u/SmokeLatter8368

maybe some of yall have seen my last post and know that im really struggling with binging on gluten lately and i somehow have made it like 4 days already without binging gluten , 2 days without binging at all .. i binged the other night but made sure everything was gluten free so before yall hate , just know that im really trying 😭

anyways today im struggling again .. my mom brought home free donuts that she got at work today .. literally a huge box 24 krispy kreme donuts and it has been literally killing me all day 😭

she knows im celiac and she trusts that i wont eat them but she knows i’ve been struggling .. i havent touched them all day but its night now and everyone is sleeping and i am soooooo tempted . i ate my last gluten free meal of the day but i keep going to the kitchen to look at them wanting to take one but i keep stoping myself .. so im writing this post in hopes that someone can convince me not to eat them ?? i know i need help , dont worry i have a psychiatrist appointment scheduled but for today can someone pls keep me away from these donuts ?? my mom specifically put them in the freezer so that i dont eat them but uh .. i can just microwave them 😭 i know this is probably so stupid and yall can make fun of me but im literally biting my nails and trying to stay out of the kitchen but the food noise is so loud and the binging urges are so strong but im tryyyinnngggg so hard i really am , any advice would be helpful just pls don’t be too harsh on me

UPDATE - thank you guys for all the supportive comments , i am safe for tonight and gonna try to sleep now . but i am glad that i came to this subreddit first before acting on the urges because your comments really helped a lot 🫶🏻🫶🏻

UPDATE 2 - sorry just random question but why do even my comments thanking people get downvoted ?? do people in this subreddit just really hate me so much

sorry i posted this in the other binge eating disorder community and im reposting here just to reach more people bcuz i feel like this disorder will literally be the death of me

this post is literally just a cry for help bcuz i don’t know what to do anymore , i need help so badly but therapist appointments are weeks away and im suffocating at this point

the last like month or so i’ve relapsed so bad that i do not remeber the last time that my binging was THIS bad , im literally eating everything in sight and even foods that im allergic to 😭

i literally cannot stop eating , i have even been crying to my mother bcuz im so tired of this but i just can’t stop . i tell myself everyday that “this is the last time . last binge . i’m done” and then the next day comes and im fine for a while but then the night hits and the urges come on so strong that i literally feel like it’s not even in my control anymore , the urges are so fucking strong that literally nothing , no thought , no distraction can block them out .. it is a force stronger than me that i feel like is no longer in my own control .

i feel like shit every single day cuz i feel so tired from all this food , im bloated asf , and my emotions are completely depleted . i want to stop , i need to stop .. i don’t know how to stop .

i don’t drink alcohol , i don’t do drugs or smoke but i feel like i would take that over binge eating atp , im just so fucking tired of this .

i had a huge binge tonight .. pasta , bread , donuts , chili , potatoes .. i feel nauseous , dizzy , so bloated that i can hardly move or breathe , i have no energy to talk or do anything at all so im starting all over again and telling myself this was the last binge . i’m done . i want to be done with this and never binge again .

i think the longest this last month i went without binging was 3 days and i actually started to feel so much better physically but then the urges hit again and there went my 3 day streak 😭 and back to feeling like shit lol

can someone pls help me ?? advice , anything ?? pls i need some kind of support . my mom doesn’t know how to help me anymore and neither do my friends .. but it would help so much if someone could keep me accountable . can anyone help me ?? is there anything that could help me stay motivated if today is my “day 1 binge free” .. like it feels useless to even say that at this point cuz the cycle just repeats itself anyways , but maybe someone has some helpful advice or tips that could help me stay motivated this time so i could go longer without binge eating ?? pls i need help so bad and idk where to reach for it anymore 😭 i really really need today to be my last binge ever . i need my life back . pls pls help me

this post is literally just a cry for help bcuz i don’t know what to do anymore , i need help so badly but therapist appointments are weeks away and im suffocating at this point

the last like month or so i’ve relapsed so bad that i do not remeber the last time that my binging was THIS bad , im literally eating everything in sight and even foods that im allergic to 😭

i literally cannot stop eating , i have even been crying to my mother bcuz im so tired of this but i just can’t stop . i tell myself everyday that “this is the last time . last binge . i’m done” and then the next day comes and im fine for a while but then the night hits and the urges come on so strong that i literally feel like it’s not even in my control anymore , the urges are so fucking strong that literally nothing , no thought , no distraction can block them out .. it is a force stronger than me that i feel like is no longer in my own control .

i feel like shit every single day cuz i feel so tired from all this food , im bloated asf , and my emotions are completely depleted . i want to stop , i need to stop .. i don’t know how to stop .

i don’t drink alcohol , i don’t do drugs or smoke but i feel like i would take that over binge eating atp , im just so fucking tired of this .

i had a huge binge tonight .. pasta , bread , donuts , chili , potatoes .. i feel nauseous , dizzy , so bloated that i can hardly move or breathe , i have no energy to talk or do anything at all so im starting all over again and telling myself this was the last binge . i’m done . i want to be done with this and never binge again .

i think the longest this last month i went without binging was 3 days and i actually started to feel so much better physically but then the urges hit again and there went my 3 day streak 😭 and back to feeling like shit lol

can someone pls help me ?? advice , anything ?? pls i need some kind of support . my mom doesn’t know how to help me anymore and neither do my friends .. but it would help so much if someone could keep me accountable . can anyone help me ?? is there anything that could help me stay motivated if today is my “day 1 binge free” .. like it feels useless to even say that at this point cuz the cycle just repeats itself anyways , but maybe someone has some helpful advice or tips that could help me stay motivated this time so i could go longer without binge eating ?? pls i need help so bad and idk where to reach for it anymore 😭 i really really need today to be my last binge ever . i need my life back . pls pls help me

idk if there’s any specific subliminals for this but also any specific affirmations or anything??

but is this even possible. has anyone been able to do this ??

i really want to get back in contact with my middle school best friend. i mean it’s been like 10 years since i’ve seen him and i know we both had feelings for each other back then and life has changed but he keeps showing up in my dreams and that always makes me miss him so much 😭 and like i sometimes have dreams with other people from my middle school but whenever he shows up, it’s always so nice and feels so real and then i just start thinking about him again and try so badly to find how to contact him but i can’t find anything on him so i give up and just forget it.. but he shows up in my dreams at least like once a year and then i go into a spiral for a couple days just constantly thinking about him lol

he showed up in my dream last night and we were hugging and it felt so real and omg i just miss this guy so much.

the thing is like , he moved in 8th grade and we lost contact since then but all the other people from my school are so easy to find on facebook , instagram .. but this guy i can’t find anywhere at all :(

is there any way that i can manifest to like run into him in public ?? or that my socials show up for him somewhere ?? idk anything like that , like can i manifest that he finds me ?? i hope this makes sense lol

i’ve been so scared to write this post because i feel like ill get so much hate but i know that what im doing is very bad , i dont need lecturing and hate .. i need some kind of support and encouragement . this post is literally just a cry for help because im struggling so badly and idk what to do anymore or who to turn to , and i know that im slowly killing myself this way thats why im writing this post in hopes that maybe someone can write something encouraging and it’ll be the exact thing i need to hear to give me the motivation to stop doing what im doing. i really don’t know , but i know sometimes a strangers words have the power to save someone so i guess thats what im going for with this post 😭

basically i was diagnosed celiac as a kid , im in my early 20s now , and i ate gluten a lot growing up in my teen years just at school and with my friends , keeping it a secret from my parents (horrible, i know) but the last like 4 or 5 years i’ve been strictly gluten free up until like 2 weeks ago ?? i honestly have no idea what has happened to me but i feel like i’ve just completely lost it 😭 i had a history of eating disorders yes , but the last two weeks i’ve been binging on gluten almost every single day like i feel like i literally cannot stop .. i actually cried about this yesterday to my mom cuz i actually feel so helpless , i tell myself everyday that im going to stop and i don’t wanna do this anymore but then it’s like some force comes over me and i cannot stop myself . it’s this screaming voice where i can’t even focus and i feel empty and numb if i don’t binge on a bunch of gluten . but this is making me depressed . it’s so easy for me to eat gluten because i barely have any symptoms other than bloating and slight stomach pains and fatigue but i want to stop doing this so badly. please , if anyone has some advice or words of encouragement or anything that can convince me to stop doing this to myself , i know you guys will tell me that this is slow sueofside and i know that. but no thought in the world is helping me stop right now. i know i have to see a counselor but appointments are a month away and i need something to help me stop now so i don’t do this again tomorrow 😭

UPDATE- i am so sorry if i don’t answer every single comment but i have read all of them and i just want to thank every single person who commented. all of your support and words of encouragement means so much to me and it was extremely comforting to read. to those of you who relate and also struggle, thank you for sharing your stories and i truly empathize. i am currently about 15 hours without gluten/binging of any kind and am going to try to survive this whole day without it and hopefully keep going longer. your comments have helped me a lot. thank you ❤️❤️

sorry not sure what sub to ask this in , but maybe someone knows a good “technique” for this here .. i want to take a picture of a photo print with my phone but its always reflecting light or like showing a reflection of my shadow holding my phone ?? if that makes sense . i just want a clear picture of my printed picture/photo print , im not sure what its called but im sure you guys understand what i mean.