u/Straight_Group_1734

I’m at UT Austin right now, and I’m confused and disappointed. I’d love advice from anyone .
there are 13 sororities. After opening convocation, we had to rank our top 10. we hadn’t even met the sororities yet.
axo is my dream . It’s NOT a “top” sorority at UT, but it was the reason I decided to rush.
I tailored my resume for axo, had at least 3 recommendations (including UT alumni) and chose my values for values-based recruitment based on the values associated with their chapter.
today I found out I didn’t get an invite from axo. They cut me before I had the chance to meet anyone in the chapter.
I ranked Theta, even though it’s the top sorority here, and I ended up getting 7 houses back (the maximum is 10).
I need to stop focusing on the chapter that cut me and be open-minded about the houses that did invite me back.
But I’m struggling I can’t stop wondering why they cut me because many actives follow me, i had recommendations (from alumni from ut), and i tailored my application to them.

should i be concerned that I only got seven houses back when the max is 10?

The kennedy, kenna, kayla, AK, marissa, karley group is extremely tight. they were on her bachelors trip with her and some were even in her wedding

crazy that DCC claims to be all shout woman empowerment but when a woman uses her voice and stands up she gets cut. hannah and brennan were apparently cut for voicing out their opinions on covid protocol. and hannah got cut even tho she was on SHOW GROUP the year before.

and erika was fired and then shamed by cassie trammel where cassie aired out on insta “erika was fire bc she couldn’t do her job, i’d tag her but she blocked me 😂”

the way this organization treats cheerleaders is terrible. no other dcc woulda gotten away with that comment besides nepo baby cassie. and nepo baby hayley is proving to be a problem too

i've belived in jesus for around 10 years but was a teen and child living in my parents house so i was influenced by them and didn't convert. however almost immediately as i left for college, i converted to christianity around sept or oct and i've prayed every night and look up bible verses for every problem i have. i read a new verse every night before months.

however, this past week or so i've started to lose faith. i've been watching testimonies and begging chatgpt to prove it to me. i think one thing contributing to me losing faith was bc i saw a video where it said "u spending hell in eternity is based on where ur born bc ppl born in india are hindu, ppl born in pakistan are muslims, ppl born in israel are jews, etc." and i think it contributed to me losing faith. christianity and bible verses brought my peace and i loved talking to jesus. but now i im losing faith. please help!! i wanna spend eternity with jesus i pray and thank him and state what im greatful for daily but im losing so much faith to the point where bible verses aren't even bringing me comfort anymore bc im losing faith.

pls someone share a story of how u were in a similar situation and got out of it and or just any advice is helpful!!