u/Smegmarshmallow

22 year old here. Got some cute outfits and makeup but nobody to wear it to hangout with. Bonus point if jirai kei as I'm trying to get into that!

I'm extremely drunk rn and I can actually feel my emotions properly. I only feel this way when drunk and in my dreams. Anyone else able to cry and feel emotions when drunk?

I'm going to preface this by saying I'm already diagnosed with PTSD from a prior event. Something "actually traumatic" happened to me in my teens. >!I was stabbed by a family member after enduring months of physical and emotional abuse. Was also almost killed on multiple occasions. Too many events happened but it does make mental health professionals speechless when I talk about it!<

A little over a year ago I was dumped by my ex suddenly. It was very out of nowhere and I feel like I haven't recovered since then. I was extremely emotionally invested in it and it was the first time I trusted someone enough to let myself try to love them.

Since then, I've been getting symptoms that remind me of when I first got diagnosed with PTSD. I can't think about things related to the relationship without getting triggered. I get multiple nightmares every single night. My depression and apathy has gotten worse and I've been drinking almost everyday.

Is it possible for a breakup to count as trauma? Am I being a little bitch?