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I’ve been a fan of Taylor’s for most of my life. I went to the red tour, the reputation tour (where I was invited to meet her), the eras tour. I used to run a fan account on tumblr where she followed me. When I say I was a big fan, I mean it.

But the last few years have really put a bad taste in my mouth. There is no celebrity on earth who I am willing to put my morals aside for, including her. The use of ‘bitches’ to refer to women in her latest album despite saying in interviews how there’s ’no such thing as a bitch’. The refusal to speak up against the White House using her songs/clips from her tour on their social media to promote their heinous actions. And now, inviting a man who runs an ICE detention centre to her WEDDING. I’m absolutely disgusted.

Fans can argue all they want that ‘she’s just a helpless scared little girl!!!!’ But the truth is, she’s a grown 36 year old woman with enough money and power to make REAL LASTING change, and she actively chooses not to. At best, she’s a people pleaser who needs to snap out of it. Maybe it’s because I’m fans of celebs who actually speak up (Olivia Rodrigo, Hayley Williams), but this silence from her is deafening. And no, I don’t expect Taylor Swift to be the voice of politics, but when you care so deeply about something, you wanna speak up even if it means losing money or ‘friends’. This is shown in her Miss Americana documentary, which I don’t think was fake. I think at the time she genuinely felt this way. But now that it benefits her to associate with more right wing people, that’s what she’s doing. It’s all a game.

I think who you choose to surround yourself with says a lot about you. And Taylor’s current circle is very telling. If she wants to be the wife of a manchild for the rest of her life, so be it. But to be so out of touch, so careless… it’s disgusting.

If not supporting her while she runs in the same circles as people who do/promote people who do active harm on the world makes me a ‘fake fan’ then I’m the fakest fan there ever was.

I’m now looking to sell my collection of signed items (including a rare signed picture of her from the rep era that I got when I met her). If she can make money off exploiting her fans, I figured I should make some money too.

I’m in my late twenties, I live in a house-share with 5 people bc that’s all I can afford, I quit my job due to health issues and am unemployed getting rejections left right and centre. I am single, and the only people that come into my life use me and discard me, I’ve had 2 of my exes come back recently just to mess with my head and all I see is everyone getting engaged, married and having the perfect family. I know social media isn’t real but every part of my life is an absolute disaster and I’m so tired. I do yoga every day, I read, I have hobbies and I try to remain positive. But life has truly beaten me down and I’m just done. I don’t know how much more I can take. It’s gotten to the point where I’m not even scared of death because what about this life is there to miss?

My ex from 3 years ago called me out of the blue yesterday afternoon. I didn’t answer it, but I did send a text a few hours later saying I saw the missed call and I hope everything’s okay. Since then he hasn’t responded. While I haven’t lost sleep over it, it does make me feel stupid for texting in the first place. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t trying to rekindle anything with that message, I genuinely just wanted to check if he was alright because it was so out of the blue and he told me years ago he would never talk to me again and he never goes back to exes etc. etc.

I feel like I fell for the trap of an ex seeing if they still have access to you, and while he certainly doesn’t have that kind of access to me (I would never take him back), it’s still made me feel a bit uncomfortable. I thought maybe, just maybe, he might be finally giving me that apology he never really gave me. But now I’m back at day 1 no contact feeling stupid

So I left my old job a month ago for health reasons and I do not regret that decision at all as I was unable to continue the job due to said health reasons. However, I have yet to even secure an interview for any job and I’m at my wits end.

For context, I have a degree, I have 5+ years of customer facing and hospitality experience, I have work experience, volunteering experience etc. I initially was applying for jobs in my chosen field related to my degree, but despite having my degree, multiple examples of work experience, voluntary roles related to the field, and tailoring my CV and cover letter to each role, I’m not even getting invited to any interviews.

So I thought okay maybe I need to look further afield: I looked at different industries, entry level roles, administrative roles, receptionist roles… again, nothing. And again, for each of these roles I tailored my CV and cover letter for each company. I’ve updated my LinkedIn profile, connected with people from companies, emailed companies directly… nothing.

So I was like okay I need money so let me just get a part time retail job in the meantime… I couldn’t even get an interview for a part time cafe job.

Maybe I’m doing something wrong, I have no idea anymore. But I’ve taken every bit of advice I’ve been given, applied for every type of role imaginable, tailored my CV and cover letters… and still nothing.

So I guess my question is: what the hell do I do now? What do you do when no job will even give you an interview?

After 10 years of him coming in and out of my life, I’ve finally had enough. This time when he came back around, I noticed just how badly my body was reacting to it all. I could barely sleep or eat due to how bad my anxiety was, even when he was around.

I didn’t tell him I was gonna do it, as he knew if he started treating me like he used to again that he would never hear from me again, and I really meant it. I’ve just had enough of the toxic cycle. It sucks as I still care about him and I feel sad, but I know it’s for the best. I’m just completely drained

I just wanted to share a story on here to remind you that your ex is an ex for a reason and sometimes you’re better off not wanting them back.

For context, my ex and I dated 10 years ago, on and off for a few years when we were young. Each time, he betrayed me more than the last. He stood me up, ghosted me, you name it. But I was so in love with him (or what I thought was love at the time) that I always hoped he would come back one day and just admit what he did was messed up and apologise.

Well, that happened. Recently, we got back in touch and it was nice. He apologised multiple times and we started chatting more. We ended up meeting up and he seemed to have changed. He took full accountability for what happened and was definitely more respectful. However, he told me about his relationship he had after me, showed me their matching tattoo and it made me sad to think when I was picking up the pieces, he was out getting matching tattoos with another woman. He said he wanted to see me again, but go slow this time and do it properly. That’s what everyone wants to hear from someone who discarded them, right?

Well, it’s what I thought would heal me. Instead, it’s left me ridden with anxiety, as it’s brought back all the memories. I still had trauma from that time that I didn’t even realise. And it made me realise that the trust is gone. And going slow and ‘seeing how it goes’ with someone you have so much history with just isn’t an option. I would need consistent, proper effort, communication and to be a top priority for me to even consider feeling safe with him again. But even after all the changes he made, I still didn’t feel safe. I’ve now blocked him out of fear and panic and I’ve spent the last few days spiralling. I feel awful about blocking him with no explanation as I know how it feels, but I just don’t think I have the strength to talk to him right now.

If you’re missing your ex and wanting them back, please remember why you became exes in the first place, and that maybe this is for the better.

I hate how every month I can feel okay until a certain time of the month when I just feel so depressed I can barely get out of bed. I have felt so depressed the last few days and I know as soon as my period starts I’ll feel better, but the wait is excruciating. And the worst part is I’m on medication that is supposedly meant to help with PMDD symptoms and yet I still feel awful. Just feels so hopeless