u/Some_bird_

So I'm not really someone who can handle having an unpopular opinion to the point not even r/unpopularopinion can back me up because its usually an opinion so niche people don't bother rebelling against. When I like something everyone else hates or hate something everyone else likes, it makes me feel like I'm in the wrong for something and that I have the "wrong opinion". I usually try to find at least 1 person with the same thoughts as me to at least feel less like an outcast and when I cant find one or it's getting dogpiled to a pulp, it makes me feel like my opinion os even MORE wrong which leads me to making many "Am I the only one who..." posts that I end up deleting after 10 or 20 minutes, sometimes to my dismay getting TOO much attention, not really on my side, and I delete the post in shame of what I posted. It does hurt seeing 7 downvotes on an opinion I commented compared to if it was just a fact I got wrong or me unintentionally acting like a jerk.

I really should stop caring about what other people think and stick to my own opinions without feeling shame, but its really hard cause I get so defensive over things I like that are hated by many, and resentful over things loved by many, specially if those two are pit against each other in an argument. I feel like I should stop trying to seek for someone else's opinion just to prove my opinions aren't wrong. Opinions are subjective, and not everyone will agree and that's fine, it's just that feeling of being excluded that drives me crazy at times.

Heck, even making this post I'm already starting to consider just deleting it after 10 minutes, specially if it ends up suddenly blowing up. I just wanna find ways to stop caring about what others think and be content with my tastes/distastes without feeling like I'm stupid or in the wrong.

I've (18F) been feeling depressed for a while now but lately it has been really severe to the point I refuse to eat, drink, shower, or sleep, and I've been more irritated by noise and people. I cannot go to therapy as my family has no money to pay for it right now and are more focused on a vacation trip I've been awaiting since March/April. Whenever i bring up to my mom (59) that I want yo feel more supported mentally she beings up that she cant pay for therapy right now up until the trip. My mental health has been deteriorating rapidly and ive had really really dark thoughts about ending it all. My friends, as much as I appreciate their support, can only do so much. I feel constantly criticized by my family, told to "change the chip" of my depression, and it has been making me feel not very safe, like i can't express my full feelings in this home without being criticized for it. I cannot own any pets either, rven though its one of the few things that make me feel a little better. I cannot go to a clinic on my own as i got no money or car to get there and i don't got insurance either. I've been ghosted by several chatlines so i have nowhere to go. This vacation trip is my sole motivator to keep going, as i dont look forward to anything else after that, and im hoping my mental health is at a stable point or else it'll go so deep to the point I cannot take it anymore. I'm barely holding on, given that I cannot break out of my habit of using self starvation and dehydration as a punishment for how i feel, i feel like I forgot to be kind to myself. I really need help. I tried seeking help everywhere, i just don't want any more doors shut on me. I need help. Please.

I generally really like seeing patterns and colors on mythical animals tho i always see people hunt for solids and semisolids and I don't understand why outside the fact they're rarer. With semis i kiiinda get it because some can create interesting new patterns but solids have no patterns. I dont see many people actually use solids unless they're black and white. Still, though, this is out of pure curiosity! Maybe i havent been on this game enough to see more full grown solids! I wanna learn to appreciate solids and semis a little more so i wanna hear your opinion on them and what makes them so appealing so i can start to like them a little more!

I've been considering getting into plush making sometime and I saw that crochet tends to be a very common tactic. I love seeing people's creations with crochet and I've been considering joining a club or classes to start making plushies. However, that got me wondering if adding fabric over a crochet base would also look good? I love the natural look crochet plushies have but I also love the smooth texture some other handmade plushies have, so would it be possible to combine both things and use crochet as a base and adding fabric on top? And how easy would it be to implement it? Would it be easier to just make a full fabric plush from scratch or is using crochet a good way to get the base right?