The last picture is the best one I have of what the damage looks like after one of my sessions, but I usually do that to the entire side of my hands and my thumbs. That picture is from the time I was trying to get the sides of my hands to heal, so I just picked at my fingers. The other pictures I have are from when I was documenting the healing process (when I used to think I’d be healed and done afterward).

u/Slight_Wind9283 — 3 months ago
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My mom tried to give me this

Not too old, but they don’t make this anymore. Thought it was cool. It’s not even opened, still has the protective seal on it.

u/Slight_Wind9283 — 3 months ago